But did she have extremely wealthy parents?

>>34393093
No, why?

>>34394575
Then stop whining. I'd be a million times more upset about losing a girl with incredible wealth to her name than about losing a girl just cause she was hot. Looks fade anyways. Just be happy you were a part of her story and she was in yours. Most poor fucks on this site don't have girls look twice at them. Much less hot ones.

>>34394933
People are also starving to death, and it doesn’t fucking matter. Everyone has a right to suffer

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>>34396463
>t.

>>34397251
Hyperfocus.
I read the entirety of Isaac asimov's 'foundation' series, the hyperion cantos, and all the expanse books in just a couple months.
I didn't really internalize much of the book(s) but I can give you the broad strokes and retell some of my favorite parts :)

>>34397177
>>34397205
>>34397227
Gold, anon. Thank you so much.
>ADHD and autism go in cycles
Interesting, I always heard they counteract each other in most moments but I honestly have no clue if that makes intuitive sense. I will try to spot if I’m doing ADHD things like RSD or autism things like abandonment fear

Coping is for short term issues. Stop coping and look to fix the issues.

>>34393954
>Treat others how THEY wish to be treated"
That sounds like people pleasing.

>>34397784
It would be if it was only one way. That's where boundaries and standards come in. If the other person isn't treating you how you would like, you get rid of them.

>>34396144
I get what you mean like there's enough stuff to fill every shelf in a whole house but only one room's worth of shelf space.

Something I've been doing is putting things away for a long time. If I open up a tote after 3 years and completely forgot the things in there existed I probably don't need them any more. After a few months if I think of something and I want it I'll take it out but that has to be a rare exception or this wouldn't work.

>>34396144
mmmh, write down what you want to keep off the top of your head. Anything you forget you must get rid of.

>>34396144
You can hire professional organizers to do it for you

>>34396144
It's best to be quite brutal about this. For each object in the room, ask yourself when was the last thing you actually used it or interacted with it in any way. If it's been more than two years, then you have lived without it for two years; and if you've lived without it for two years, you can live without it indefinitely, and you can throw it out.

Don't try and do everything in the room at once. Start sorting through one small part of the room, spend 30 minutes on it, then stop. Do another 30 minutes the next day, but unless you're actually sick, don't let a day go by without doing those 30 minutes. It won't take you more than a month or two to sort through everything.

>>34397281
Hoarding services costs thousands of dollars for just one room. Professional organizers cost less, but most will not clean for you and instead guide you through the process of decluttering over zoom and only then will they come in and organize for you, and still cost quite a bit. And most regular house cleaners will not touch a room like this. While it's true that it's a problem money fixes, most people with sufficient money to fix the problem will have had sufficient money to not let it get like this in the first place.

>>34399761
Boobies vs living on a mountain with no clothes or "worldly" things is a pretty easy choice

>>34399764
i let her peg me

>>34399680
I try to drink like 2 or 3 as fast as I can. Or just take shots of liquor if you wanna be efficient

>>34399768
I said kinks you weren't into but your partner was

>>34399764
F, yes. Pegging, face sitting, fingering a girl, sending nudes, sexting, phone sex, doing lewd stuff on cam. Makes me want to throw up just thinking about it.

>>34394304
He's talking out of his ass because he thinks "positive speech" will help his karma or whatever. If he had exemples, he would have listed them already.

>>34393675
I had the same exact thought today
But i then saw my guitar, my camera and thought
Wait, this world if you do something enough you get better at it. You improve

And that gave me reason to continue

That single thought that you can go from point a to a point in which things are better.

You can improve at anything in this life
If you think about it

>>34393675
Truly, most people feel this way most of the time. There is really not a real, rational reason for keep living.
You are not really mandated to keep living.
You can die in any moment you want, and it's not important.
Nobody will stop you from dying.
Courage, conscience, are just words to play with that lack any logic content.
I don't even know why I'm writing this.
Your life is probably perfectly comfy, so you can just keep living.
Perhaps some deep introspection could help you accept all is vain. Some chemicals could show the chemicality of your thoughs, in a simple and irrefutable way.
Mi advice is, go to bed. Tomorrow see the sunrise and do things. One after another.

>>34393675

You're too much of a pussy to kill yourself OP. Keep on living and make the most of it.

>>34393675
I used to feel this way, then I had kids

>>34396349
what country are you from?

>>34396349
are you telling me every single phone call ever made is recorded and with vague description like time and place they can just rummage through a fuckton of recorded phone calls with nothing more than "probable cause", man the state is so fuckin corrupt lol

>>34395729
Cops ain’t gonna do shit. Mind your own business or they’ll probably start watching you. Talking on the phone is not a crime.

>>34396391
>are you telling me every single phone call ever made is recorded and with vague description like time and place they can just rummage through a fuckton of recorded phone calls with nothing more than "probable cause"
Preventing a large public building from being burned down, possibly with people inside it, would certainly justify that, yes. And of course every call ever made is logged. They don't necessarily record the audio, but the fact that a call was made from one number to another is logged; of course it is. Otherwise how could your provider give you an itemized phone bill?

>>34397313
oh so no audio?

>>34395703
That was me a long time ago. Was going to be a math teacher and this bullshit in classrooms was just starting. I pivoted to accounting and have done a lot better than I could ever do as a teacher.

>>34395703
>>students keep smoking cigs in toilets all the time, no consequences whatsoever
larp. zoomers vape. they see actually smoking cigarettes as expensive and nonsensical in comparison

>>34395703
No one cares and caring just a little will make you miserable, and that is why no one care.

>>34395703
>>principal told me I've got a "1990s porn star makeup"
SLUT

>>34396095
>What are you like as a teacher?
Miserable
>Have you built any relationships with students?
Yes, there were 3 students who liked me and they were good at maths but then they moved to different schools
>How long have you been a teacher?
4 years

>>34397666
Idk bud that sounds really far gone and rough. Maybe reset your dopamine or some fufu magic like that, but it's still no guarantee. All I can say is the best porn, hentai, etc in the world is still not as good as pussy. You should take care of your wife before another man does.

My experience as a porn user and sex haver has taught me you either need to cut the porn out, or develop a way to push through to the other side and use your dark powers for good. Which while I can see the finish line, is still very far away for me. How you would personally go about that, I really don't know, sorry.

>>34397684
I've taken long breaks from porn/hentai before, like 3-4 weeks and my drive and sex with the wife has improved, but I always end up seeing something in anime (We sometimes watch stuff together) or videogames (i've cranked it to Ashley Graham for the last couple of days) that makes me look up shit on pixiv or rule34. Thinking of just blocking those sites, but I've done that before too and ended up just removing the filter.

>>34397729
Just keep the streak going of abstaining. It sounds more like force of habit, something you're used to doing, rather than a strong compulsion to seek it out and do it.

>>34386620
Even more based. Weird, you'd think that today you could find people more easily, are you sure he's completely deserted?

>>34387508
Ldarmaxxing

>>34387508
Only Harry Potter movies?

Bump

Bump

>>34395967
What about like a massage parlor? Not like a tugee place but somewhere where an asian lady can fit her tiny hands into the grooves.

>>34395974
A massage parlor will offer a massage and if they're properly trained, yeah, it'll be just as effective at loosening tight muscles as the massage a physical therapist might offer, assuming you get the right kind. But it isn't going to offer any of the added benefits a physical therapist does and sometimes tightness isn't the underlying issue and it'll come back. For example, if you have a sedentary life style you need to add in stretching to improve flexibility and range of motion, which is lost over time. If you're deficient in magnesium you'll want to take that. Or, if you have an underlying injury/weakness causing you to favor a certain side in a way that makes another part of your body tight, you're going to want more experienced care.

I did actually suggest a massage to OP along with stretching earlier in the thread, it's a good idea and will help significantly. But if he has the money, PT is even better.

>>34395430
Remember they have cream. You can put it where it hurts instead of over ingesting goyslop.

>>34395430
>What is something I can take to make my back muscles not so tight?
Lidocaine patches, emu oil (BlueStop or similar), bengay, or NSAIDS.

If you are having lower back tension you need to do regular stretches, and consider a different style of chair. I had chronic lower back tension and improved my symptoms by using a knee chair.
That was a decade ago. Now I'm on a prescription for cyclobenzaprine.

Also drink more water

>>34391937
Post a funny meme if you survive anon :)

>>34391937
There's nothing worse than having Asian parents.

>>34391937
Go to the university that offered you a scholarship. Once you're there, they will do all they can to keep you there (Some of their funding is based on student successes)., including grants, loans, jobs, etc

>>34391937
Based dad.

We do not want you over here. Stay in your third world country, please.

>>34391937
Your post is an absolute piece of shit. You should have to pay us for reading this crap. Why did you waste your own time with this? Please tell me you are a bot.

>>34394373
They didn't have fortnight or Netflix. The only entertainment are orgies in the woods.

>>34394340
based

>>34396757
People like that (Adamites, Khlysts, etc.) got burned at the stake. Pity we don't do that anymore.

Every incel who considers himself a freakish failure because he's a virgin at 18 expects women to remain unrouched until marriage (and the average age for first marriage is 30)

>>34397275
I don't consider myself a failure for being a virgin, it actually makes me better than you.

>>34393510
Buy them some lightsabers and a pound of magic shrooms. Or you could tell us more about them.

>>34393510
From the pic, they seem to enjoy hitting the gym. Buy them a few tubs of protein powder and creatine... TRUST ME, they'll be super thankful.

A flame thrower for cooking

Scented candle.

>>34393510
frilly underwear

Go outside and get a job.

>>34396942
A Legend (read it - it has a moral):

How Shaking Hands Began
In days of old, knights in armour who wanted to show friendship would take off one metal glove and extend their bare hand, knowing the other guy could cut it off with his sword, but hoping the offer of vulnerability would create trust. Two knights wanting to show friendship would both take off a glove and shake bare hands.

The moral: EVERY human interaction, from shopping to making love, involves some risk of being hurt. But sometimes you juat have to take off the glove.

>>34396942
If you're actually socially awkward and you're not say, suffering from other detractions the rest of us are (like ugliness or mental illness), find a regularly used voice chat software tool (such as Discord, Element... shit, even in-game), and start initiating conversations with strangers.
If you don't know how to do that, learn ice-breakers. Learn how other people start a conversation, and copy what they do.
Eventually you will get used to starting up conversations. Then move onto practicing light humour (puns, dad jokes, mild sarcasm, irony, etc) so you can start making people laugh.
Yes you will fail. Yes, there will be times it will feel or sound awkward. But you'll learn other people feel awkward in social interactions too, and that is perfectly normal.
Once you get jokes down, start finding common ground interests between you and strangers. There's two ways to have a common interest, you can either pick communities where that is already a thing (E.G. you love a specific video game, but that's very nerd incel type behaviour) OR you adopt someone else's common interest that you find out that you like (E.G. you see how much you like football, golf, tennis, etc).
Then it becomes a case of
1) Talking about common interests, and
2) Making jokes
Congrats, you're halfway there. Unfortunately OP I cannot take you the rest of the way but you will find yourself socialising and even having fun in next to no time. Always avoid depressing and negative concepts and subjects, that's always a social vibe killer.

Oh and for the record OP, there is *always* an obnoxious douchebag you makes you feel bad. Practice socially shunning them by ignoring/not engaging in conversation with them. Nobody likes them.
Avoid learning toxic, abusive, insulting behaviours, and don't do anything you wouldn't do in-front of a 7ft tall angry muscular man who is ready to perform a beatdown on you (that way, when you move into physical conversations, the transition is almost seemless).
As for scoring the GFs, you'll need to start icebreakers, jokes and common interests with them either in person or online. You will either keep hitting landmines (they already have boyfriends) or you'll find out that secretly you're just ugly.

>>34396942
Post an online ad saying you want a girl who likes spending time indoors, frogposting and having sex. Simple.

>>34383649
>Although this depends on how much you talked beforehand
Sending nudes is a redflag regardless of how long you've known the person. Such a disgusting behaviour even if she was my gf I'd be extremely disappointed.

>>34383359
Let's go over the problem:
>I think i am an average girl
>I hate 'normies'
>I send randos on the internet nudes when they ask and they just ignore me
>I wanna feel loved
>I am very mentally ill
>I feel I'm unlovable and useless

Here's my advice:
I'd isolate what the love you want actually is. Attention? Kindness? Sexual desire? If you don't really know what you want it's hard to feel any which way. Some sociologists call this a love language. Find what you value in a relationship then create situations that foster it.

I'd suggest not sharing nudes and starting a whole lot smaller with a friendship before you try to make a relationship. It's called having a "boy-friend" for a reason. Try to focus more on cultivating men like flowers, first you have to sew the seeds of a relationship, find out what they enjoy and try it out to see if you like doing what they like. As an example, if you like anime find someone else who will watch anime with you. Then you have to water the seed frequently, say your love language is words of affirmation. Try telling the person you want to love you that you had a lot of fun watching anime together and you'd like to do it again when they have the time. Keep in mind everyone has different interests and timeframes (some flowers need more water than others) and it takes time and effort to get a plant to properly bloom. So don't give up and make some friends.

>>34383359
kek you def browsed 4chan too much. you sound like a cute girl
from your text, you only messaged with random people you didnt even know nor did they know you inrl... ofc such things are just fantasy and nothing serious... you are literally just chatting ... just focus to find a partner in real life instead of discord

>>34386655
kek this a bit

>>34383359
>>34383359
The /pol/ chuds here aren't going to be honest to you (they have a combination of self-loathing + distorted worldview). I will be honest with you, but sit down, this will be painful. This isn't intended as a personal attack, it is just honest feedback on the situation which happens to be negative.
1) I do not think you have an accurate self-assessment of yourself. If desperate guys don't want you, then you may not be "average" in looks, but potentially ugly. I don't say this to be mean, I used to think I was average but realised a lot of people avoided me, so one has to deduce they are ugly (if they avoid you before you say anything).
2) You said "i am very mentally ill". This is a huge social turn-off for a *lot* of people. Even if we assume you are average in looks, being "very mentally ill" means you come with extra emotional burdens that other people, especially emotionally unstable and self-loathing chud incels, do not want to have to deal with. Mental illness is like ugliness but for intelligence or psychology. There's a reason society labels it an ILLNESS and not 'wow cool feature'.
3) "i send them nudes when they ask". Stop doing that, you're at high risk of being blackmailed or extorted. I suspect the 'mental illness' you refer to is impairing your judgement capabilities.
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>>34383359
Part 2/2
Now that's out of the way, your friends and your date are not your therapist nor psychiatrist. They are not there to deal with your emotional baggage or mental illness. If you have trauma issues, find a therapist. If you have psychological issues, find either a psychologist or a psychiatrist. Work on yourself, deal with your own personal issues first. Me personally? I just deal with the consequences of being isolated due to mental illness rather than take drugs, but you might have a different equation.
Also your post title is a lie and you should feel bad about:
>not even chuds want me
>the only 2 irl bfs ive ever had were evil to me and both relationships ended with me getting cheated on
If nobody wanted you, you wouldn't even have "irl bfs".
Also, another reality check, blind fire really: if you're a fucking tranny trying to larp as a woman, *people can tell you're not a woman*. There are entire physical and physiological traits that you will never be able to change that alert people. In-fact, on weight of probability, a normal woman is more likely to be classified as a man ('butch' or 'block jawed' or 'has a moustache' [see German women]), than a man will pass the sniff test on pretending to be a woman.