for years i’ve had this awful itch that spreads across my entire body whenever i’m remotely stressed or startled, like all i have to do is think about something once and it triggers it, but it happens even sometimes completely unprompted and it’s gotten to the point where i’ll literally be laying on the floor just uncontrollably scratching myself to try and soothe it. i’ve been to a dermatologist but all i learned was that maybe it’s anxiety or something. i don’t know. i think it might be seasonal, too, but it’s very inconsistent. i think i’ve gone months without it only for it to one day randomly start happening again and it’s been going for a long time since it last started up. free me
>>34784764that quote is fake btw
>>34784764psoriasis, which can be related to anxiety or mental stress
>>34784764i got the flu once and had Pityriasis rosea after for 2 months.i got the origin herald patch thats and scales around it that spread. dont remember it being too scratchy before it went away on its own>>34785392this seems like the more likely candidate.
Why did nobody tell me that when I hit 30, life becomes a routine?
>>34784793if youve just got that feeling now then consider yourself lucky
>>34784793What? 30 was when I finally had enough money to do things I actually wanted to and break out of my families toxic patterns and tell idiot bosses and friends to fuck off for good. I picked up guitar three years ago and am half way through writing my second album. I don't know what you spent your 20's doing, but any delusion you have that life is over now isn't founded on anything outside of your fear of uncertainty.
>>34784793I''ve had more "adventures" since 30 than before. Moving u[p in my profession, making enough money to travel and buy things, meeting a wider circle of people, etc.If life closes in on you at 30, you are simply not looking outward
>>34784793>5 hours>0 replies>bait questionop never intended to read the responses here
>>34784793Because thats entirely on you and your life choices, not something that magically happens when your age turns a certain number.
Trying to make money trading crypto.Dumb or stupid?
>>34783689Here’s the UN’s ten economic areas to consider when hedging your bets.Agriculture, Forestry, and Fishing (Primary Sector)Mining and Quarrying (Primary Sector)Manufacturing (Secondary Sector)Construction (Secondary Sector)Wholesale and Retail Trade; Repair (Tertiary Sector)Transportation and Storage (Tertiary Sector)Accommodation and Food Services (Tertiary Sector)Information and Communication (Tertiary/Quaternary Sector)Financial and Insurance Activities (Tertiary Sector)Real Estate, Professional, Scientific, Technical, Administrative Services, Public Administration, Education, Health, and Arts (Tertiary/Quinary Sectors)
>>34778937You probably don't even have an idea how normal stock market works.Stay the fuck away from that volatile shit.
>>34783689>>34783705Interesting. Thank you, anon!
Should I sell my BTC (about $3000’s worth, all from getting $5 for free in 2012) to pay off my credit card debt?
>>34785366how much debt and whats the interest on it?
Mom keeps pestering me to go out and socialize, get friends and gf but where do I go? I'm 32 btw
>>34784905ah, perfectthen just go to your local mosque and convert to islam lmao
>>34784794>>34784802I used to be in the same boat. What helped me is asking me to introduce me to a girl constantly until she got fed up. No she is no longer asking. If she will still tell you to go out, ask her where. If she doesn't say, keep asking her to annoy her. It she tells you where, go there, fail and report back to show her she's full of shit.
>>34785064>asking me*asking her
>>34784973>picrel>>34784794op just sign up for a club or group that interests you. go to a larp event or something that you can do something interested to you and meet other people.if you just go to a grocery store or coffee shop no one's gonna want to talk to you out of the blue. you gotta use third spaces.you could try a bar if you have the balls to approach people
>>34784794Look around you. Meet your neighbors, classmates, workmates, churchmates. Join a club, a team, a class, a church. Do volunteer work. Go to events and shows and chat with people on line. Hang out at the comic book store
I'm 30 years old and I find my tech job completely uninteresting and meaningless. I was always the creative type, enjoying hobbies like music composition, ceramics or designing maps for video games. I ended up in tech hoping to work on video games, but these days game dev is absolutely in the dumps. Above all, I struggle to relate with tech enthusiasts and people who spend their off days working on open source projects. I also think AI will absolutely fingerblast this industry in the matter of a decade. So I'm looking to pivot to some other field. I consider many other career paths, but I struggle to pick one and just pursue it. There's so many different options and variables to consider. I already went through the books 80,000 Hours and Designing Your Life, but I'm still lost and I could use some street wisdom.
who knows, i found my quiet peace with a tech job that is attached to the creative field like helping create movies. I could have been making more money, have a better standing life, still have loved ones in my life that left due to a time consuming pursuit, but for people sometimes you are compelled to find something like this to be content. its all grunt work in the end but you are working on a craft, and sometimes it is a craft that gives an output you can call your own. find something you enjoy the task regardless if you get paid or not. i find the people who wished they were into game dev but fear leading to inaction is a common fate, if you really wanted to you just do it in the limited time you have to spare.
>>34785178If you make $100k a year you can retire by the time AI takes over.
>>34785178Three choices:1 As the anon says,find ways to be creative within tech2 Quit tech and get a creative job3 Use the 40 hours a week you spend doing tech to fund the 128 hours you spend being creative
>>34785178idk i feel like it's best not to make your hobby your job.what else are you interested in working on, cause i would venture to say it will pay much less than what you are doing now.i switched careers because i wanted to be outdoors, not because i have a passion for the work and its made me happy. i also make less money from it by the way.if i was in your shoes i'd just make video games in your off time even if you are using ai. it may lead to a job at some point, and furthermore, there will be a point where yes, entry jobs aren't needed due to AI but they will need time tested people to manage AI and watch over it and you may fulfill that position even for a video game.i'd at least look at a video game project you can support in your offtime because its something you can put on your resume that may lead to a job down the line.
What are some subtle signs a girl might be cheating on her guy? Sudden behaviour shifts?Asking for a friend, of course
>>34785167If you couldn't already guess from her general vibe its very difficult for me to give you a clear guide on what behaviors she might be having in this case.Its best to just do some digging if you are serious on investigating.
>>34785167the three i'd say are keeping their phone in private, especially if it seems like they're having a juicy text session with someone. finding irregular times they're out. i say irregular like they usually don't stay out after work or go out at this time added with ways that seem like bs. and then, if it hasn't already been absent for a while, but they're emotionally gone from you.a relationship is built on trust. you're going to have to confront them or do some investigative work at some point if you don't trust the person, or get over yourself.is there a reason they'd stay with you but cheat on you, like financial wise?
>>34785167You get an invitation to her wedding
>>34785167She starts accusing you of cheating
Whenever I see myself in a mirror or some other reflective surface next to someone taller than me it instantly makes me suicidal and see how inferior I truly am. If I see someone shorter than me I don't feel anything other than pity. Im not even the shortest at 5'9 (I think not a yank). Do you tall anons get a feeling of superiority looking down at shorties genuinenly curious
If you were tall you would just find another thing to make yourself feel inferior. You have an inferiority complex.
>>34784906>suicidaloh man this dude must be REALLY short>5'9"bro
>>34785268bro average height of dudes around where I live is around 5'11 or 6ft I think
>>34784906i don't think op is here, but you will appear much more confident if you just don't care.i can even see where a muscular midget would come across as if they are a coping manlet, and not look much different than a dude riding a lifted f-350 compensator.i guess you could be like the florida governor and wear lifted cowboy boots, but again it puts you in the territory of being a faggot.embrace the reputation that you are a manlet and move on.
>>34785319Chances are you're still taller than the vast majority of women where you're at
Is there a shortcut to the meaning of life?Beating the enemies of the self? etc.
>>34784623i feel free because i realize there is nothing to life which feels liberating. Meaning is notional idea, meaning of art, meaning of symbols, meaning of life. You are the creator of the thought of meaning, there is no meaning without you because the meaning only exists within your mind, it is not part of reality rather a part of your imagination. A lot of popular topics like meaning or self are mere concepts, made up, notional. Just live your human life, theres nothing else to life then living, humans dont deserve a god more then ants do.you realy btfod the theoloesoteric schizo btw lol
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>>34778280there is no self the enemies of the self are literal facts about reality lol you don't beat them you just acknowledge their truth
>>34784623>I don't knowyes. i know that you dont know. but i know. thats why i answered you in full. higher concepts and Spirits arent man made.the same is applicable to maths. you can use your own logic and start from null and come to the same conclusions we have today. except its going to take you milleniae. or you know you go back to school and listen to a teacher that just tells you. oh wait, you dont believe anything man made. so go back to your lil forest and start observing nature and deriving maths from that. have fun dummy.>I envy the faithfuli spoonfed you little nignog which is against the rules, completely with timeline and even names and you ramble about faith. i gave you objective verifiably Truth.pearls before the swine i guess. some things never change huhdisdain for the pro fane +10%
>>34784853oh not the objective verifiably truth thats against the rulez to give that out!!!!!! what have you done!!
So, it started years ago. I’ve been addicted to porn for years, and had constantly been cheated on by almost every single girlfriend I’ve had. One day, when I was with one of them, I couldn’t get hard (because of too much porn use) and she reacted very poorly. The relationship ended because of that night, and I felt so low about myself that I thought that the only thing I deserved was to watch pretty girls fuck other guys. That’s when it all started. I’ve since then done a lot of working on myself, and taken up tons of hobbies and got in shape. I’ve also had frequent relationships and hook ups that went very well, but for some reason, this fetish lingers. Do any of you guys know how I can get rid of it for good? I’ve had some streaks of good abstinence from porn, but still relapse occasionally. Is it even possible to get rid of a fetish so ingrained in my subconscious? I’m too embarrassed to ask for advice about this from anyone I know irl.
>>34784320I think you’re getting it mixed up- black WOMEN have masculine features
>>34784045Or maybe he works in the medical field, anon
>>34779554>>34779948>>34780075So these are the people that spam wojaks across every board now, huh?
>>34784611A white sissy man wrote this btw.
>>34785093Ah, okay, in that sense I do agree with that.
why don't they just lie in bed all day every daywhy do they go out and do thingswhat pushes them to do this
>>34774934Their immunity to your constant brainwashing. Must be frustrating to be so impotent but it pays, right?
I just enjoy doing math / my other study hobbiesso I essentially go out of bed to do thataint much deeper than that
>>34774934>At dawn, when you have trouble getting out of bed, tell yourself: “I have to go to work as a human being. What do I have to complain of, if I’m going to do what I was born for, the things I was brought into the world to do? Or is this what I was created for? To huddle under the blankets and stay warm?”>So you were born to feel “nice”? Instead of doing things and experiencing them? Don’t you see the plants, the birds, the ants and spiders and bees going about their individual tasks, putting the world in order, as best they can? And you’re not willing to do your job as a human being? Why aren’t you running to do what your nature demands?>You don’t love yourself enough. Or you’d love your nature too, and what it demands of you. People who love what they do wear themselves down doing it, they even forget to wash or eat. Do you have less respect for your own nature than the engraver does for engraving, the dancer for the dance, the miser for money or the social climber for status? When they’re really possessed by what they do, they’d rather stop eating and sleeping than give up practicing their arts. >Is helping others less valuable to you? Not worth your effort?There you go. It’s because they have sufficient love for themselves, their own nature, and the things they do. You must have these things too. Any more questions?
op are you still even here?
>>34774934Not getting out of bed is actually a lot more difficult. Path of least resistance.
>Splits the bills>Gets mad for actual valid reasons >Doesn't care about expensive shit>Caring and considerate>Can cook greatly>Appreciates little moments>Smart and practical>Supportive>Always hornyWhy you guys still haven't looked for a filipina dwarf wife yet? (Not the lower class ones, those are just social climbing leeches)
im gay
im in a friend group of roughly 12 people including myself and due to a recent falling out with one of the members everything is going to shit for everyone, so my question is, why do people bother to make friendgroups at all if one bad apple is all it takes to distance everybody back to square 0???
>>34785087it's the way it is. one table shitter and everyone has feculence sundays at the table. its up to the leader and everyone else to get rid of the bad apples and fix things to make it work.even friends table energy to make work so everyone/leader is going to have to try and make it work and tell people it's time to move past this. or the group splits in 2.did the table shitter have allies?has anyone tried to do damage control yet?
>>34785097the shitter has more than allies the shitter is dating someone from the group. and gets along decently with most.me and a close friend tried doing damage control and we got chastised for "taking it too seriously"
>>34785087It didn't use to be this way, but since social media has given the false impression that people can always be replaced with better people than whatever imperfect souls you spend your time with, anyone less holier than thou on whatever the issue of the day is can no longer make the cut in their minds and gets discarded. Nevermind how retarded this all is, that's how people act because they can't imagine a person with flaws being deserving of patience or effort, and so one bad apple gets enough stink on everyone else to make them throw out the whole bunch.
>>34785087Friend groups should be 3 to 5 people, not 12.
>>34785107>the typical guild story with love strings attachedi dont know if you guys have meetings, but if i was in your shoes, i'd get together with your close friends and write down very clear and concise about the problem, and then bring it up with those that care, or the entire group, to discuss.you will probably get a good idea based on the individuals reactions if they're some are going to go along with you or react in an extremely negative manner.if your suggestions/thoughts aren't met, then it is time to make an ultimatum and draw a line for yourself and your close friend. you don't have to be a turbo asshole, but just say something along the lines of, "X person is bringing the group down for Y and Z reasons. If we can't change X or keep them out of group affairs, me and my close friend are going to form a smaller group to do things so that this bullshit Y and Z doesn't keep repeating itself."Make it in a way that makes it sound like it's as impersonal as possible, and focused on the group health as a result of specific past history that keeps repeating itself.write it out like it's a police report that separates the people as much as possible, to prevent the, "you're dissing my girlfriend" reaction.>>34785243this sounds like the final solution
>34>people I know, but not really any "friends">few people I asked to hang out with either had other plans or were out of town>therefore alone on the saturday of a long weekend>45k a year at a 9-5 job I hate and am barely qualified for>never traveled>ok apartment in my hometown but dad pays for half of it>no gf>no degree>chronic autoimmune disease that basically requires me to be within a stones throw of a pharmacy in order to get medicine/medical equipment 90% of the timeI have a bit of savings but that's pretty much it in regards to things I have going for me. Around 100k. Would love to fuck off and travel a bit but worried about how to get diabetes supplies in foreign countries and don't want to die because I was stranded in some third world desert.What's the first step to fixing my life? I know I'm old as fuck. I lost basically the entirety of my 20s to depression among other shit. Genuinely expected to be dead by 30. Comment too long. Click here to view the full text.
No idea why you want to travel. You sound like you should focus on making friends which is harder the more mobile you are. If you're concerned about money I wouldn't worry about it. You can just hitchhike and couchsurf or bike and warmshowers. Your real concern would only be (((career opportunity cost))) but thats whatev depending on your personality.
>>34784307heres some advice anonJUST FUGGIN DO ITbuy the tickettake the ride
>>34784104https://youtu.be/lqZehFAwoTM?t=32It's over as soon as you turn 18 and leave the school system without a well established social circle. You go to work, but you won't make any friends, just coworkers. You join a sports club, same deal. It's over, because everyone already has their social circles locked in since childhood. You'll be nothing more than a coworker, destined to be alone for life. Social life and relationships are like trains you have to catch at the quay, a race against time that takes place during adolescence. And by extension, logically of course, no social life and no women.But normies don't understand this because they are clueless normies who think you can walk into a bar full of strangers and magically form a social life like in The Sims. Only women can start from scratch and create a social life and get a boyfriend from scratch because of their status as women.Whether you're 34 or 44 it doesn't change anything, maybe for the normies, but for you and me Chud, a year is like any other, the sands of time flowing towards nothingness, nothing more.. nothing less.
>>34784309It's less the insulin and more the pump supplies, cgms, etc that I think would be the real pain in the dick to source. Is healthcare free in the netherlends even if I'm not a citizen? Like do I get the subsidized drug costs if I'm a leaf?>>34784465Because I want to see a little more of the world, on my own terms. I feel like one of the reasons I don't have friends is because my lived experience is so shallow and narrow that I struggle to be interesting or fun to spend time with. I'm burned out on my hometown, you know?>>34784871The fucked up thing is I had what I thought was a pretty decent social life until a few years ago. Started drinking less, so the drinking buddies fell by the wayside. The remaining friends I do have I see maybe once a month because they just....don't like doing anything. I'm not going to go sit at your house and watch you fuckin play skate or some shit you know what I mean? I need people to go hiking with. Swimming. Anything besides fucking sitting around smoking and bitching about work.
>>34785248why not join a hiking club in your city? i dont know what part of leafland you're from but i bet you there's one you can join to meet new people.hope for the best anon since you have some circumstances that you can't change.
i feel ultimately hopeless regarding my future, but not because i have an ultimately ambitious mindset or never feeling like things are enough. i've been living an immigrant life for the past 4 years, working my ass off in multiple jobs, but at the same time keeping up with the university, passing everything with good grades. i missed lots of opportunities to have fun and enjoy my early 20s because i was 'grinding', i never wanted to have this victim mindset and i did not want to admit that my lack of opportunities could be holding me back, so i always blamed myself about being lazy, and worked harder. now that after 4 years of studying, still working hard in two jobs and having some side gigs, i am the only one left from my classroom who couldn't manage to write this diploma thesis and defend it. everyone went ahead and started studying their master's, or landed some sort of corpo jobs. and here i am writing this during my lunch break at my minimum wage job just so i can pay my rent or afford buying some slop to eat. i am feeling so fucking worried that after years of sustaining myself and being, independent everything can go to waste just because i couldnt manage to write 30 pages of paper in the time, might get kicked out of uni. i just still can't accept that me having less time, less money, less energy than the others count as an excuse. but at the same time it does not feel fair. i dont want to bend the rules just for me either. so please give me your most unhinged and even unethical ways to get a thesis done in a span of one-month. i am not very creative with cheeky ways to get this going, i am simple and i believe in hard work. but i feel like i don't have much left in me, so i just want this shit to be done as soon as possible, so give me your advices about how to cheat this system or somehow write this shit in my few available hours per week
ask for a time extension ask for paid leave from your jobs, state you're finishing your thesis they most likely will give to you at least a few daysSLEEP AT LEAST 7 HOURS A DAY
the time extension they gave is until 30th of sept. and about the paid leave, the contracts that i have does not provide me paid leave. i donno how it works there but here in poland we do have two typa agreements, and i just get paid as much as i work. but i appreciate your comment a lot, thanks man
do a thesis about your favorite film.
>>34784792i only slept 6 hours last night. am i gonna make it?>>34784773>picrelwhy can't you use the enter key reading that wall?
>>34785218sleep is important bro, don't neglect it
Renewed energy, healing, love and devotion - mutual and obsessive. All I ever wanted, and I sing my praises and gratitudes to all who will hear that it wasn't lost and destroyed. Even if I did have to be tortured to realize what I had, haha. I want you to always feel my gentle parts, my loving parts, even when they're being choked by the black weeds. Because they're for you. I've never thought you defective or a fool. I've cried and raged for you, have always wanted you to live in joy, wished and dreamed and fantasized of having met you earlier and earlier in my life. Let us be inseparable always. To lose you would be akin to losing my heart, and my blood would still and clot in my veins, no breath pass my lips, until you were mine again, and I yours.
I did immediately start to get nauseous and developed a headache upon your leaving...aha. withdrawals.
I'm going to be terribly paranoid and anxious until I hear from you again because my mind immediately goes to awful scenarios otherwise - you going off the road and dying or one of them being dead when you return or of cage bars and shit, ahaha fuck I need to chill
I'm so fucking miserable. I don't even remember what being happy feels like. And when I think I'm happy these days I get fucking scared. My brain is bad, I'm born wrong. Fuck this. Fuck all this. Killl me. Kill me. I want this to end. End now. I don't want it.
I don't think I'm ever gonna make itNot everyone makes it
