>29M>raised catholic>one mother, one older sister>mother clinically depressed since forever>older sister abused by step father (my bio father and uncle separately)>i grow up without a father figure>witnessed violence, sister hitting mother>sister hits me as a child>I go to therapy at 16 for 9 months>makes it worse, tells family everything>abandons faith>major trust issues through 20s>sleeps with an escort at 23 and 26>completely broken and regrets it all>returns to faith at 27Comment too long. Click here to view the full text.
>>34782538I think I could’ve got those things if I tried years ago. In fact, I definitely could’ve but won’t go into why. I lived my life as a recluse from 18-25, going to and from work and that was it. I waited so long doing nothing and now, if this were a job history, it translates to unemployed. I did this to myself
>>34782542That's what we call cope. It's probably time to admit to yourself that you're not an angelic warrior depicted in Christian paintings. What's the difference now that you're trying as opposed when you weren't trying but totally would if you wanted? Lol. Nobody cares about your experience when you're in the phase of meeting people, and you obviously know where the pussy is located due to hookers, so you wouldn't even have to tell the girl about it. Looksmax and stop coping. Use apps, because EVERYBODY uses apps. If not, and you're not ugly, you should easily get acquainted with them in whatever clubs you're thinking of joining, but I have suspicion that you won't.
>>34782562I’m gonna try the apps in September. Look I’m not saying I’m chad but I wouldn’t say I’m offensively ugly, but I am underweight but gaining. Wore a short sleeve tee for the first time today in years and felt confident, arms looked decent so another month of my bulk and I’ll be fine. And I’m not saying I’d get 10/10s back then but I’m confident that I could’ve been with someone back then because women did show interest but I was too stupid to read the signs. I didn’t want to believe that they liked me. Really it was just two women. One I didn’t like, one I actually did but I didn’t realise she liked me back. Anyway, I’m gonna use the apps and see where it goes in September. I’ve heard they can be brutal but I’ll get a match and a date after awhile. I just don’t want casual sex which is why I’m a bit weary of them. I want a connection.
>>34782570it's brutal if you tie your ego to it.just stay healthy and don't make using it the center of your universe. if you join groups you'll have that as well, so all your eggs aren't in one basket.if you look like you take care of yourself and are 6-7/10 and don't act like a tinfoil dispenser you'll be fine.be careful of people that use it to get you to follow their instagram/onlyfans or are just there to hold you at a distance so you feed them compliments.
>>34782593That’s encouraging. Got to work on the tinfoil dispenser part. I definitely like the sound of groups more. I’d rather go out and seek it rather than wait for a noise on my phone
How should a Middle Eastern girl go about finding and dating White guys with brown girl fetishes? Are there forums or websites I should go on? I’m a virgin and I have never been in a relationship before.Any advice is appreciated!
>>34781967forgot to mention there's also globalpenfriends if you want something more pen pal as opposed to language learning (hellotalk) or dating app (duolicious).some people look for travel partners on that site i think
>>34781823Hey
>>34781823Be brave.>see cute guy>approach and say "hi, excuse me">say something like "i thought you looked cute and i was wondering if i can get your number">if yes, you win>if no, that sucks but at least you tried, just don't give upIn my opinion both genders should learn how to approach each other. Don't wait for the other to do it.
>>34781823Look for your nearest white supremacist or right winger
>>34782466>both genders should learn how to approach each other.heretical.
I have self harm scars I made some weeks ago on my leg and my leg hurts for some reason, how can i ease the pain? How do the SH anons typically deal with this?
>>34780425stop self harming and problem will be solveduse something like soap, water and neosporin to clean it then take ibuprofen or acetaminophen for the pain.
>>34780425Why self harm if you don't want the pain? Nigga stop being a pussy pain is the whole point lmao. I had nerve pain for 8 years from slitting my wrists it was great
>>34780477>I had nerve pain for 8 years from slitting my wrists it was greatI'm glad you're still around. Hope you are doing good, and if you aren't I hope it gets better.
>>34780565Life just got to the point where the risk of failure was worse than anything else desu lol
>>34780474Thanks man the pain is gone>>34780477I like the pain when i cut myself but i don't like the pain when im happy
I genuinely don't know how to move forward, I was 6 months clean and I thought it was done, but I relapsed again for literally no fucking reason, I had all the time to calm myself down, I threw out all my blades a month ago , it's literally the day before my birthday and pretty much everyone around me is happy, for fucks sake a relapsed with a fucking sewing needle, I'm home alone and I feel so pathetic, I tested kitchen knives and went for a needle, and despite how awful I feel I want to do again, tomorrow I might sneak off to steal some blades, I guess it's better than ending it all over bs, I'd rather have my thighs burn, I did it but instead of feeling better I just want to continue, I wish I chose a less obvious addiction because I know everyone is gonna be all over me and worried, the guy I've been hooking up with will probably tell someone and it'll spread, everyone knew healthier me and within a few minutes I'm back to the hole I thought I escaped. At least despite them being shallow asf they're still swollen now which helps a little
>>34782185I've tried to get help many times but everytime I'm on the right track I start again, as for why I'm here I don't know, I'm just speaking to the void and trying to understand what's wrong with me, I guess it's insecurity, everytime I get better I feel like I don't deserve it and go back, I finally made it 6 months, didn't even do after an intense breakup, but somehow on a random Saturday I couldn't help it
Apologies if it's difficult to understand English isn't my first language
Small update ig, my friend is coming over soon and my family too, I don't know what I'm gonna so I'm still so anxious,
>>34782199how much effort do you want to put in thisyou're a danger to yourself when you're alone. the more alone you are the more a threat to yourself you are.i'd surround yourself with other people as much as possible.join clubs/groups in your citiy, goto church even if you're reading a book in the back, go to the library every day, visit family and friends, hang out in public. don't go home until it's bed time.hopefully you'll find a relationship at some point and lose your privacy.you should also google if there is a place in your area that offers rehabilitation for this. idk where you are in the world. maybe you can get a room mate as well if you're in an apartment.it sounds like a pain in the ass but these are the same sacrifices people with alcoholism and other addictions have to take, because some can't even see a drop of booze without drinking again.so hopefully your mind is open to tough solutions. it sounds like you need to find other ways to cope when shit gets real.
>>34782168Ur good blud relapse is part of recovery it's like meditation it's how you pick yourself back up that matters. I recommend being gentle to yourself don't beat yourself up, be kind while your return to your goals
I take hormones to jack off to my emasculation. I've decorated my room girly, I play girly characters in games, my pc theme is girly, I listen to girly music, I look up to my posters and I get turned on from thinking of being like them everyday. But I'm actually am a straight man (a masculine at that) and want to be normal and have a girlfriend and shit. I'm growing boobs from doing this hormone shit. Do I stop? I'm in my early 30s I've wasted my life because I'm avoidant so it's like I wanna stay pursuing this. I've considered laser and surgeries, I jack off to the idea sometimes. It's like if I become normal in my 30s how successful could I be? And how to define it? Fucking random women? Just getting one girlfriend in some beautiful poetic relationship that lasts for life? Why would a woman be superior to my lifelong sexual fetish that I indulge in almost all day? But I know it's rather lonely. Another fallacy is maybe the either or idea. I can do both theoretically. But I hate having to hide my boobs or probably growing them and I hate becoming infertile. Help me out give me some clarity pls. Also a part of me will get aroused from putting this out there, but I also want maybe some feedback.
>>34779949Bruh do you want to be a 60 year old man with gross man boobs and no family? Fix your life. Go. Do it now. Hit the gym. Fix your hormone problems. Find a girlfriend. You've become so deranged by isolation and porn that you are filling the absence of women in your life by being your own girlfriend. It's not going to work.
>>34779949If you genuinely aren't sure what's the right step to take then you really a soulless goy cattle and there's nothing for you to do.Find another hobby, take an interest in something "noble" (history, maths, art of any kind like literature or classical music...) and you'll find that there are probably deep down that you have a strong enough bedrock of moral principles that it is just not worth it to throw your life away to jerk off. Also for the love of god live your room. As soon as you enter your room your brain goes into sissy mode. Change room one way or the other, and delete all your accounts, throw your posters and your clothes etc. Then see if you actually want to return to it.
>>34779997I ESL'd hard here gomen. Didn't reread myself
>>34779949you have AGP, anon. part of this comes from not integrating your anima, and not accepting your feminine qualities inherent within you as a man, and the other part of you is riddled with porn sickness. you are self harming.
>>34781657>>34779997>>34779985Alright thank you I will stop HRT (again) seems to be fucking up my sleep anyways for some reason
Almost went to pound town with my biological mom a few years ago, still didn't fully move on. Now I have a sick obsession where I want to have an incestual affair at least once in my life, some morbid insatiable curiosity that makes me chase that like a playstation trophy. Really want to enter that hall of "fame" and see what it feels like.I certainly read and hear about people hooking up with cousins lots of the time at least. Am I as fucked up as I think I am?
>>34776015Well u should know that enjoyment starts where prohibition starts. When you draw a line you inadvertently create enjoyment. Why do you think Catholic sluts is a thing. Anyways ur a weirdo and I don't give a fuck about you so die or whatever
>>34782060You can die too, likewise. Actually no, I hope you die
>>34782213I will in 80 years fagot
>>34782213why are you bumping this?
>>34782228Faggot*
Does anyone else have this feeling like it doesn't feel worthwhile making an effort?I mean, I know if I exercised I'd look and feel better about myself, for instance. But that's not drawing me because... I suppose it doesn't feel like I'll gain much from achieving that. Although it is something that's motivated me in the past.Likewise anything else that's given me motivation in the past seems to be failing to do so these days.What's the point? It's just... there seems to be nothing I want badly enough to do anything about it. So I'm not depressed like I've got no hope, but I have no hope for anything better, so I guess I'll just keep chugging along, not miserable but not really happy either.
>>34781960the people that make these videos are fat and never leave their houses. they just eat up the last cryptozoomer bakesale drop and spew the same shit out to the next person.
>>34781911>laughs at self help book>proceeds to offer the average self help advice
>>34781960>Nobody cares about anything anymore.Manifestly untrue.>Nobody wants to get together anymore.Not with you, at least.>Nobody does anything without getting paid anymore.Again, manifestly untrue.>Nobody wants to do anything anymore.And yet, lost of people want to do things, just not with you.
>>34782147i summed up your novel in a few sentencesyour self help books proceed to give the authors life story with a sentence of advice. your brain will be so baked with the wikipedia article of narration that you're likely to miss the one grain of truth in the sand.if you wanna sell copies of your slop, go to a library
namefags are filthy retards, this one is no exception
I'm tired all time. I get enough sleep but I'm still tired. I did a general checkup and had a bloodtest and they say I'm normal. But I don't have energy for anything every day.How do you fix this?
>>34781754Weekends. That is why (they) allow weekends.
maybe it's something psychological, do you find your life routines to be boring or dreary in general? if so it's normal to not be energized to face the usual duldrum
>>34781761Yeah hope just makes you suffer more lol
I used to be like youStrangely enough, it got better when I got children, which makes no sense as I sleep a lot lessBut I now eat a lot less slop, always have stuff planned for the weekends, and feel like I have a more fulfilling life
>>34781754>How do you fix this?You might have a breathing issue. The other possibility is that you aren't a morning person. You wake up groggy. What used to happen is that you'd have to get up, get out, get to work, and your brain would eventually kick in. But instead of letting your brain kick in, you sit glued to a phone all day and prevent your brain from ever really waking up.
Advice on pulling older women (in their 30s) as a 20yo college student?Dating apps, where to meet etc.Right now I'm back in the gym trying to get jacked after gaining some weight (quit the gym 6 months ago).
I swear Gen Z isn’t obsessed with milfs and femboys so much as they are obsessed with easy sex. You’re 20 dude, that means you can hang out in places with young women. You’ll have plenty of time to fuck cougars when you’re their age. Get that young shit while you still can: go to clubs, swap numbers and fuck them within the first 3 days.
>>34782052*dates. Fucking autocorrect. But it’s not any easier mate. Hot women always go for hot people, regardless of age. If you want to fuck more then drop your standards
>>34782038>>34782052both these anons have a good point.don't think much else needs to be said.focus on just being attractive to women.how do you rate out of 10?do you have a pube beard? hairline? dress sense?height and weight?older women will feel a sense of shaming dating you and there's plenty in society that reinforces that. but as the man its your job to approach women so work on that confidence
>>34782071agreeface wise i'm like 4.5/10very little facial hair and baby face (i've been told i have a babyface by a lot od girls)i'm focusing on losing weight and building my physiquei'm bulky and have wide shouldersi have good genetics and some muscle, but i'm also fat180cm 90kgi've been in and out of gym for the past 3 yearsgo for a year, get jacked then quitso it's not a really big problem, i could get used to working out again pretty fast
>>34782107you're overweight but not obese, but you're in a land with higher standards than US.idk if girls like a babyface, but if you don't want that, change your hair to something more masculine. usually facial hair can hide that.im gonna assume you're young. facial hair is always slightly uncomfortable to start and doesn't feel or look right but since you're still trying to lose weight i'd experiment with growing it out and trying to shape it now. you have to look for bald spots and look up your face shape (heart, oval, etc) and see what works best to enhance your features.you definitely don't want that jd vance fat flubber that has brought him ire.id then join a group or club. yoga, hiking, church, whatever. people go to these events to socialize and they're usually desperate for new blood so they're more than accommodating. depending on where you live, many cities have clubs/groups for everything. just be a man, create a list and trial each for a laugh, and if it fails, you'll never see them again anyways
>spend 10 years on this>isn't even sellable or maybe for like 250 bucks (I would starve at that prices) Trying to become a pro artist is taugh brehs (just wanted to complain) still a bit to go
Imagine being an "artist" when I get better pictures from AI for free
>>34781442Imagine getting pictures from AI when you can literally imagine them in your head.
>>34778456Very, VERY few artists earn a living through their art. Warhol started in advertising, Magritte worked in it all his life, Koons was a Wall Street broker, and so on. Most contemporary artists, even big names, pay the day-to-day bills with day jobs, often as university teachers.
>>34781228My family gasps att my creations so I've gotten to believe I'm great. >>34781117Man it seems so grueling to do studies but I may have to lmao Like I'm making this for money and it took me 50 hoursIf the studies don't take me less time it's gonna be hell>>34781442I think art is the most resilient to ai automation since its soul to soul transmission, unless ai becomes sentient >>34781505What if I get da Vinci tier? >>34781005Yeh gotta work on composition Comment too long. Click here to view the full text.
>>34781852>>>34781505 (You)>What if I get da Vinci tier?Then you get a rich patron who pays your bills for you. Leoardo had the Church - today it would be a dealer or rich collector paying you a retainer for first choice
Ok so im downloaded dating apps again. This time i pandered pretty hard and made an objectively "good" profile. Ive been getting over 20 matches but the problem is everytime i ask them out they say that they are occupied for a week or two?... and its not just one or two girls who have said this, almost every single girl i have asked out has said this exact thing. I am well aware that at least half of them are there for validation. Is this some kind of courtship ritual they want to do? entertain them for 2 weeks before you even get LOOKED at for a date. Ive been out of the online game for a while, at least bak then you could schedule in person dates. GRIM. wtf....
>>34780332I don't think it is.Do you see how people discuss what opening line is the best? Truth is, if a girl is interested in you, you can say any bullshit and they will laugh it off.If they want you, they will let you know. If they don't want you, don't even waste your time.
>>34780296thats just how dating apps are these days, youre attractive enough to flirt but every girl is finding better guys than you. you need to up your game or just go out and rape a woman at night.
>>34780296Alright so I experienced this when I first got dating apps and it confused me too, so I’ll break it down for you. When a guy swipes right on a girl, it generally means he’s ready to go on a date/fuck immediately. Women have an intermediate stage. When they swipe right it doesn’t mean they want to fuck or go out right away, it means they have interest and you made it to the next round of vetting. They want a week or two of texting before meeting up. I believe this stems from two reasons; firstly women have more options than men so want to sort through their selection. Secondly dating/fucking/relationships have always and will always be higher risk for women. They can get beaten or impregnated and dumped. Even the biggest whores on the planet still have some morsel of these instincts left. Strategy: You have to play the game a bit and text them for a week or two. Couple messages a day is plenty. Try to be creative in comparison to other guys, but basically just copy and paste and go down your list of girls with the same shit. After a week or two see who bites. Never text a chick for more than two weeks because at that point nothing is going to happen and she’s just going to use you for attention.
>they say that they are occupied for a week or twoIts a filter for the men that wouldn't show up or worse. >dating/fucking/relationships have always and will always be higher risk for women. They can get beaten or impregnated and dumped.Download grinder. The men said they have no issue ordering pizza and having it arrive promptly.
>>34780843this could not be truer. my suspicions were confirmed when I started pressing them for an exact day to keep clear for me (literally in 2 weeks), and they would not even do this. they just keep saying "il let you know". The problem for me is is that i run the risk of being an orbiter, since i cant hold much of a conversation over text due to being a bit spergy. I know how to seal the deal over a few drinks so texting has never been my game. Is there any way to press them to go on a date sooner? i was thinking of saying "i got 2 tickets to x on saturday, wanna come" or something along those lines. then you run the risk of being relegated to a simp i suppose
From 1st grade to senior high school I was bullied a lot. Now in uni some people tried to bully me as well but I managed to stop them.I have anger issues and a deep sense of injustice and strong misanthropy that I can't let go of.I don't know what to do.
accept that power dynamics are a natural part of lifeoptionally, rape those that wronged you
>>34781855why are they bullying you?and what do you want, less people to bully you or to stop blowing up?it's like you're giving us an unfinished puzzle. what do you do to the people that bully you?
>>34781855Gym + learn martial arts.If you know you can kick their ass, you won't be bullied.
>>34781855The richest men in America are ALL ex-geeks who were bullied through high schoolLiving well is the best revenge.
out of a relationship >Quiet loneliness, but somewhat content>Don't really enjoy much casual sex, content to go a year or so without sexMeet some>We click, I try to be slow because I'm not cooked in the brain and don't wanna rush into insane shit>Everything's seems more or less GucciRelationship starts to get more serious >I completely lose my marbles and become nervous and moody mess>Break it off before it gets even more seriousPost breakup>Months of agony and losing my marbles. Proper losing marbles, borderline mania (diagnosed bipolar - yes I take my meds)It's just this cycle every couple of years, I'm fucking over it. Maybe I should just pull my finger out and monk mode long term. I think I'm not cutout for relationships, at least not for 5~ years minimum. It's not even like I go looking for a relationship, I just incidentally meet people and things go well for a little, then I chimp out. Sometimes there have been fundamental incompatibilities and I was right to end it, sometimes there was no interpersonal problems outside of my own monkey brain wiggling out, but either way it genuinely makes me a fucking wreck for months. I'm just over this bollocks.Anyone else got rarted brain syndrome about intimacy? How'd you fix it, how's it going for you, and for those who gave up fixing it, how long you been monkmoding, and how's it going? I'm genuinely considering jumping ship and joining a monastery and barring the possibility of romance from myself looong term.
what are your parents like?
>>34781733Physically and emotionally abusive, and also emotionally negligent, when I was young.
>>34781779look into self parentingfor me, its asking the Jean-Luc Picard in my head what he thinks
>>34781791I'm peripherally aware of it, I'll look into it more. CBT and a small dose of Buddhism and Taoism helped me fix most of my life bollocks, but relationships continue to elude me.
>>34781836it's the same shit, just more complicated, because the other person also has a backstorytherapy shit is the 'theory', it'll only get you so farput it into practice, fail, then do it again until it works
I'M SO FUCKING SICK OF FUCKING SWEATING ALL THE FUCKING TIME. I TAKE A SHOWER, DRY UP AND WALK TO THE OTHER ROOM AND MY SHIRT IS ALREADY DRENCHED IN SWEAT. I FUCKING HATE IT. I'D SKIN YOU FUCKERS ALIVE IF I COULD REPLACE MY SKIN WITH YOURS. I DON'T CARE IF YOU ARE BLACK.
>>34772386Don't post aqua in this board, hell.Can't do much about it anon. Same as you. If I run for 30 meters I'm literally a waterfall. Just stop coping, take a towel everywhere you go.
Wipe your armpits with hydrogen peroxide, I've been doing it and it really helps
>>34772386They make antiperspiration medications, if you sweat way more than one should sweat.
Bathe with coconut oil and baking soda
>>34772386Drink a couple of glasses of water before you get into the shower, if you're a bit overheated it'll make you sweat before the shower. Then, as others have said, make sure you don't shower too hot.
