So my father is cheating on my mother but this is not his first time, around 2 years ago he started seeing this woman and even went on date with her but eventually got caught by my mother in my opinion she should have divorced him then and there but she was too afraid of our little happy family falling apart.fast forward to now i am 100% sure that he is doing it again his job does not require him to show up at the office everyday so on the days he is at home he sits in his bedroom all day and talks to a woman on the phone.He thinks I don't notice this stuff but i have known this for a long time.At this point of time i have no idea of what i should do since telling my mother would only lead to weeks of crying and screaming in the house and then they would eventually let it go.I will be moving out of the house next year for college and feel like the best thing i can do is to turn a blind eye to all of this.What do y'all think?
>>35089629Once your youngest sibling is 18 let your mom know. Let the youngest crash with you if they still live at home.
>>35089977I'm the youngest and I'm also moving out next year.
>>35089659Watch how fast your slut mom leaves your dad for her "work husband" when all this comes out.>opening her messenger apps and everything nothing seemed suspicious.Oh you naive child
>>35089629If you don't want to talk to her, then talk to him: tell him you'll tell your mother unless he stops.
>>35089629shit that doesnt matter and doesnt affect you and that you should pay no mind to
Is this really how much fentanyl it takes to kill someone with no tolerance? You just snort that and die cozy?
>>35090613>You just snort that and die cozy?No, you'd have to inject if into a vein.
>>35090876How tf do I do thatWhat if I just snorted a fat line to the brain
So if I did something terrible in the past, isn't it kinda evil for me to keep that a secret from the person that I'm supposed to spend the rest of my life with?Or am I just retarded for wanting someone to love the real me and not a fake version of me that is built on a lie?Wouldn't that be a curel and evil thing to do? Set me straight here.
>>35085559>isn't it kinda evil for me to keep that a secret from the person that I'm supposed to spend the rest of my life with?If you're hiding it out of fear that they'd reject you for it, then yes. You're denying them the agency to make that decision for themselves.The only exception is if you positively know (not just suspect, KNOW) they're the kind of person who would prefer to be kept in the dark about something that didn't physically affect them. Even here, you're hardly obligated to lie. But it's arguably less evil than in any other case.>>35085649>Why? In what way does your partner suffer by not knowing? Because it's entirely self-serving to hide a truth that you know would destroy the relationship. Vermin like you think the truth is an afterthought, that results are all that matter. That's exactly why you're awful people.If a woman hid something I thought was dealbreakingly awful from me, and then I ended up committing to the lie she sold me, I would minecraft her upon finding out. She'd have betrayed my trust, stolen years of my time, and destroyed my life all out of the selfish conceit that she knew better than I did about what kind of relationship I want. I can't imagine the sheer level of rage I'd feel if we also brought kids into her lie.>>35085786>the completely different person you used to be before you became the person you are nowIf it's so inconsequential, you shouldn't "need" to be dishonest about it. But it isn't. I know it. You know it. That's why you're arguing in favor of lying to someone you supposedly love about things which would deeply affect them.
>>35090606>I would minecraft hereh lol I've never seen that used as a violent verb before
>>35085559if you wont do that thing you did in the past anymore, then it doenst matter. you are not that person anymore.
>>35085559There is no "real you" ur just an asshole.bro but you don't need to show your asshole to everyone. Guess what we don't really "know anyone" think about it All we do is paint a fantasy over someone and then get mad eventually when it falls apart. That's it. Think about that deeply.
>>35090718It falls apart precisely because you did not take the time and energy to know them you retard.
Hey guys. I'd really appreciate prayers or advice regarding how to heal my sexual broken-ness. I was asked to make a thread concerning something I'm trying to quit. I rub off to stories about people (preferably women) with the stomach bug. I know this fetish is nasty, unsustainable, and probably unsafe to some degree. I am a switch in the BDSM world and interested in plenty of other kinks. I'd love to explore sadistic fantasies that don't involve farts, vomit, gurgling, etc. One of you asked about my childhood. I'm open to answering specific questions about it. I've had some odd experiences with other kids involving the stomach bug. Maybe that's where the fetish came from? I'm afraid to tell my therapist about the stomach bug element to my fixation. She thinks I just want to eat too much with someone, then puke on each other or something. I also never brought up farts. For whatever reason, it's too tender and shameful to explain to her in entirety even though we've been working together for years. I guess because it reminds me of "bug chasers" (people who seek HIV) to some extent? I know the stomach bug goes away, but what if the psychology is similar? I shouldn't be getting off on something like this. Help me be a tad less gross and unhinged, please. I tried asking God to remove my fetish but he didn't yet.
>>35085872>a switch in the BDSM world and interested in plenty of other kinks. I'd love to explore sadistic fantasies that Why are you trying to heal your sexual broken-ness by being even more sexually brokenWhat part of these stomach bug stories do you find so arousing? Sadistic pleasure from other people in physical pain, or in mental pain (humiliation from all the involuntary bodily goopiness)?
>>35087206I don't consider it "sexual brokenness" to explore kinks that aren't unsanitary. I hate that I get off on stomach bug stories because what if it escalates to me trying to get with someone who actually has it? It's rare, but the stomach bug can cause lasting harm and long term complications like gastroparesis. It also puts other non consenting individuals at risk if someone involved in the play doesn't isolate correctly. I should not fetishize or glorify something that can ruin someone's life. I guess I like how real, raw, and uncontrollable it is. I usually can't even squirt properly because I have so many mental blocks around "surrender" and "letting go." It sucks. At first thought, I suppose it's the mental humiliation that I enjoy the most. The vulnerability is hot.
>>35088865Instead of exploring "kinks" you should be meeting new people and finding a partner and relationship. This other stuff is just glorified masturbation. Sure you can indulge in it but you lose in other lanes of life that actually matter because you spent so much time on glorified masturbation you lose time in other things that actually matter. Unless you get a partner in the end? But is that the quality of partner you want? Someone who wants to shit and puke and vomit and cry because they don't value themselvesIn the end you're just procrastinating and avoiding the hard bit of confronting you're own low self worth and the humiliation aspect is a way to cope and feel better and safer. Literally just stop indulging in escapism and start tackling what you're avoiding head on
>>35089028I agree. I got really involved in kink in my 20s and that was how I had to survive. I should focus on more wholesome things. Maybe even celibacy for a while.
>>35090800That and goals like what do you wanna do for the rest of your life, and what are you avoiding confronting
i was hitting myself on my calf and i started seeing these blood filled blister looking things appear under my skin. did i just burst too many blood vessels or is it something bad
i'm 22 and i have the brain and emotional intelligence of probably not even a 14 year old, how do i kill myself so i stop crying myself to sleep because of social problems and being a burden on my familyt. autistic
besides that, my mom was also slightly abusive to me throughout my teen years, like when i was 13 and showed first signs of depression and lack of will to live, she had varying reactions to it and she still doeswhen my grades were shit in HS because of it, she beat me with a broom once and throughout the years she yelled at me for it or also hated the times when i told the psychs i wanted to kill myself and had to go on medication or into the hospital (a lot of the times she sees it as a "nobody must know this or you will dishonor me and the family among people in the town" type of mentality)the broom thing seems funny in retrospect but man i really didn't enjoy it back then ahaha, i was also stinky and useless in high school, i would just go home after school and like sleep + play dark souls 10 hours a day because i found no will to study in school muchi got bullied in both middle and high school but while i got beat up or psychologically tortured quite often in middle school, high school was arguably worse, i got psychologically tortured by both guys and girls and i was very self-centered, to be fair but i just couldn't understand other peoplethere were many times when me and these two other guys in the class (one, an actual jock and the other his sidekick) got into fights that were about to be physical fights because they started insulting me and i didn't like and i felt bad i went to the school psychiatrist a lot, i had my mom called to school a lot and i told the professors and my mom, while i was crying in tears, that i want to kill those two guys and they just said "they say some things to you purely for your own good but they can go a little overboard" girls were not much better, their psychological torture revolved mostly around teasing me around my sex/love competence, or rather lack thereofi just never thought about love or sex in regards to other people because as i became a teen, i always thought it was a thing that i should keep to myself
>>35090437Since this sounds like you’re in Europe (train conductors aren’t really a thing in America unless you’re in very certain regions). Are there “student apartments” that are sub 900€ a month? If you’re American and live in Boston or NYC, disregard this. >no dad mentionedAnon…. What happened. I advise getting the app Finch as it can teach you the very basics of self care. I would also tell you about “baby elephant thinking”. P much it’s about learned helplessness. you’re an adult so assert yourself (gently, if you HAM on your mom that could lead to a tense situation you don’t want). Learning to cook is a very liberating thing. I’d suggest Alton Brown, Americas Test Kitchen, and others to teach you the basics.
i always thought, since i was like 14 or so, that i was the only one who felt these feelings (yes really, even if i knew adults had love and romance and all of that, i felt it separate from the kind of thing i felt) i do have a sex drive somewhat but i feel like i value spending comfortable moments and good conversation with someone who understands me more than "does this person hit me with looks that make me go wild?" or something like thatthat was also a part of my insecurity among socializing and other stuff, i think i'm (probably?) bisexual in that i don't really mind either gender in that way, i think i have the capacity to fancy both but that's another long story somewhat unrelated to this one and i've already wrote a lot so that's thati do feel like i rarely understand my own feelings, let alone analyzing other people's feelings and i can never really guess whether a person likes me or not (not romantically, here i mean just like, in conversation and reading their body language) and a lot of the time, eye contact and prolonged conversation 1 on 1 is really uncomfortable for me, the only people i think i can do it with are my familyi cry a lot but sometimes i just do it because i have 0 fucking emotional control and if someone was mean to me or if i felt like i did something wrong in social interaction, i will cry about it later when i'm in bed by myselfsometimes i just don't give a fuck so if i have a depressive hit of emotions suddenly and i think about like, what am i doing, why this, why that, i will cry on the tram and train ride home from college, in front of other people and mostly just not care, cuz i can't hold it back in some instancesnever really cried in college except once when i was so frustrated that i wasn't getting a subject and that i had a bad professor, that i just cried for like 3 hours, the professor tried to wake me up as she was leaving and she did that but i still stayed there until like 8pm when the janitor came
>>35090519there are regular apartments in general that i think are like under 400 euro a month and my mom is willing to sponsor me somewhat to live alone, surprisingly, when i leave college and get a jobdad isn't dead or anything, nor are my parents divorced, we live in the same house but we don't have any kind of relationship reallyi think he likes my older brother more than me, cuz he's more traditionally masculine, does all the work things and will succeed the family business and suchi guess i also try to help my dad though, i helped him saw wood the other day (i don't use the saw, i just help him hold and stack the chopped wood)he never really played a role in my upbringing, he's just kind of...there.
>>35090568regarding apartments, i was also thinking, how wonderful it would be if i could get autismbuxx accepted + take on some work so i could have maybe an easier time navigating through some of these things as i establish myself as an adultmaybe that's a little too selfish and greedy though ahaha, but it's gonna take many months or a year to get a response and i'll probably get denied...
I have this pipe dream of making a video game some day. But I realize I don't have enough life experience to write an interesting story (or at least compelling characters which if you ask me is more important than a good story), but I was thinking or reading a bunch of old medieval epics to get inspiration, do you guys think that's a good idea, or should I join the military or something? I'm worried I'm just going to stay the same depressed loser I am living in my parents basement, unless I try to do something cool. I don't know though, is 26 with no experience to late to start trying? Should I just give up? If no what other things should I do to be more interdasting?
>>35084681Bro writing? Writing's the easy part if your ass can do asset creation and coding just punt the writing to me or any Anon on /lit/
>>35086248I have a very specific rough outline of what I want things to look like. I can't let someone else do it. It's mainly writing good characters, that's my fear, you can have a shitty story with good characters and you won't even notice that the story is shit.
>>35086287https://youtu.be/RmhAGZJOf_o?si=5Fbe1xVZgLQ4X23_Here's some good writing advice.
>>35086291Well I should probably with a smaller story first. My dream game is a massive open world thing, but that's not realistic for someone new to this. But maybe I should start working on a lore book, just to get these ideas out of my head. But something I do want to do is make a world that feels genuinely medieval, genuinely fantastical (like a world where magic and monsters make sense and fit into the world in a logical way), and genuinely pagan (not like stuff where people only read the lies of Homer as their inspiration for a pagan world). Another thing I really like is that over the top medieval melodrama, Dragon's Dogma had some good examples of that: https://youtu.be/TqA8ho6Pcgg (I love this cheesy crap). I was thinking of reading Orlando Furioso, and An Introduction to Roman Religion by John Scheid as some sources of inspiration, but An Introduction to Roman Religion is out of print so I'm looking for other things on that topic right now.
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>make drawing>it's dogshit>write a story>it's dogshit>make a game mod>it's dogshit>make a game>it's dogshitEven with years upon years of effort, I get mogged at every turn by people who aren't even trying. I'm going to have to consider... could it really be an IQ issue?It's like there's some sort of 'threshold' that I can't cross. Something that clicked for others, but I simply don't 'get'.
"Ever tried. Ever failed. No matter. Try again. Fail again. Fail better" - Samuel BeckettMake better dogshit next time.
>>35087516It's a mix of emotional maturity, iq, and not being retarded. You lack all three.I know how to do all of these things and I could help you, but I don't think you would listen.
>>35087516Figure out why it's dogshit. Use your brain.
>>35087516You have to do it to challenge yourself not for the approval of others.
>>35087516As a fellow /beg/ artist: The trick is to show up every day. Most people who are exceptional at some skill are so good because they put in the hours at a very young age. Since we can't turn back time, the next best thing is to put in the hours now. And the best way to do that is to be consistent and enjoy the activity itself. So no box grinding if it's getting you close to burnout. Have fun. Allow yourself to fail. Come back the next day.
I have a specific fetish (incest) and I am unable to get hard without it
>>35084138I actually did make a thread, but the image was off topic. I got a warning and I've been too tired to try again yet.
>>35081923You can't get rid of a fetish. The best you can hope for is not to make it worse by feeding it. If you stop thinking about it and stop jerking off to it - completely - that will at least stop it from progressing.
>>35085721I am willing to do that as it's my only option but what do I do after that? I tried having sex multiple times and I had to rely on my fantasies, will quitting make me feel aroused by regular sex without relying on fantasies or do I have to accept that it won't be possible and forget about having a partner? I will quit regardless, I caused this and it's the right thing to do but I don't know what lies ahead
>>35085408I'm not the same anon but for the first problem you may want to progressively lower the amount of times you jerk off each week. It will help your brain get used to it.
>>35085052>semen retention works>it drives you crazyIt sure does! Look at all the priests raping children! Celibacy for the win!
i know i stated the obvious, but i just cant bear this shit anymore. its been years since ive actually felt happy with life, all ive done is pretend that im okay with being alone, when in reality i hate it and im desperate for any interaction i can get, good or bad. its been around 2 years since ive ever had a real friend or a romantic relationship at all. that may not seem like a long time at all but to be honest im in my teenage years which is supossedly the best time of my life, which i couldnt disagree with more, and the worst part is? shit is only going to go downhill as the days go by, i got dropped by all my previous friend groups for not fitting in, and i got cheated on after a 7 month long relationship, and was blamed for it all. and all i did was accept it like a fucking bitch. i blame my ugly face and skinny body, short stature, and neurodivergence. the guy she left me for was much taller than me, at least over 6ft while i stand at 5’5, he was athletic, popular, not more handsome than me in my opinion but i doubt thats what she cared about, girls just like tall, even if that tall guy had the ugliest face ever. i cope with my shitty life by smoking, cutting my body, sleeping and isolating myself from others as much as i can. my so called “best friend” hardly ever talks to me or wants to see me, since we now go to different schools, i feel as if hes grown tired of me or even hates me now. everyone i know has their own people, except for me. ive never been anyones first choice, im just a fucking clown that everyone treats like shit. my life doesnt matter and i hope it ends soon.
>>35089663I can't remember the last time I was happy. I don't know if I have ever been happy. People have only disappointed me, they are just a waste of time.I only have room for cats in my heart.More than anything else, I wish to be truly alone. I cannot fathom a person who is worth my time or one that wouldn't sicken me to no end.I have never cut myself nor relied on drugs. I spent my teenage years blocking out my emotions, not trying to escape them. And now I hardly feel anything at all. If I were to die right now I wouldn't even care.So why am I telling you all of this? It's because you are pathetic.Coming on here seeking all this approval and pity, I have gone through much worse than you ever will and I have never once sought pity or acceptance from others.Blame yourself for being a fucking loser.
>>35089663I have read your post and want to share my thoughts. You may not believe it, but this time will come to pass and you will be left with the consequences to how you dealt with your misery. There are some things that are very recoverable, but you are using temporary coping mechanisms instead of permanent solutions, some of which. Suicide is never a solution, btw. School doesn't help at all because you can't leave whenever you want and are largely stuck with the same people for years. I don't know how old you are, but there gets to be a point where it's effectively prison where the best thing is to keep to yourself. I would recommend attempting to find a hobby where you meet people from outside of your district, this is something that actually is possible and could very well be what you need.This may not be the best advice but it may also not be the worst advice: recognize that you are a teenager and that in addition to your hormones going crazy, you also are experiencing many things for the first time. You can either hide from these experiences or embrace them and let yourself grow. I hid when I was your age, and now I'm 29, never had sex, had exactly one relationship and make ~$36k takehome a year of which simply cannot support me to live on my own, so I live at home with my mom. Granted there's a lot of time from 16 until now, but a lot of it was making up for the gap in which I was unemployed, uneducated, etc. etc. on account of my teenage years basically being wasted.
read schopenhauer, if you're too lazy there are audiobooks for free on youtube
>i cope with my shitty life by smoking, cutting my body, sleeping and isolating myself from others as much as i can. Oh, gee I wonder why your le teenage years are going not so well?? Dumbass. Make new friends who aren't assholes. Stop smoking and cutting and sleeping weird times and isolating. Instead of all this tweenage drama, get a job or something. Select against shallow whores next time when looking for a partner.
is it possible to move out with 5k in savings? my house is a really bad place rn my step-dad is evil
>>35086888Obviously depends on your monthly income
How many roommates are you willing to have?
>>35086901i make 1000 a month, that and i would preferably prefer to move out of town>>350869056 as long as they don't harrass me
Unless you have eviction history you should be able to afford 1st/last months rent/plus security deposit. Plus add $500 a month for utilities $300 for food. So you have a month max to find a job. Probably not enough to move out since everybody is looking for work
>ID to use websites with NSFW content.>ID for social media>(announced) ID for game chats.>Both big parties support such measures.>Only the loony left and retarded right wanna repeal it.>Majority of population support such ideas and see it as no big deal.Think I would sooner live in crippling debt burgerland than here, but I've got no money to move out let alone another country. Is all feels so hopeless as the things I enjoy get fucked over by out of touch boomers.
>>35072117Goonertrannybongs BTFO
IT KEEPS GETTING FUCKING WORSE, GIVE A MAP OF THE UK TO AMERICA AND BOMB THIS SHIT HOLE ALREDY!
>>35072117Oi m8, do you have a 4chan license to make that thread?
>>35072117And they put a man in prison for 10.5 years for fucking consenting women who are now withdrawing consent retroactively 20 years later, while Muslims are raping girls every single day and getting very low sentences or not being prosecuted at all
>>35087406>so they’ll probably overturn that law in a couple of years, or, at the very latest, in a decade or twoHow reassuring.
hello there. so essentially my bf used to shower a lot when i first moved in with him. over time that has…. slipped to say the least. now, i would like to say, i personally fucking love how he smells. he smells amazing to me, yes even the cock area. occasionally there will be a piss smell but unfortunately im into that too.he hasn’t showered for over a month at this point. and while i dont care, i have to imagine what his superiors and inferiors think? im worried he’s doing it for me bc he knows im super into his smell and i dont want him to face repercussions or anything. i doubt he’d even listen to me honestly bc of what we have going on between uswhat should i do? just roll with it? do guys do this normally? i’ve seen memes about guys not showering for a while but personally i feel like im gonna explode if i don’t bathe once a week, i don’t really stink much tho, i never really have, just to shave my body and redo my hair.help thanks
>>35083115No real woman, and I mean, absolutely NO real actual woman, likes men who smell bad and don't shower in particular.Women love hygiene.You're a guy.Fuck off faggot
>>35086517Hahaha Thanks for waking me up before I made a reply
>>35086517i think this is more showing how you’ve never interacted with a real woman, and your only experience of women are romcoms where a guy comes home “ew take a shower!!!!”. nobody on the website ever thinks anything happens, especially to women since you’ve never interacted with them. women can be freaky too. it’s pheromones man, that’s biology 101. people like how the opposite sex smells. personally i think if you don’t like how your partner smells ur not compatible straight up!!
>>35086568Hmm OP is that you?
bump i find this funny
>i quit my job at a store more than 30 days ago>because they didn't pay me correctly>i went back to the store>they refused to sell me products>and told me to talk to my boss tomorrowI quit my job at the store over a month ago because I wasn't paid properly, and now my boss wants to talk to me. Should I talk to her?
>>35087964I'm torn.Why would you even go back to a store you hate, why would you give them your money?Why would you even talk to them when they obviously hate you and they won't even sell to you? They obviously just want to humiliate you.If they didn't pay you properly, that is a crime. You can get the money.But I'm torn. This is all so stupid, and that you would even ask this... It's possile you're just wrong and they're not evil, and your boss didn't invite you to dress ou down, just to explain to you you counted wrong and they did pay you properly.
>>35089993>Why would you even go back to a store you hate,The store is very close to my house and sells things that are hard to find.>just to explain to you you counted wrong and they did pay you properlyI should have received an amount of X in my bank account, but I haven’t received anything at all. They even made me sign a paper stating that I received an amount of X. I checked my bank account statement and the money hasn't been deposited.
A cross post from my home board of /r9k/ but I think it's better suited here. Hear my cunning plan to free myself from the workforce.>be me>presently 28>public school teacher in the United States>6th year teaching at time of writing, live a comfortable lifestyle that affords all my hobbies>wife diagnosed with a very rare, very aggressive form of cancer that rooted in her sinus cavity and spread in 2025>lost an eye as a result>proceed with treatment throughout 2025 & 2026>she's stable and we're in the series of "next step" phases while she's all in on recovery mode>this past summer she was approved for SSDI on a 3 year renewal, $1900/month>we pay a $1000/month mortgage for a 2 full bedroom townhouse in the city I work in>convince my sisters who are perpetually between living situations to just take a bedroom each in our house and stack paper via a $500/month full bed full bath living situation together>they leap at the idea, agree to move in next summer when my teaching contract is up>void my teaching contract, cash out 40k in retirement nest egg after fees and penaltiesComment too long. Click here to view the full text.
>>35089480>very rare, very aggressive form of cancerchlorine dioxide
>>35089883Kys
>>35089480Cherish every day you get with your wife, just don't wholly smother her. Sounds like you have escaped the matrix for now. I hope it stays in remission.
>>35089518Thanks! Yeah I'm struggling to see flaws.It is at the cost of my career, obviously. At the risk of doxxing myself I am the first Gen Z. union president in my state and I've made a not small amount of noise, numerous people have requested I move up to the next step in my education work (the assistant superintendent of special education wanted me as a psychologist to grow into a leadership role over SPED) as well as the union work (other locals are lining up behind ours to take the crown in a few years), but when you see the opportunity cost it just makes sense that I prioritize my wife. >>35089767What should I say then, hermit? Shut-in?>>35090028That's the planly Stanly, thanks for the kind words!
>>35089480You're a very high-agency guy, this is impressive
