>Be me, complete autist diagnosed at a very early age>Struggle with making friends my entire life, but found a handful of rare occasions where I did make a genuine friend>But had to leave said friends every few years thanks to the military brat lifestyle of moving around>But for the most part up until freshmen year of HS, I was obnoxious and stupidly thought "making people laugh made me their friends" even though they were probably laughing at me a large portion of the time>Eventually find this one friend in Highschool whose company was so nice that it made me look forward to going to school every day>Constantly talk throughout our lunch period and even had some school clubs together>Eventually I have to move away across the country and I say goodbye>After the move, I text him saying how different the state is>Only to find out he blocked me, and learn from a seperate friend that he never really liked me>3/4rd of my time in highschool was now tainted with a false sense of happiness with this person>Now i'm 25>Still get dreams about either being back in highschool and meeting him or encountering him and the friend group as an adult and being completely rejected and ignored like they don't know me>Doubt if the friends I have of now are really my friend at all or if they are just pretending to be my friend for some reasonWhat should I do? How do I move past this and not let it interfere with my life
Friends are useless find a gf to have kids with otherwise find other friends who decided no kids
I always was a really anxious person, but a few weeks back it started getting a bit strongerAnd four days back or so I started having nightly panic attacks, I went to the ER and been prescribed meds to quiet down my inner voices, a treatment to treat strong anxiety and schizophrenia and other "non real" manifestation from the brain.The meds do seem to help but also make me absolutly tired and I'm afraid that I won't be able to live without them.I feel like I crave something deeply and yet crave nothing, as if anything that happened wouldn't help me, as if I craved going outside, but was terrified of leaving my room.Have you guys ever gone through something like this?
>>35090040I heard music helps some schizophrenics. Maybe classical music?
>>35093733Maybe it couldI don't think I am schizophrenic, I haven't been diagnosed atleast I have been prescribed Tercian, which is meant to dealt I feel with non real threats such as overthinking, anxiety or even sound coming from the brain and other illusions.Still I'm a day later and I feel much better and question if I should continue the treatment, I took my last dose 20 min back and only took about 4 doses since I got the prescription 3 days back
When it rains, what's better to use, an umbrella, or a rain coat? Cause every time I use an umbrella, I always look like a fucking retard trying to hold the umbrella steady as the fucking 15 mph winds are practically throwing it around like it's a fucking ragdoll and my ass is getting wet cause the wind is blowing the rain sideways. And it's always windy when it rains, so like I dunno. Help a nigga out. What should I be using?
>>35065182Work your forearms out you pathetic faggot. Never in my life have I had trouble stabilizing an umbrella regardless of wind speed. Use your flabby wrists for something other than maneuvering cocks into your mouth.
If you are struggling with umbrella when there's also wind, I assume you are pretty slim and lighter. Light enough that wind can push you back with its trapped force in your umbrella. I can't suggest one, but I don't suggest wearing raincoat because you'd look like Bateman if you choose transparent one. So... maybe you should wear pink latex suit with green latex trousers?
>>35065182If you are struggling with umbrella when there's also wind, I assume you are pretty slim and lighter. Light enough that wind can push you back with its trapped force in your umbrella. I can't suggest one, but I don't suggest wearing raincoat because you'd look like Bateman if you choose transparent one. So... maybe you should wear pink latex suit with green latex trousers?
>>35083824The fucking... time...
>>35088436Do you live in coastal region?
1. Your sex.2. What are the pros and cons of dating/marrying?
>>35087300Man>ProSlightly less lonely at night, pitential us there for more but usually unmet.Grandparents and parents stop bugging you about it.>ConsWill crush most of the expectations you have about relationships.Will probably cut you off from friends/hobbies/extraincome.Will not really be emotionally supporting and takes you from friends you are able to open up with.
>>35093293>You have a family That is rare and usually not the case from people i know but the rest is true with my married friends.
>>35092513Hmm desire operates in ambiguity, like the old zizek talk when he talks about that French film. The lady and the man are done with their date and she turns to him and say "want to come up for coffee? , but I am all out of coffee" as soon as they have you in totality there is no room for fantasy to live in conjunction. With women the push and play and tension which is very lacanian to be honest is where the attraction lies. Because a lot of it is gonna be like you overlay a fantasy on someone and then eventually that fake fantasy you assigned them over time cracks splinters and reveals itself.
>>35093819There is an invitation, but it isn't completely explicit. There is a suggestion, but not a declaration. There is an element of play between the symbolic meaning and the implied meaning.This is where we encounter the Lacanian distinction between demand and desire.- Demand: What is explicitly requested.- Desire: What emerges beyond the explicit request, in the space that language cannot completely articulate.The woman isn't simply requesting that he drink coffee. She's creating an opening in which he must interpret her desire.And importantly, he has to participate in that interpretation.The desire isn't simply handed to him as a completed object.There is something left to discover.Sorry for the ai slop but this is what I'm trying to say
>>35087300Man>datingOxytocin, can always breakup without splitting money>Marryingabsolutely no pros in this, woman gets secured and she feels as if she doesn't have to perform anymore because no matter what'd she do she will not be thrown out and divorce costs a lot
I've already posted a thread on here before semi related. I have a crush on an older co-worker, yada yada, recently had a conversation with him and found out his birthday was soon.I ended up asking what he'd do, he said nothing since he'd be working. I asked what type of cake he likes and when he told me I then volunteered to buy him a slice of his favorite and give it to him on his bday. He seemed a bit surprised albeit delighted I offered, he then mentioned his working hours on that day. Our schedules rarely overlap and on that day particularly I wouldn't be working so he he sorta implicitly mentioned "how exactly are you going to give it to me?" I told him I'd figure it out. Looking back on it I realized that might've been too forward on my part. Getting someone a slice of their favorite cake and promising to bring it to them on their birthday is rather beyond just a co-worker acquaintance relationship. I'm a bit worried I just exposed myself on accident and now I'm nervous to get the slice for him. Tho at the same time I don't want to NOT do it because I had said I would. Was this too obvious or am I just overthinking?
>>35087741are you retarded?
>>35087755>what's your favorite kind of cake, totally real coworker? > BTW your choices have to be chocolate frosted or red velvet, you can't have a favorite cake other than those two choicesNotice how I said "any kind of cake" in my reply, were you just too retarded to actually understand what I meant? Or just that eager to defend an AGP fantasy LARP thread?
>>35087778Should I show you every possible photo of cake slices that are sold individually? This is literally common every where: cafes, grocery stores and bakeries. I don't know where you got the idea that cakes aren't sold in individual slices
>>35087784I guess it's true what they say about low IQ people not being able to understand edge cases or exceptions
honestly yea its suspicious.... maybe he thinks either you put a needle on the slice or you are hitting on him LMAOO
anyone here with stories how they got out of it?what did you do?
>>35082620Stop noticing things
>>35072538I live in a garage. Its cheap.
>>35083167Do you live close to the equator? How do you take a shower? And how do you cook? Do you have any photos you're willing to share, that sounds interesting
if you did not got out of the rat race, did you made a borderline stupid decision that brought you some satisfaction, so that you did not care anymore about your debts and work?
>>35087172What does this question even mean? Of course not, being in the rat race does NOT bring me any satisfaction.
So if I did something terrible in the past, isn't it kinda evil for me to keep that a secret from the person that I'm supposed to spend the rest of my life with?Or am I just retarded for wanting someone to love the real me and not a fake version of me that is built on a lie?Wouldn't that be a curel and evil thing to do? Set me straight here.
>>35090606>I would minecraft hereh lol I've never seen that used as a violent verb before
>>35085559if you wont do that thing you did in the past anymore, then it doenst matter. you are not that person anymore.
>>35085559There is no "real you" ur just an asshole.bro but you don't need to show your asshole to everyone. Guess what we don't really "know anyone" think about it All we do is paint a fantasy over someone and then get mad eventually when it falls apart. That's it. Think about that deeply.
>>35090718It falls apart precisely because you did not take the time and energy to know them you retard.
>>35090802You nigger.
My untreated borderline mom forced me to take stimulants as a kid and they made me super hypersexual and erratic.I remember not liking the stimulants and complaining they made me feel bad but she almost found a level of satisfaction in giving me medication, I think she might have munchausen by proxy but I'm not entirely sure.She would go through my phone and make fun of me for consuming large amounts of porn. She used a rectal thermometer on me as a toddler even though I was old enough for oral and didn't want to go through that sensation.She also would make fun of my body constantly growing up and one time straight up asked me what my developing genitalia looked like and said my bio father had a large penis.I was masturbating once after school and my stepdad came into the room and I managed to cover myself in time but he pried about what I was doing for like 5 straight minutes until I admitted to masturbating. Honestly I'm starting to think this was all sexual abuse maybe??? Am I being dramatic or???My mom has always talked about sex in front of me with zero filter whatsoever and it really messed with my psychological development I'm thinking.Comment too long. Click here to view the full text.
>>35090014You got abused pretty bad my dude
Major abuse and I don't even think you're larping like most of the shit on this site. I'm genuinely sorry you went through all that and this might be one of the rare times where therapy could actually be helpful. And going outside, eating properly, working out are always great ideas.
>>35091789I've been thinking of getting a gym pass or something since I live near a YMCA but it's a fair amount of money and I'm poor.Eating healthy has been difficult, I did a grocery run for healthy food and I kid you not 1 day later a bunch of cookies and ice cream were brought home. I keep getting sabotaged.I had an appointment for therapy a while back but it was virtual and I need private sessions where my family can't overhear me.I'm not sure how to get a good in person therapist since I don't live in a big city. My last two in person therapists were pretty bad unfortunately.I know a lot of men prefer male therapists and I'm not sure if having a male therapist would change anything.>>35090284I'm in poor health but I feel guilty over the prospect of getting on neetbux. Idk the way I see it is society failed me in a way so I shouldn't feel too guilty over the idea.Sorry in advance for any typos or anything I'm phone posting since my desktop GPU died.
Your parents sound a lot like mine. (That's bad). You need to get a therapist and carefully explain the situation. If you're in college that might be easier or otherwise you're spending money. Either way you need help and emotional distance from the family. Not saying you should cold turkey never see them again but you should try and be careful about how much exposure you have to them going forward.
>>35093811No reason for you to feel guilty for getting neetbux. You're lucky if you can get it.
My gf wants to add some dirty talk during sex but also wants it to be natural sounding, so no name calling.She likes it when I'm vocal about fucking her, except there's only so many ways I can say the same thing.What else can I say to spice it up?
>>35093766tell her she forgot to do the dishes and laundry as she's climaxing
I want to learn a new language but none of my options look appealing.There's Spanish, but what am I going to do with it, or any other European language really? I can talk to those guys through English as well. There's Japanese, but I lost interest in Japanese media over the last years so it feels pointless if I'm not watching or reading any anime/mangaFinally I'm actually considering Chinese, but I feel like I will never understand it without living in China for 20 years since it's apparently a mess of a language.Anyway, what would you do?,
>>35080872>money.I thought learning Chinese isn't that useful in this day and age?
>>35081873We have this program in the military where we get paid more depending on our language scores.>>35081864Correct. I've known people that have worked overseas in Singapore. They can't speak Chinese
>>35082036Interesting, thank you!
>>35068364You should consider that you can learn to be a speaker for others, i.e. look around where you live and see what languages are there and become a speaker of the ones you don't know. You're focusing on the lens of the benefit for you rather than the benefit of you for others, then figuring out what language most people need an English translator or communicator for.
>>35088180Probably Chinese or Indian
People always seem so surprised when I tell them where I met my boyfriend, kek. Figured people might have questions.
>>35089612Ok then say fucking Craigslist or a darkweb snuff film forum
>>35089627i think they'd be even more flabbergasted than 4chan... kind of defeats the purpose doesn't it?
>>35088300Are you still open to discord adds? I want to befriend and ask about other stuff
>>35091229Sure! add me on disc, it's voidsofsky
>>35088264Tits or gtfo
I added this girl on snapchat last friday, and shes kind of mid but we ball. She went to the ye concert rly drunk so I ask her to send. she sent in the bathroom mid concert. we talked the next few days but she takes hours to reply. we have good calls but they always end short since she has to sleep or something at 11. yesterday I told her theres no school for me tmr so lets do something. she seemed excited to do something. today, she sits on her ass while I center my day around maybe going to the mall or something with her. I end up doing nothing, now wondering how to clutch this without being too needyhelp me out I js want to have a girl for the holidays
>>35091335play hot and cold. don't be consistent. if she takes 2 hours to reply, you take 3 hours to reply. if she sleeps at 11, you have a friends hangout at 10 everyday. show her your worth. show her that you can do without her. show her that you have other women.
>>35091335>>35093706But as she start going close to you, love bomb her and then next day pull away. hold it for three or two days.
>>35091335>I added this girl on snapchat last fridayNgl, I NEVER use Snapchat to talk to women. I've NEVER gotten a date or a lay from Snapchat. There's something about the app that doesn't transfer to real life. I prefer to get a girl's number or insta and go from there.>she sent in the bathroom mid concertGood, means at least she's interested. Although concerts are a red flag, do you wanna just bone this girl or do you want something more long term?>yesterday I told her theres no school for me tmr so lets do something. she seemed excited to do something. today, she sits on her ass while I center my day around maybe going to the mall or something with herI'm assuming you're an American like me. School was closed yesterday for Veteran's Day. I can't tell by the way you wrote this, did you guys go out and she sat on her ass or did you plan and she never agreed on a time to meet?>I end up doing nothing, now wondering how to clutch this without being too needyComment too long. Click here to view the full text.
I'm thinking of getting a job purely to get a gf. I don't care about salary. Which job gives you contact with women where you're forced to be around eachother for long periods of time?
>>35089642Geta job at a club, bartender or bouncer if you can fight. You'll slay customers and colleagues alike unless you're a retard. >>35089696dickless cuckold
>>35093297Fuck you normalfag retard.
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>>35089696>Gen Z thinks he isn't an asshole for finding the slightest reason to call someone a creep
>>35089642You already know the answer is nursing, or daycare if you can tolerate that hell. Too bad they've been flooding the nursing profession and lowering wages to nothing by advertising the baby boomer retirement crisis for 20 years.
It'd been nice to learn how to conjure up pretty faces again as at present I think I can only really do so when I get attached to somebody, and unfortunately at this point I don't have anyone around me to easily do that with. The attractive people I regularly see in person are either in relationships or wouldn't pair well with me, and even if there would be that person I might probably be resistant to putting myself into that kind of situation.
I have to jack off using porn or I resort to bad times to get off. Super amazing orgasm but not healthy mentally. I know this doesn’t help, just wanted to get that out! bye!
Resort to bad times? What bad times?Literally just don't jack off if you don't want to. And don't make yourself start wanting to by bombarding yourself with videos of people having sex and doing sex things
i'm 22 and i have the brain and emotional intelligence of probably not even a 14 year old, how do i kill myself so i stop crying myself to sleep because of social problems and being a burden on my familyt. autistic
i always thought, since i was like 14 or so, that i was the only one who felt these feelings (yes really, even if i knew adults had love and romance and all of that, i felt it separate from the kind of thing i felt) i do have a sex drive somewhat but i feel like i value spending comfortable moments and good conversation with someone who understands me more than "does this person hit me with looks that make me go wild?" or something like thatthat was also a part of my insecurity among socializing and other stuff, i think i'm (probably?) bisexual in that i don't really mind either gender in that way, i think i have the capacity to fancy both but that's another long story somewhat unrelated to this one and i've already wrote a lot so that's thati do feel like i rarely understand my own feelings, let alone analyzing other people's feelings and i can never really guess whether a person likes me or not (not romantically, here i mean just like, in conversation and reading their body language) and a lot of the time, eye contact and prolonged conversation 1 on 1 is really uncomfortable for me, the only people i think i can do it with are my familyi cry a lot but sometimes i just do it because i have 0 fucking emotional control and if someone was mean to me or if i felt like i did something wrong in social interaction, i will cry about it later when i'm in bed by myselfsometimes i just don't give a fuck so if i have a depressive hit of emotions suddenly and i think about like, what am i doing, why this, why that, i will cry on the tram and train ride home from college, in front of other people and mostly just not care, cuz i can't hold it back in some instancesnever really cried in college except once when i was so frustrated that i wasn't getting a subject and that i had a bad professor, that i just cried for like 3 hours, the professor tried to wake me up as she was leaving and she did that but i still stayed there until like 8pm when the janitor came
>>35090519there are regular apartments in general that i think are like under 400 euro a month and my mom is willing to sponsor me somewhat to live alone, surprisingly, when i leave college and get a jobdad isn't dead or anything, nor are my parents divorced, we live in the same house but we don't have any kind of relationship reallyi think he likes my older brother more than me, cuz he's more traditionally masculine, does all the work things and will succeed the family business and suchi guess i also try to help my dad though, i helped him saw wood the other day (i don't use the saw, i just help him hold and stack the chopped wood)he never really played a role in my upbringing, he's just kind of...there.
>>35090568regarding apartments, i was also thinking, how wonderful it would be if i could get autismbuxx accepted + take on some work so i could have maybe an easier time navigating through some of these things as i establish myself as an adultmaybe that's a little too selfish and greedy though ahaha, but it's gonna take many months or a year to get a response and i'll probably get denied...
>>35086908There will always exist people better than other people at various skillsDon't give a fuck that people are better than you at social skillsYou may have friends one day, but besides that, if you enjoy being on the PC even a little, if you are grateful to your mom for cooking for you, if you find even a bit of meaning in your classes and so on, or even if you don't, keep moving forwards.
>>35090568>>35090537>default response to big emotions is to cryOh anon I was just like you. It took me til I was 23-24 until I could express my feelings right. I could start at 20ish, but would get monotone, then nonverbal. I would advise you hit the gym. Sure, you may not be able to lift much at first, but weekly progression that is visible AND measurable will do wonders for you>t. My shrink and my therapist encourage me going hard AF in the gymPs nobody is staring/caring if you’re weak. We all start from somewhere.For autism dx, if your college is next to or affiliated with a hospital or mental health place, go there for a diagnosis when you’re a student. IMO it’s a good sign your mom is willing to sponsor you for your own apartment.
