>>34168358
>I’m 19 turning 20
You're an adult now. You're the captain of your own ship. Your parents can yell and say and threaten whatever they like, but ultimately your choices are yours and yours alone. I would also say unless your parents are wildly successful in life and business and have personal experience with what you want to do, thank them for their input say you'll consider it, and ignore them.

You can move out if you have a job that pays enough money to have a comfortable apartment. It is no more complicated than that. Until then you just manage your parents with humoring them, agree and amplify anything they say back to them. Works most of the time.

>>34168568
>I would also say unless your parents are wildly successful in life and business and have personal experience with what you want to do, thank them for their input say you'll consider it,

Thank you for you me advice and consideration. My mother is nurse herself and went to the same cc I’m attending currently so she does obviously have some experience, the issue is I’m not sure I want to follow in her footsteps exactly.

>>34168970
In high-performance and competitive fields a real life, qualifying question you will in fact sometimes be asked is "do you have any X in the family"? This is asked because having the benefit of someone genuinely invested in your growth like a family member who knows how to do what you want to do is a massive force multiplier. If you do want to do something in the medical field, it is worth considering listening to your mom and enlisting her assistance.

>>34169067
This is helpful information thank you for sharing it with me. I’ve heard that for nursing the institution that you attend and graduate from isn’t considered as much as other career paths, is there any truth to that?

>>34168358
Bump

>>34165380
is it a man thing that I never wash my face, never put shit on it and yet I have perfect skin?

>>34167173
no, your face is regulating itself. don't dare and try to apply anything because you will probably never restore the balance lol

>>34167173
Yes.
The men are blessed. Something to do with collagen and some other thing I think.

>>34167173
Nah you're just fortunate. I lived like that for 31 years, and in my 31st year (mid-2025 to now) my skin has started to be drier than a dead old woman's vagina.

>>34165380
I use water

>>34168955
i'd rather be a mechanic or plumber

>>34167960
I'd love to be a teacher, but my mental health couldn't take the strain of 5 years of uni. Which subjects are you studying for?

>>34168850
>sounds like no matter what i can't just jump into a thing and make good money
More experience in the specific field = higher wages. Unless you're willing to do something dangerous or disgusting, possibly both you are correct.

>>34169184
i'd be more worried of how crazy kids are now, and that you can't discipline them without repercussions, wouldn't wanna be in that asylum.

>>34169469
Just take away their phones at the start of the class. Also i'm luckily not an american, we're not as neurotic where i live

>>34166733
Why didn't you say: "Alright, see ya too, but we'll actually have to walk a bit in the same direction, I park over there!" Is it so hard to act like a normal person?

>>34166733
>I pretended that I was walking the other way to not make her uncomfortable
stop doing this. stop trying to manage the thoughts and feelings of other people, its impossible and youll go crazy. this is how you become normal. normies naturally have no empathy or dont care about other people or are too dumb to even predict what other people feel and think, you can mimic this behavior.

>>34168764
>stop doing this. stop trying to manage the thoughts and feelings of other people, its impossible and youll go crazy. this is how you become normal.
I enjoyed this part, well said.

>normies naturally have no empathy or dont care about other people or are too dumb to even predict what other people feel and think, you can mimic this behavior.
I didn't enjoy this part. You missed the gem of your own advice. Ceasing trying to manage thoughts and feels of other people? Very based. Assuming it requires a lack of empathy to pull it off? Not based. Normies have empathy, but they also have boundaries. They understand that empathy is a resource, like water. And they understand that in order to maximise the effectiveness on the plots of their own lives (their own connections: friends, family, their relationship/marriage), then they must spend their empathy wisely and selectively, they understand their life is not a farm or a field, just a humble plot. They've only got enough empathy to consistently and effectively water that plot.

If they were neurotic, they would catch the stupid idea that somehow their whole life is an entire field, and they would try to spread their empathy across the field in equal measure to be a "nice guy". And if they tried that, they would realise very quickly that each connection, each person in their life receives only a drop. Just a tiny drop of empathy at a time. They would quickly find out that for all their intentions to be helpful, they become undependable and helpless.

"Normies" live in reality. And the others who wrongfully believe that their empathy is some superpower with infinite limitations and fail to have boundaries, they live in fantasy.

>>34168874
normies dont think that way at all. its really not complicated. normies are not able to predict things which is why they talk so much, they need as much information as possible because they cant fill in the blanks. for example if someone is sad then an empathetic/autistic person will instantly analyze the context and predict why the person is sad where as a normie will just blurt out "whats wrong?" because they dont have the ability to think. but this can cause the empathetic person to get stuck in their own head and hallucinate things that arent real. even if a normie was smart and could predict things they still dont because they dont give a shit.

>>34169019
>normies are not able to predict things which is why they talk so much, they need as much information as possible because they cant fill in the blanks.

They can predict things. To what degree, lesser or greater than a neurodivergent, I cannot know. But I promise you they can, and I say that as someone with adhd, pattern recognition and chasing dopamine from pattern seeking is my speciality. And the pattern I see with ‘normies’ is they can make social, cognitive, and emotional predictions. The trouble you may be having as an autist is they show their predictive power through language, in their words, using euphemism or double-meaning or idioms. Classic example: >“Don’t count all your chickens before they hatch”.
In normie speak it means “I predict that the outcome you are expecting is not going to happen at this time, to safe yourself disappointment, you should not expect it either and wait until it actualises before planning further.”

>empathetic/autistic person will instantly analyze the context and predict why the person is sad
I find this half true. You’re right, autists are extremely good at detecting when someone is hiding sadness or any emotion . In fact autists are so good at this I genuinely think its spooky, like a supernatural sixth sense. But when it comes to the “why” part, I gotta be honest autists are the worst at analysing this. They almost get every prediction wrong or can’t even see the ‘why’ at all.

I’ve seen autists get it extremely wrong this way:
>Autist tries to talk to an acquaintance.
>”I really dont feel like talking” abruptly says the acquaintance.
The autist then believes the acquaintance is mad at him, completely oblivious to the fact the whole day the person was irritable, restless, ruminative. His dog died yesterday, but autist thinks it was all about himself somehow.

So to be real with you, autists suck at predicting “why”. They are excellent at sensing “what” though.

>>34169205
You're on 11mg/clonazepam daily? And they've got you down to 2mg/day in less than 2wks? Jesus fucking Christ.

You need to see a doctor yesterday OP, you really do not understand the gravity of your situation

>are there any in Portuguese
Yes, benzo withdrawal leading to death by seizure is not some wild crazy thing with only a few medical papers on it. It's one of the first things you learn in medical school when they teach you about benzos.
>butbutbutbut--
I cannot stress this enough, if you fuck this up you die, and right now you are fucking it up

>>34169228
>You're on 11mg/clonazepam daily? And they've got you down to 2mg/day in less than 2wks? Jesus fucking Christ.
Uhh I miscalculated it. It's 2,5mg/ml clonazepam and I took 11 drops. I think this means 1mg instead of 1ml. I apologize deeply. And it's been more like 3 weeks since I've been reducing the clonazepam.

>>34169247
I'm assuming that a "drop" is "1mL," but again, that's a total fucking guess, because "drop" is not a unit of measurement. A "drop" could be ".5ml." It could be "3ml." Jesus.
>2.5mg/ml
Fucking Christ. You need to walk into an emergency room and say "I am on an uncontrolled benzo taper. My best guess is that I started at 27.5mg/day and after just 3 weeks I am at 5mg/day. I am experiencing intense withdrawal symptoms like [describe your symptoms]." They will IMMEDIATELY admit you.
>butbutbutbutbut my parents but but I don't knowwwww but but but but that's embarrassing butbutbutbut
This is the last time I'm going to say this: if you fuck up a benzo taper, you might die. You are fucking it up right now. If you don't see a doctor and unfuck it, you're probably going to die. I don't know how to be any clearer with you.

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>>34169290
No nigga, it was 1mg per day... what the fuck are you taking about...

>>34169350
>I took 11 drops
You keep saying this like it makes anything clearer. A "drop" is not a standard unit of measurement. You don't know how many ml are in a "drop." I'm assuming a "drop" is 1ml, but again, that is a complete and utter guess. A "drop" could be .5ml. A "drop" could be 1ml. A "drop" could be 3ml. All of these quantities could be "drops" of liquid. Please stop pretending you don't understand this. When you say
>I think this means 1mg instead of 1ml
you are also guessing, because you have no fucking idea how much you've been taking, because you don't know how many mls are in a "drop."

When doctors take patients through benzo tapers it's very, very tightly controlled. You take a very specific dosage per day. Not a "drop." You take, for example, exactly 1mg every 4 hours for 1 month. Then you take, for example, exactly .75mg every 5 hours for 1 month.

They do not say "okay well your formulation is 2.5mg/ml and you take 11 drops a day which is more like 1mg/ml I think haha I don't know maybe so you do that but less so maybe you take 4 drops which is maybe like possibly 1ml or maybe it's .5ml or maybe it's 3ml so maybe you should take 2.5mg/day or maybe 1.75mg/day or maybe 7.5mg/day haha yeah I don't know haha so like yeah it's drops yeah take less drops haha in a few days just like yeah drops." That is what you're currently doing. That is unfathomably retarded for reasons I won't repeat.

I told you this. I told you exactly what you needed to do -- either convince your parents *now,* or go to the ER. Now you're scared and trying to tell me (yourself) that actually it's fine because it's been less than you said (you think) and it's been longer than you said (more like 3wks you think) and blah blah blah, because if you convince yourself that I'm wrong, then everything's okay which means you don't have to talk to your parents.

Good luck man. When you have your first seizure, hope you remember this thread before you black out. Tried to warn you

>>34163267
I get it, sometimes I also fantasize about going to war when I don't feel any purpose, but please don't die for GAE

>>34163267
See you in the drone video. Make sure to make it interesting.

>>34163267
Man, I love hearing people say this because they truly have no concept of what living in fear of dying every second of every day does to you. Waiting for a rocket to come out of the sky and atomize you, waiting to step on an IED and get your dick blown off. Waiting for a brave freedom fighter (that your own country supplied weapons to) to blow you up or shoot you. It's just really not cool and it alters you psychologically. Not in a good way

>blebbitor posting on 4kex
you just love to see it.
yes. go join your comrades.
i salute you. respect 100, take my gold stranger!
*giggles*

What do you think your life is gonna be like if you get your limps get blown off or you suffer from traumatic brain unjury or get some kind of permanent lung damage etc. Have you look into whether Ukraine has a good benefit system for permanently injured foreign combat veterans?. Everything thinks dying is the worse thing that can happen in war but nobody talls about barely surviving one

>>34169082
Every difference between myself and other cultures is relevant to me, for better or for worse.
I prize whatever culture promotes me and my genetic kin, that's all there is to it.

>>34155975
My advice would be leave the US. You'll never be welcome. There are other countries that don't mind at all, you would be welcomed with open arms.

>>34167955
Does it require me to go back to college? How long does it take? If it's a serious option I should probably look into it.
>>34168018
>What do you want to do?
Hard to explain without sounding super delusional but I mostly want to focus on my artistic side related to what I've been talking about and have had a semblance of success aka a small audience that notably isn't 0 but are mostly foreign to countries I have next to no genetic alignment. Struggling to keep up with technology has been my achilles heel. I do conservation work or community work which doesn't pay much but the only stuff I feel a sense of meaning working on.
>o, I'm saying you should focus on people's individual stories and not just entirely box them as their ethnicity or race cuz there's often much more than meets the eye.
I don't judge people by their ethnicity, but I do intend to focus on particulars and so for what I want to do it matters. Also matters if I am to get children. I don't like that this is true but my best bet if I were to ever get with a woman is a woman not terribly close to her family to avoid racial or religious tensions.
>Ok now take this and apply it to everyone in your family dying at some point. You know you have unfinished business. What will lead to the least regret?
My family mostly does their own thing and doesn't really care what I do outside of the superficial stuff like make a lot of money, looking religious and getting married with kids. It all feels so arbitrary and since I can't feel safe with my kids growing up mentally sane I don't feel like I owe anyone in my family much of anything. Truthfully I feel bitter I spent most of my 20s trying to support and appease it just for none of it to matter.
>>34169183
This is my view and basically would only have allegiances to whatever nation and/or culture group accepts my vision. It's not how things were traditionally done but I am a being born for the modern era separated from my ancestors way of enlightenment.

>>34169236
>It's not how things were traditionally
Well they didn't need these kind of explicit policies, they weren't under nearly the same constant threat of extinction.
We're merely adapting a cultural strategy that has already existed throughout all of history, to equip us for the modern era.

>>34169236
>artistic side
Ok but what does that mean? Too vague. Why does genetic alignment matter in art? Art is free flowing, you go wherever the flow takes you, influences can come from anywhere, you don't let genetic alignment limit you, though you can make it help or guide you if you want

>I do intend to focus on particulars and so for what I want to do it matters.
Still don't know what it is you want to do, why does it matter to what you wanna do? What particulars do you wanna focus on?

>a woman not terribly close to her family to avoid racial or religious tensions.
A woman similar to you, then. Religious tensions sure, but racial? Why would there be racial tensions? Seems more like tensions from backwards trad conservative type shit creating arbitrary rules rather than following reason. Religion is also that, just worse

>superficial stuff like make a lot of money, looking religious and getting married with kids.
Getting married and having kids is not a superficial thing, it shouldn't be in the same list as those other things

>feel bitter
Another regret you wouldn't want to repeat in the next generation

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>>34169248
I'm not sure if any therapists/medical professionals are legally allowed to agree with this, but the truth is, not everyone who wants to die is mentally ill.

>>34169146
I have the feeling that most people out there haven't understood the fact that life ends soon. They may have heard it, they may say it, but they don't really grasp it.
When I started reading self-help slop death was mentioned many times. I thought I understood it, but I couldn't have been more wrong. I still wanted to make money and to be productive because I unconsciously still thought that it would somehow make me fulfilled and happy.
I try to look at people from whom I can be sure that they understood. Cioran, Bernhard, Ligotti, etc. In most cases it ends in some form of not thinking. Like some mystics that thought not acting would result in God being able to act through you. Like some Taoists letting themselves flow.

>>34169174
>Some of the things he said seem to contradict each other.
They don't only seem to do that, they actually do. Cioran himself admits it:
>I only write this kind of stuff, because explaining bores me terribly. That's why I say when I've written aphorisms it's that I've sunk back into fatigue, why bother. And so, the aphorism is scorned by "serious" people, the professors look down upon it. When they read a book of aphorisms, they say, "Oh, look what this fellow said ten pages back, now he's saying the contrary. He's not serious." Me, I can put two aphorisms that are contradictory right next to each other. Aphorisms are also momentary truths. They're not decrees. And I could tell you in nearly every case why I wrote this or that phrase, and when. It's always set in motion by an encounter, an incident, a fit of temper, but they all have a cause. It's not at all gratuitous

Cioran isn't a rationalist. He is a skeptic. He rejects any kind of system. His books are written as some form of therapy for himself. Kinda like "If you write the problem down clearly, then the matter is half solved". He wrote down any of his doubts and consideration to have a better time to think about it. He doesn't try to teach you a thought-system. Its more like you are able to take a look inside all the doubts, however irrational they may be, of a french insomniac faggot.
>If I were to be totally sincere, I would say that I do not know why I live and why I do not stop living. The answer probably lies in the irrational character of life which maintains itself without reason.

>>34169284
Sounds like we probably shouldn't take any advice from him then.

>>34169283
>In most cases it ends in some form of not thinking.
That's a conclusion I've come to as well. In order to be content you have to just not think about the things that would otherwise bother you. That's gotten me to tomorrow thus far but it doesn't fulfill me. I am empty and I am tired.

>>34169308
Why am I still yet to see any screenshots from the 4chan dating app? I'd obviously sooner be seen dead than join it myself.

>>34168246
The way I learned it was by talking to women and asking them out and learning by trial and error. If you aren't literally autistic and are just inexperienced you should learn.

Learning how to interact with women is difficult and cringy, if you didn't learn it as a highschooler you must suffer through it as an adult.

>>34168277
>you must suffer through it as an adult.
Too much inexperience in my case. Juice is unfortunately not worth the squeeze at my age.

>>34168293
>Juice is unfortunately not worth the squeeze at my age
It seems that people use that "juice" phrase when they want to handwave things away because they're hard

>>34169230
More like you either fundamentally understand it or you dont. It's not like physical exercise where everything is understandable.

>>34169238
>More like you either fundamentally understand it or you dont
Unless you're a diagnosed retard, that isn't the case. You can learn it through extremely contrived means with a lot of research. We only know what we've learned, and if your life didn't show you how to talk with women with a sexual goal in mind or you didn't take the opportunities to learn when everyone else was learning, then it's pretty much all up to you to make what you can of your experiences.

That isn't to say you need to be the suave-est guy in the world to bag a chick. I see old, ugly dumbasses who stumble over their words wind up with pretty women all the time.

>>34169095
What kind of terrorist?

>>34169099
Jihadist

>>34169095
Talk to some police officers about your terrorist friend.