Where do I go from here>19>debating college. Will most likely do the community college in my city and just get my gen ed courses out the way for the next 2 years soon at some point here>all my exes (all online) and flings (all online) were the most diabolically evil and disastrous things you can’t even begin to imagine. I would have to make a vocaroo to describe all of them>inb4 “that would be boring”>it actually wouldn’t, I have an entertaining voice and cadence and hate typing>im like 5’9 and some change, almost 5’10 from what I remember>I have a youthful soul like I’m still mentally 10, but not in the bad way. I can’t think of a way it would be, but contrarians are a thing here>mom is going through her second divorce>im more depressed than i think ive ever been>thinking of picking up a job at the fucking hallmark store, that’s the only option I may have right nowSo all this to say, where do (you) think I should go from here? I’ve accepted that I have to find a girl on like discord or on here somehow, as always. All my old friends (all online) I had since I was 15 all fucking disappeared or we just got too much distance between each other. I have no one and nothing. Please no unhelpful or overly negative/aggressive posts, just ignore and let this thread die if it’s that bothersome. Thanks dudes.
>>33770745>(all online)I mean it's nice if you both go along, but as you already noticed you end up with mentally ill people. Go into college, and do something without 99% guys in it. Then start figuring out a hobby/interest to pursue, and yes you have to figure that out yourself. Think about what you like do to, or what you would like to do. If you don't know anything, then you have depression, so just start doing anything with physical exercise. Also doing small jobs that makes you have to deal with people can help a lot in the long run. Main point is doing something, and not being stuck at home doing nothing.
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>>33770988 >start figuring out a hobby/interest to pursue, and yes you have to figure that out yourself. Think about what you like do to, or what you would like to do.Things like pottery class are only gonna expose me to moms who are NOT single, old people, and weird people. My hobbies right now are just watching tv and being on here honestly. I’d rather find friends who do the same, not ones that I’d have to fit in a mold for>>33771106That’s a self-doxx unfortunately. I’ve posted my voice on here already and someone from here I’ve sent voice messages to. Psycho girl with 30 year old guy friends. Too risky. I’m paranoid because of it now. Sorry
>>33771196OP here and I was just thinking of how I’ve been so fucking single that I tell myself I have an “angel gf” or the idea of a literal angel girl that crushes on me. Because no girls on this planet do. That’s insane. Like imaginary friend shit. I would post all this on r9k but it’s literally just all blogposting girls who think femcels exist on there so
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Don't know why all of this is happening to me.I feel so alone. I have my roommates and they are my friends but for some reason I can't stop feeling alone. Two of them are in relationships and do their own thing most of the time and the other one I love but is just super intense sometimes. They're (particular roommate is non binary) dear to my heart but they can be incredibly intense and I can't deal with them all the time. Despite living with my friends I can't help but feel alone all the time. Why am I like this?I'm constantly anxious and it feels to debilitating, Like the world is going to end and I'm at constant threat. My chest always feels tight and its annoying. I'm also disassociating a lot for some reason.I hate living in my body. Sometimes I realize that I'm living in my flesh and it makes me so mad and literally disgusted. Like this is the body of a monster. When I was a kid, I'd look in the mirror and be disgusted. I still do, but now its not just visceral disgust of my face. It's my entire body. It's not even because of weight or anything. I just literally feel like a monster.There's other issues but I'm too lazy to type it. I'm exhausted and miserable and I'm afraid I'm going to relapse on depression again and am afraid of actually going through killing myself since the last time I almost died. How do I become mentally healthy again? Just so so tired
>>33775195you may feel super lonely when others are in relationships>constantly anxiousthis may be trauma from home (cptsd)
>>33775269I had typical suburb child life. Depressed but played video games. Listened to music. Good at school. Quiet. Nothing severe its typical with at least 40% of usa teens
i'll do anything, I won't complain or make excuses. I feel like shit that genuinely people always make fun of me, hate me, reject me and realized at 24 that i'm a loser and it's getting to me. I don't know what to do to be more likable or have people actually interested in me. How do you guys do it?
>>33765860Your basic problem here is that you hate yourself and you think you're unlikeable. When you meet someone new, you are sending out a whole host of non-verbal signals which tell the other person how you're approaching the encounter and how you expect them to respond to you. Now, obviously everyone has their own agenda but, other things being equal, people tend to react to you the way that your signals tell them you're expecting them to react. So if you go into a conversation and every single signal you're sending out says "there is nothing good about me, it's impossible for you to like me" then people will pick up on that. Subconsciously they read the fact that you're unlikeable, and write you off before you've even opened your mouth. So, what you need to do is change your signals. Learn to *pretend* to be a person who likes himself and is confident. This is hard; it will take a long time, and it involves a lot of different things: how you dress, how you groom yourself, how you speak, and your posture, gestures, facial expressions, and other body language, and a bunch of other stuff too.Think of it like a stage performance: you need to start acting the part of a confident person. If you can do that convincingly, people will respond to you much more positively; and once they start doing that, you'll begin to acquire some genuine confidence, and after a while it won't be a performance any more.
>>33773053I also think i'm better off hanging out with social autists and weirdos. Every time I try to be confident or hype myself up people just shit on me anyways and feel weird of how I change. Everytyime I'm happy or I do something good for myself, people get angry. Maybe i'm just with the wrong people or something like my family, I really do not like my family yet I still live with them cause i'm poor. Once I move out and leave them i'll probably build a shit ton of confidence, it's hard to have confidence when people shit on you when you do.
>>33773221>Everytyime I'm happy or I do something good for myself, people get angry.I seriously doubt that. I think there's probably a lot more going on here than you're telling us - possibly more than you yourself realise.
>>33765860I was thinking the other day about this myself. I worked on practicing conversation with AI, and realized I don't really have much to say. Maybe you're like me?
>>33773425Probably am, I don't know, it's hard for me to start convos anyways>>33773364Should I mention that i'm short and black and look like a cartoon character? Or that i'm too neurotic and self aware? I don't know what you want from me man I don't know much about my self
I'm about to buy a product from Amazon.com to be shipped into the eu. This product isnt found on other amazon websites (we have local amazon websites here, like amazon.de, amazon.fr, etc)This is the first time buying something from the usa and it got me thinking, I wanna go crazy. Recommend me something under 50$ sold by amazon that isnt likely to be found in the eu that I could also buy.
I finally got invited to a film set as a guest/helper (so not paid)I have been on sets before but never on a personal invite for a specific job.I am beyond happy. Any advice?
>>33775075You should spend your time getting ready instead of writing attention-seeking posts masquerading as interrogation here. I recommend WIX for creating your own blog for free.
>>33775089Buy an add.Everything is set and ready.
>>33775094Did you mean the shortened version of the word "advertisement", or the verb meaning to join something with something? If it's the latter, I am quite intrigued to know where exactly I could get my hands on one of those in exchange of a sum of money.
>>33775150Fuck off anon. I know it's ad. Anyways suck dick.
My gf broke up with me a week ago. During the past week I've had to chance to process parts of the relationship and have realized some of the issues that seemed like such a big deal in the moment, were stupid and I was not handling them the best. I judged her a lot for her sexual past and now that I lost her I feel like I was so stupid for caring about it when I have had a past myself. We have had a lot of ups and downs in the last few months and I think in the last month we were finally on the path to stability. Unfortunately this fight blew up and led to this conclusion. I didn't know what I had until I lost it and I hate myself for losing her.The last time I saw her was when she asked to see me. I got really emotional and blew up at her. She was crying really bad and that's when I felt it was really over. I texted her the next day saying I wanted to see her and she blocked me. A few days later she blocks me on all socials. I know I fucked up by getting desperate at the end. I know I can be better in the future, whether for her or someone else, but I really want to try again because I wasn't able to cherish what I had.
>>33772386>I am mad that she wanted to meet that one last time. We ended wellish earlier that day, but seeing her again made me blow up at her.Wow! I see why she left you, now. You blew up at her so badly that you scared her into blocking you, and you're angry with *her* because you lost your temper and scared her?! Take some fucking responsibility for once! It was your fault, and your fault alone.
>>33772682Yeh it was pretty bad. I know I fucked up by being insecure. I wish this wasn't my first real relationship so I could learn these lessons earlier. In terms of details, I spam facetime her the next day and that led her to blocking me on text. She texted me later saying her friend is going to pick up her stuff and I didn't respond. I was just being really mean and made her feel scared. That was probably when I knew I fucked up and it's over.>>33772944Thank you this helped. Yeh that's the hardest part is not being able to reach out and apologize because I fucked up my chance at an apology. I don't think I'll contact her anymore. I wrote a letter and am debating to send it to her in a month, but we'll see... My birthday is also in a month and I am going to be devastated when I don't hear from her.>>33772980I got mad because I felt like it was unfair of her to want to see me again when I was set up to be in the process of healing. I didn't mean to blow up at her. I know it was my fault and I ruined any chance of us together again. It just sucks ass and I'm venting.
>>33769521I think it’s still salvageable. But definitely don’t messagebomb her if she ever unblocks you, which is what seems to have happened. Just say you want to talk.You should also be ready to cut your losses and avoid looking like a harasser. Maybe talk to her parents if you had a good relationship.> I judged her a lot for her sexual past and now that I lost her I feel like I was so stupid for caring about it when I have had a past myself.Yeah, I don’t think it’s right for you to complain that she wasn’t a virgin when you were fucking prostitutes your entire life.
>>33774747The thing I struggle with is how would I know if she ever unblocks me and puts less distance between us? I am weighing to text her in a month with a check in text and see if I'm unblocked. Idk if I should see if she texts me on my birthday or not then reach out or proactively reach out before. I will definitely give her space for the next month that is very clear to me. Tbf I mine is not nearly as extensive as hers, but it took me too late to realize how great she is as a person outweighs those negatives of her past for me.
I think the cope is I need to be ok that it's over. I know this is basically over, but am holding out hope that there can be a slim chance I get unblocked and we reconnect in a monthish. There is no downside for me looking bad for reaching back out because we were never gonna see each other anyway. Even if it's a slim chance I will take that risk. I just need to avoid crashing out and harassing her.If it's truly over then and the bridge is completely burnt I can then finally truly move on. I am working on learning from my mistakes now and will be better for the next person. Emotions got the best of me towards the end and I am not proud of it. This thread has been genuinely helpful and I appreciate all the anons coming in and telling me its more over it is.
>make profile on tinder>look at the profiles of local women>hobbies: clubs, wine, partying, travel, netflix>pictures: slutty clothingThey can't all be like this, right? Where can I find actual, real people? I'm not into these types.
>>33771056>I live here for 5 years now, and I still don't speak Dutch well enoughDutch is rated Cat 1 by FSI. Becoming fluent will take time, but after 5 years in country you should be able to go a whole day speaking dutch (shopping, small talk). Find some evening language classes ASAP if you intend to stay for several more years because osmosis learning never works.>and make her my gf>but I barely know herWhy do you think she'd make a good gf if you barely know her? Maybe she's a total bitch. This seems completely ass-backwards. If you just want to get laid there are easier options.
>>33765402>Meetups (meetup.com) hobbies (singing/acting/dancing/ssports groups)the only women that go to these events are grandmas
>>33765418LOL find a better church, there's a zillion its not hard to find one.
>>33772521>Find some evening language classes ASAPI found one! It starts in February. That's about when I'll get enough money to be able to afford it too haha. So yeah I appreciate your advice man. You're absolutely correct. > Why do you think she'd make a good gf if you barely know her? Maybe she's a total bitch.I've been meeting a lot of people, I think since March I met.. Like 500 new people. Personally. Like spoken to, not just seen in passing. So I have a good hunch about her. But I agree with you. I'm going to see her this Friday, and she'll hopefully join us for drinks this time. I'll try to catch her and talk to her some more. Then offer her to hang out. I'm going to phrase it like: I love your energy Georgie, do you want to go out for a drink or a walk? And yeah. See what she respondsAlso I'm not at a healthy weight yet, I'm half way there, so I'm starting to look normal, so yeah. Getting laid don't work for me at the moment
>>33765348women don't use tinder for dating, they use tinder to hook up with guys that are better looking than them (because they can't keep them around). You have to meet them irl somehow.
So, my family and I are moving to Florida (specifically Orlando) in a month, and eventually my YA NEET ass is going to have to move out on my own.Throughout school and my time with my still-unfinished degree in college, I was not trained for living on my own and I'm afraid I'm too autistic to pick up any new life skills at 25yobasically: Any tips for living alone, specifically in Orlando?
btw, I asked google for help and it wasn't very helpful
>>33772590Most people probably aren't "trained" for "living alone." Most probably just jump in and muddle through. You're not willing to try, make mistakes and pick yourself up and and try again, that's the issue.
>>33772757To illustrate what I mean, have you ever bought food from the market and used it prepared a meal at home while being a NEET? Can you open a can? Boil water? Launder, and if necessary, iron, your clothes?
>>33772774You're anxious over things women can figure out m8.Here's a simple explanation:>CookingFind recipes online. Make a list of things you need. Buy the ingredients. Follow the instructions. It may not work out for the first time but later it will. >laundryI know you've been told otherwise at school but don't mix whites and coloureds. Also I wash socks separately because otherwise I get mysterious matter on other clothes. Most of the settings on your washing machine are also a bit nonsensical, unless you're constantly covered in grease and dirt, set the temperature to circa 40 degrees C(like 110 F?) and press start, most programs will do just fine but whatever is labelled eco is going to do it the cheapest(and the longest), outside of it find some kind of quick wash mode as well for when you need it.>IroningFor most clothes you can avoid it by just taking the clothes out of the washing machine as soon as finishes and hanging them out straight. Generally the thinner the fabric the more likely you'll have to iron it. Ironing itself is self explanatory, you put the clothing item on the board and place the hot iron on top of it, move and rotate it, then iron again until all creases are gone.
why is it when i read some of the threads on here i begin to feel disturbed as if some of these scary situations have high chance of happening to me? this wasn't the case at all until i got through a really bad flu/cold a few years ago.
>why is it when i read some of the threads on here i begin to feel disturbed as if some of these scary situations have high chance of happening to me? Murphy's Law.
>>33774783>why is itIt is whatever you call the disease of being a perpetually-online, basement-dwelling, subhuman moron.
>29>live at home with elderly parents>job was practically handed to me and I don't feel like I earned it>wasted my 20s pursuing useless, low-prestige degrees from a commuter college and made zero social connections>horrible first 2-3 sexual experiences and the prospect just terrifies me now>don't even bother approaching women despite drinking alone at a bar at least once a week>can't get an interview for what few jobs I apply forwhat do I have to live for at this point. nothing feels worth doing.
>>33760249Permanent long term economic decline.What you're asking for was daily life for most boomers but that lifestyle was outsourced decades ago, you'd be better off daydreaming about winning the lottery.You could hope for a nice loft with a roommate and maybe meet a single mom with a couple kids when you're 40 as a high goal for the mid 2020s.It ain't the 1950s anymore and remember who to blame at election time.
>>33765171>I have an interesting job with a very specific skill that I can live off of >but I'm miserable because I didn't apply for itclearly you've proved to whoever you work for that you're good enough at your job for them to keep you around. I don't want to sound like the "the west has fallen" type doomposting but you kinda hit the lottery being able to make something that specific work for you. I think the real problem is how you feel about your life, or more specifically, your past. You gotta learn to live with yourself.
>>33766387>who to blame at election time.Both sides?
>>33766387this. nobody has a fulfilling life in 2025 except for the economic elites and rich pensioners.however voting for le other party isn't going to fix shit since it's the fucking jews doing it.
>>33760204My dude, everything except the last bullet point you just listed has an action from your part that can be taken to change your situation.
don't even like him that muchbut his personality = "perfect mom material">instantly replies to emails, clearly has nothing better to do>patiently explains basic stuff to idiot students over and over>class had just enough difficulty to patch my pitiful self-esteem>my actual mom barely gave a shit about me finally got "this is what I wanted" flavor for one semester>end of term = group projecthate it but grind anyway for sensei-chan >he believes dumb teammates saying I'm "not cooperating">he tells me "be kind to others"like bro, who do you think I'm suffering through this for??>weeks of watching my favorite class get slowly ruined>I wanted to make him happyhe didn't give a shit about meComment too long. Click here to view the full text.
>>33771893guess my actual problem is being stuck on this tiny little thing for a whole yearspend at least 14 hours a day looping the class and the fantasycan’t sleep all nightsomeone told me that’s OCDThat isn’t as compelling as that class was
>>33771570Never even considered teachers have to deal with menheras on a daily schedule they really deserve extra pay
>>33772049he wasnt dealing with me. i was dealing with his miserable group project decision which ruined the whole class.where's my extra pay?also he was checking his stock market during students prsentation. its all green. dont give him any empathy
>>33771867You're bitching because you got an A-? What are you, a walking asian stereotype?
>>33774164the A- is the least important part. it’s just a footnote in a long list of stupid shit he diddid you even read what I wrote?can you understand English?are you American or just pretending?
>Be me>At work>On lunchbreak>Hear one of my co-workers talk about how he makes his kid work for everything. >Decide to chime in to conversation>Say "That's why I'm glad I work for everything I got.">"Anon, we're you born with a silver spoon in your mouth?">What.jpg>Ask him if he means upper-middle class.>"No Anon! I mean did you have everything handed to you growing up?>Think back, remember aside from birthdays and Christmas I was happier with little trinkets like egg toys from the vending machine.>No?What did the normies mean by this? I pretty much work for my vidya and other shit.
>>33773378I won't read is this normal threads.
if work was where it was at the slaves would have been the richest
I've had coworkers, mainly out of touch Gen Xers, talk shit about people who get help from family to pay for major life events like university, weddings or home ownership. They act like struggling is this great honour. If family can afford to help their children and grandchildren they should. Sure it sucks if your family is poor or just the crotchety English type that refuses to help others but they just come off as incredibly bitter. Feel pride in struggling if you want, I on the other hand intend to make the most of this life and I will one day return the favour to my children.To answer your question OP. He's a bitter poorfag.
I've been watching a lot of monster hentai (specifically orc) and I gave myself a kink. I can't stop thinking about getting destroyed by trash men. (Fatasses, incels, thugs, stalkers etc) and it's gotten to the point that I bought a large dildo I can't handle. I don't wanna date (ew commitment) and a hookup isn't possible (can't drive + family will likely find out) but I can't stop thinking about it. I feel like such a pervert. My kink has gotten to the point where I feel like provoking some people on here just to get a reaction so I can get off on them getting mad at me.
>>337699939/10 have to be trannies and gays tricking you into roleplaying with them
>>33771538for all the disdain that trannies that can't shut the fuck up about being trannies get, the ones that hide it are 1000% worse
>>33768993>>33769852these zoomer girls brainrotten by porn are all the same they're basically clones of each other, expect them to become the most bitter radical feminists possible in about 5-10 years once their looks start fading and they can't get abusechads to rape them anymore
>>33769852>girlThis is where you are wrong
>>33768993> a large dildo I can't handleEveryone thinks that at the beginning. You just need some practice and you’ll be taking in soda cans with ease.
In a very open conversation, I just told my ex (who is or was still my friend) that I regrettably sometimes got off to porn while we were in a relationship in the past. She immediately got up and stormed out of the coffee shop and has effectively ghosted me. We had never talked about it while in the relationship and I know for a fact that she looked at lewd fantasy stuff on her own time. Am I retarded for having been honest about this? Is this friendship just completely destroyed?
>>33773142Honestly a good point, I assumed the topic was specifically about porn, but if porn was never specified than the implications are way worse.
>>33772507>>33769727Yeah, finally had a phone call with her. She said she overreacted and I clarified that it had happened only a couple of times, told her how I felt, and apologized. She said she forgave me and said that we were okay.>>33773142>>33773484It was specifically about porn, I never cheated on her. >>33769727This is good advice. Thank you.
>>33769727Also, thank you for note about uncertainty. I keep running into that in my life and it is a bitch.
>>33774045>It was specifically about porn, I never cheated on her.I'm not saying you did, I'm asking if you're 100% sure she understood what you were saying. The way you phrased it, she could easily have *thought* that you were saying you cheated on her, which would explain why she was so upset.
>>33774045All's well that ends well, good to hear OP, and good luck with your relationship however it goes from here
>be autist>go to college first at 19>struggle >mom gets cancer and goes batshit insane and the stress is too much>fall into terrible long depressive episode>get part time wagie job>want to go back to college>will be 27Alright I need information on how to be prepared for the troubles of going to college late, things to expect. How to deal with being an aged anomaly at the college. And generally how to cope with having missed potentially the best years to be at a college.
>>33773021>You have to leech off benefits thenI get gibs already because I have schizophrenia, but getting a thousand dollars from the government is shit money, and living around blacks isn't something I want to do for the rest of my life. The only big boon is that I have free health insurance. But I get genuine heart pain from how lonely and isolated I am, I have zero friends, and no family outside of my mom, I have no community to be a part of
>>33768673I went at 30 and it was one of best things I did. (Second degree, was done with first and worked saved up).Its like, you know all the tricks and tips and shit its easy. Talking girls and generally life. Also everyone seems so immature and childish lol I was kinda not liking that after a while, realized theres levels to the game.But for girl getting its great. They like experiences guys and date 30smthings anyhow. But by being there and mogging all kids with maturity (no need to be big yoked but helps to be fit) is nice.20 smthing dudes like I was only care about being yoked and invest zero in social skills. Being 30 and life experienced helps you a lot in landing girls. I had to reject some of them. Overall if its smth u care about do it. Comment too long. Click here to view the full text.
>>33773087what did you study though?
>>33773145A Bachelor's of Arts in LARP>>33773084People work in factories for that amount. They commute to work everyday. They get yelled at. They also live in poor neighbourhoods. You're not aware just how lucky you are.
>>33773219>A Bachelor's of Arts in LARP
