I can't do anything I want and there's nothing I can do to change that. I can't choose what I do in my freetime, what job I want to choose, what I eat, what I wear, what I spend my money on, everything. How many people have to live like this?
>>34161941In jail?
im mixed race/ethnicity and its pretty lonely just wondering if anyone else here is mixed and has any advice. i dont look like ANY race and its genuinely suicide inducing not fitting in anywhere i go. i guess i get mistaken for being some sort of south american pretty often which would be cool if i was actaully south american or latina but im not so its just sad. i dont look like either of my parents or their ethnic groups and i feel like i look out of place everywhere i am. im not ashamed of my mix its just that i feel so lonely. ive never met anyone with the same looks as me so i cant relate to anyone in that sense. this probably sounds like a non issue to anyone that isnt mixed but yeah if anyone has any advice on how to be okay with not fitting in with any ethnic group/race/nationality let me know.
>>34159108Also mixed race here. I'm not sure why I never really cared about it, I think that even if I was the same race as everyone around me I'd still be isolated through my autism (actually diagnosed).I see people as either proper individuals or as mindless NPCs who follow whatever is expected from their respective races and cultures. If someone makes you feel unwelcome because you look different, then why would you want to associate yourself with that person, why would you regret the fact you can't associate with that person?If what keeps you from being accepted by someone is your race and not what you are, then that person just doesn't like you and you'd be wise to move on toward someone who does.
>>34162095Autism isn't a real, incurable condition in 99% of cases. It's a label that doctors created to keep people dependent and satisfy their need for attention: "Look at me, I'm different!" Everyone can learn the ropes of socialization. I personally choose not to step in line and conform. I choose to be different, but it is a conscious choice, not an inability.>OPAs much as the White Nationalists don't want to admit it, if the entire world was White, we'd all still fight against each other, competing to be top dog. Not only that, but the majority of Whites would do the manual labor, while the minority are intellectuals and aristocrats. And most of it is just memeing and larping anyway. I point out these issues, and I get crickets.You can still be based, and useful to The Empire, and, if led by good kings, rewarded if you pull your weight and aren't degenerate. Not only that, but if you lead by example, and change the minds of your brethren, you will do a lot of good for your people.
>>34162112>You don't look like any particular group which you can feel at one withIt might take a second, but there are certain features that people have that are unmistakable, once you know what to look for. Not only that, but your body does have the features of your ancestors, rooted in the history of their land. So you're not nobody, you're just in the midst of things. And most people are in the midst of something or another.
>>34162112Who's gonna tell bro ts not tuff?
>>34159108Define yourself by your individual accomplishments and personality, not by your genetics
People at work call me Minnie Mouse when I get mad. I'm not very tall, and I guess I get shrill when I get mad. My coworkers think it's funny to mess with me until I snap, and my boss doesn't care. I can't afford to quit and looking for another job hasn't been going well.How can I make myself seem more intimidating when I get mad so people stop thinking it's funny or cute to upset me?
>>34161683They're going to bully you so long as they get a rise out of you. Solution to this is not getting mad
>>34161784That's easier said than done. I really want to kick them and scream at the top of my lungs. The one time I did get mad enough to hit someone they laughed so hard they cried so my pride's been a little hurt. I wish people respected me instead of treating me like a joke.
>>34162025You'd be respected if you were living a respectable life.
Not all jobs are bad. Not all people in all jobs will treat you that way. Just find something else.I think the main problem is that a part of you cares what they think. Otherwise you wouldn't get mad about it... So stop caring. Obviously, it's hard to get your work done and ignore them when they're clawing at you every minute of the day.You could always sue for harassment if you wanted. But just walk away and find another job is the best bet. Or find something that doesn't pay as well and do a side hustle...Being with good people is a priority.
>>34161379Stop getting mad. They treat your tantrums like entertainment. If you stop performing, they'll lose interest and leave you alone
Not going to get into details or anything because no one gives a fuck.I just cannot comprehend the fact how all you're good for is to be useful to people, obviously friendships can be transactional but once you are not useful then you are being let go of immediately. It's insane and it feels like no one is genuine in any way whatsoever. No one is as empathetic as me and no one cares as much for others as I do, rarely do I get repaid for my kindness and all I really want in the end is a friend I could spill my guts to.
>>34160407This clip comes to mind https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=O2h3fwc4YXg
>>34159917>rarely do I get repaid for my kindnessGenuine kindness is not transactional.
>>34160600I'm sure the irony is lost on OP.
>>34160383you fucking liberals that have infested this same sight use this disgusting language where you turn something around on someone for using a simple fucking analogy, are you a fucking woman? how many times have i seen this play out? and that one is just comparing your EXPERIENCES with women to putting your hand on a stove! like trying to speak sense in fucking comments!
>>34160900>I keep burning my hand on the stove, the problem must be stove not me!!!
I can feel it. Do you feel it?
I Have all of her.
>>34158324Oh chuddie.. it's happening exactly to you. One day a trad stacy will come up to you and be like "hey chuddie hows it goin" and the only thing you have to worry about is what to say to her.
it can happen a few years ago I dropped alt right dog whistles to a girl at a bar and she is now my wife. it can happen you just need to be an audacious chad lite
>>34160046>just need to be an audacious chad lite
>>34156780I keep trying to feel it but she keeps pushing my hand away
What's this!? A thread NOT about sex or getting in a forever box? In MY /adv/?Anywho, I've been teaching myself piano and I've found that I have an issue with overstimulation when practicing. My basic routine is >Listen to the piece so I know how it should sound>Practice the right hand>Practice the left hand>Spam the hard measures until it's memorized>Practice from end to beginning>Close my eyes and play until it's smoothThe reason I practice with my eyes closed is because I feel like I am overstimulated if I'm sight-reading while hearing the music. I can't seem to concentrate on one while receiving signals from the other, which results in choppy music.Are there any practice methods people have found that helps with overcoming this stimulation or just sight-reading music in general?
>>34162174I never said anything about autism, I just figured "overstimulation" was a more concise word for "getting confused over multiple simultaneous signals". Perhaps "multitasking" would be better, but technically playing and listening is multitasking. Kind of like tripping over words when having to read aloud. As I'm playing, I'll lose my place, pause, find it, play a bit more, lose it again, etc. Even if I can play the piece smoothly with my eyes closed, as soon as I try to read the music, it goes to shit again. As for the sight-reading, you are correct and I apologize. I did mean just reading the notes. With the metronome, that's not really an option since I work night shift and use headphones for my keyboard so I'm not disturbing the neighbors at 2am with shitty piano on my days off.
like anon said, there's more than just listening while playing along with the sheet music.as a guitar player, i can only do that if i'm looking at a chord progression chart that contains chords I already know. When it comes to actual tabs, I also wouldn't be able to play along while trying to read the tabs at the same time. I can try, sure, but like you said I would end up just playing bits and pieces and that doesn't make me any better at playing that song.the best thing is to play at slow speed until you memorize it, then slowly increase your speed until you can match the song. if you think you're overstimmed then you're going too fast.
>>34162083> I am overstimulated if I'm sight-reading while hearing the musicput away the score?
>>34162225I'm not listening to the music while I'm practicing. I'll just listen to it once beforehand so that if I hit a note that sounds wrong, I'll know if it's actually wrong and fix it before it becomes ingrained. The problem is looking at the sheet music while playing. I practice the left and right separately to build muscle memory, and I can read the music if it's short bursts for those tough measures, but when it comes to playing the whole thing, I'll lose my place and/or trip over myself.
>>34162239> The problem is looking at the sheet music while playing.putthemusic sheetaway> when it comes to playing the whole thing, I'll lose my place and/or trip over myself.yes, that's why we practice
So I recently left a security position at a car company for a corporate security position due to an incident where I was the victim.This is my first time in corporate security and I hate it. Boring, toxic environment and I hate my supervisor. I want to try and leave asap but Im afraid this will make me look unprofessional to other employers, since I only started at December the 1st. I figure I should wait it out until my probation period ends and then resign. Im also considering that now that I am in security it’ll be hard to break out of the industry, due to the stigma of security officers being considered all dumbasses. Will it be harder for me to find a job now that I have to put security officer in my CV?
>>34160187Make it a better place.
>>34160774Fuck this place. I want to leave.
For all those who were able to gain their sexdrive and romantic feelings back.What did you do to get it back?I became sexually and romantically numb from getting DP/DR which has ruined my life for 10 years.Recently i read romantic/explicit writings which made me feel stuff in my chest again and get slightly aroused but then it just stopped again and i don't know what im meant to do to make it come back.I feel like if i just avoid erotic fictions ill just make myself forget how to feel that way and ill wont be able to get aroused again.But when i try to keep reading without expectations i just keep thinking "fuck why am i not feeling anything am i bored?".Like if i find something that i like weather it be chess or anything creative, i just keep getting "bored" immediately but i know its not real boredom, its my DP/DR making me not feel anything after it gets use to it???I don't wanna have to keep seeking out new stimili i just want to be okay and feel normal things.
How to handle rejection from women?
>>34159920Women don't typically pay you, unless you are a pimp.
>>34159887This guy gets it
>>34159887Look at you, applying logic and reason and a human sensibility to love. OP doesn't want any of that. They want a walk through that will explain the optimal build so they can minmax their sex life.
>>34160901What?
>>34159871It's funny cause everytime some chick "skips" me on Duolicuous after I message them, I get angry. It feels personal. Especially since Duolicious makes it so you can never see their profile again. Man that makes me so angry.
My parents have taken all my money, and every time I try moving on with my life, they abuse me or my younger sibling. I've told my extended family about it, and they don't seem to be able or want to help very much, considering the abuse hasn't been all that violent. It's always been the threat of molestation that keeps us in line, rather than actual molestation or rape. I looked it up, though, and I did witness molestation that carries heavy legal weight, although I don't have any evidence of it. But in the grand scheme, it wasn't full-on rape or something either.I haven't been able to hold down a job for years, every time I get back on my feet, they're causing me to have more problems. And when I finally do start to get a move on, they pull the rug out from under me or hurt my sibling.I'm worried that if I notify authorities, that things will be a lot worse for my sibling and my family overall. I know that they will send people to stalk and harass me for the rest of my life.It fills me with such rage and frustration to have to witness this every day, to see my sibling's hopes and dreams crushed as he's threatened every day and he just escapes into social media. And the fact that I'm 30+, broke, no car, unable to drive, no friends, in pain every day.I feel like the only thing I can do is walk away from the whole thing until the poor kid turns 18. There might be some trailer parks nearby or something that I can afford while on gibs...Idk what to do.
>>34162125Your situation is somewhat similar to mine growing up, only I didn't have siblings, and I've never been able to save up due to not having a dad and always helping mom pay bills or being unemployed for several years when I was younger. I had attempts of rape as a kid by one of my mothers bf's, it ruined my life for years, neglect later on, but I can definitely see clearer; I'm 40 now. There are options for both you and your siblings. There's the military, job corps (for younger sibling), definitely a trailer is cheaper to rent but if you can never save even that can feel unattainable -but not impossible, here in FL I've seen them as low as $650/month for the lot, trailer itself like $6000+. There are very hard jobs that pay well, amazon delivery driver (ziprecruiter), roofing, construction, welder, etc. For some of us life can feel like a chain of never ending pain, but God is watching, there will be a breakthrough.
>>34162185I'm just going to try to take the bus more and stay away from the house and fill out housing applications to appease them and just stay away... I can find work once I'm away from them. I just need to get away and hope they treat the kid better while I'm away...
Girl on Omegle called me a loser for trying to flirt with her.How to cope?
>>34148550just own it
>>34148550https://www.wikihow.com/Get-Over-Rejection
>>34161911TldrNothing to do with clowns Irrelevant
>>34159428Which omegle clone did you use? All the ones I tried were ass
>>34162001chitchat.gg and omegleapp.me
I realized around two years ago that one of the only ways to achieve success in life is through having connections. Success largely depends on running into certain people. I unfortunately realized this too late. Since then, I am now only befriending people in the hopes that they would give me something in return (ie jobs, clout, academia, etc). There are people who I hang out with, and buy drinks and gifts for just because I think they are useful to have as friends. I even mark down their birthdays to appear like a good friend who cares about them. I fucking hate living like this and the dishonesty eats me up inside, but it feels like my choices are slim. The idea that you can just apply to a cushy job, or start a cool promising project on your own is a delusion. You need to meet people who already have something going on, and then you need to worm your way into their lives. I also try to never make any of these friends meet each other. College/uni is a great place to enroll in just for this purpose. I am sure some of my fellow zoomers here can relate to this post. Any thoughts?
>>34159848This guy >>34158418 is telling me that I need to find people who I’m naturally drawn to and relate to, but that’s almost impossible because nobody really satisfies me. I’d rather be a secret parasite. However, this plan is not foolproof And this guy >>34159259 is right too. My parents should have helped me but they were losers as well. They knew nothing about socializing.
>>34160002>but that’s almost impossible because nobody really satisfies meIf no one satisfies you, it's because you yourself are not satisfied. Only boring people get bored. Anyway if this isn't one of those "trolls" where the OP stubbornly clings to one retarded idea and makes people waste time replying, being a faker isn't going to get you jobs or advancement anyway except with the most egotistical people. The types of "friends" that get cushy jobs are like high school buddies or childhood friends. My guess is that because you have no genuine interest in these people, you're not actually that close to them. No one is going to give a job to some guy on the periphery of their lives because he bought them a beer once or said happy birthday.Only exceptions I can think of are with Jews and Indians. Both those races have sucking up ingrained as a big part of culture and are both naturally vain and egotistical. Luckily they also are now in charge of a lot of those cushy jobs you want (for better or worse). You can forget about going anywhere by being a suck up to the white yacht club kids or the YN hustlers
>>34160339I’m not larping or trolling. I genuinely want some clarity here. I do have high school buddies and childhood friends but they really aren’t in the best place either. And I really try to hang out with these guys as much as possible. Also, don’t be such a 2d thinker. Just because I’m not genuinely interested in them or don’t like them, doesn’t mean I show it when I’m with them.
>>34160339>YN hustlersWhat? Young nibba hustlers?
>>34160339>Only boring people get boredGod forbid exciting people get bored.
What are are some useful creative software or websites for creating content like games, art illustrations, video editing, or animation, pixel art, digital stuff.
>>34155324Avoid Vegas Pro. It's simple to use especially if you're a beginner, but will cost you your sanity with constant crashes and freezes.
>>34158584Thanks for the tip. What do you work on? Doesn't that software have an auto safe feature? Maybe that could help you.
>>34158612I just use Premiere for editing since it seems more stable than Vegas Pro and Avidemux for simple trimming
>>34158630All right.I think I check this Avidemux, never heard about it.
opentoonz>>34158584segas5evar
How do I live a fulfilling life alone? I have no one and I doubt that'll change.
>>34160224I won't read yet another self-fulfilling prophecy thread. Such threads are a trap for well-meaning readers, designed to ensnare you in a wrangle with the psychotic OP.
>how do i be fulfilled Identify things you think are important to you, then go do those things. When what you value is brought to fruition, you are fulfilled. If you do this and don't feel fulfilled, what you did was either a waste of time or you have depression.
Do enjoyable things that don't depend other people so much. Fill your time with them and you might not feel as lonely. Don't let your head wander off where it shouldn't.
it normal to lose an erection if there's no stimulation? Whenever I masturbate I like to edge myself but when I focus on something else other than porn so I don't cum, my erection goes down after a bit. Additionally, does watching porn lower your libido? I don't masturbate like 5 times a day, and the stuff I watch isn't super extreme. I usually do it every other day or two since I have other stuff to do, and I don't think my grip is super tight so I don't think I have death grip syndrome. I'm 21 and a dude so I wanna know before I fuck myself up.
>>34160445>it normal to lose an erection if there's no stimulation?Obviously. How exactly do you think erections go away?
>>34160880Idk I just thought that even if you're not looking at something that stimulating it shouldn't go away quickly, but I could be wrong
>>34160445Yes>t. masturbate fully limp with my rudeboy exclusively
>>34160914Strength and duration of an erection depends on mood, age, cardio health and other factors.
>>34160445Are you circumcised?
