I'm a tradeworker, drive a 27 year old 2wd truck, dress for utility 24/7, make 67k/yr (middle income locally, 59th percentile nationally), 28 healthy teeth, hazel eyes, 178cm 70kgI have zero friends, great family ties, hobbies are construction, maintenance, livestock & gardening. i have 2yrs wages in retirement investment, 2 month emg fund, 140k mortgage 19yrs left, 140sqm 3b2ba2ca, 4.05ha (10acr), no consumer debt, no auto loans.my wife of 13 years is 170cm, 59kg, 32C, long strawberry blonde hair and blue eyes and is a full-time homestead housewife & Bean Feasa.the city dosent interest us. we never leave the homestead except for work groceries, household items or feed, supplies & materials. we have a crafting night planned this weekend to make Solstice decorations.we live like peasants. she milks, feeds, breeds, births, butchers, plants, tends, harvest & preserves. brews, ferments, bottles, ages, presses, & innoculates. dries, salts, seasons, smokes, scrapes and tans.I design, measure, calculate, draft, build, maintain, repair, bore, drill, screw, wire, plumb, pry, hammer, saw, grind & fasten to earn our income.Am I doing it? Do this be like it is?
You've made many of these threads why do you keep asking? Should you be doing something else instead? Tf you so insecure over?
>>35088430he's insecure because I make $90k a year handing paperwork to pilots and I cheat on my fiance regularly with a woman who can't get pregnant because she's got PCOS
>>35088514yikes fella. hope it gets better for you.
>>35088024lil ahh neckbeard
I wanted to be a man for a long time, and I started to transition, but I got talked out of it by my family. The feelings are still there, like the dysphoria, and I just try to manage with them as best I can.My husband knows about all that, and we've been pretty great together enough that we decided to try for a baby. The pregnancy is fucking me up in ways I didn't imagine though and I'm getting sledgehammered with dysphoria to the point I don't know if I can see this through all the way to the birth.Legally I can still get an abortion now. I won't be able to if I wait much longer. Is this going to be something I can learn to manage or should I stop now before it drives me crazy?
Please don't have a baby now it's gonna grow up with a retarded mother and not know how to be a decent human being
>>35086560Being a man is terrible don't give up your stupid easy existence. Get a short haircut and peg your cuck husband or whatever just don't get surgery or hormones there are easier ways to kill yourself than discovering the first hand horror of being a manlet in this world.
>>35086560I'm not trying to be mean, I'm just highlighting the cliff your road runs parallel by, a cliff you are constantly eyeballing thinking it's a faster way to get down. Slow down.Nothing says "I do not love you" better than proactively killing someone's child of potential. A hatred stated primarily to you, then your husband, and anyone else who tried to help you. No one casually gets one, it's an admission of catastrophe that has no good ends. It's something you cannot take back or run away from. Your body, man or woman, will always be with you and remind you of your maximal expression of hatred towards yourself. Dehumanizing psychological suicide in the eyes of mother nature for animals of intellect. You're worried about not being a man, meanwhile mammals and birds around the world die to protect their offspring. Are you not human woman, the height of what a female being can be on this rock? That which ushers in the most condensed, complicated neural resource that is by all knowledge unique in the cosmos?Magically becoming a man would not heal that deeper issue. I do not know a sane person alive who doesn't like their body. Bodies suck. They're filled with issues and anxieties, and that baseline dissatisfaction is universal. Be it bulimia, anorexia, body dysmorphia, body modifications, self-harm. They're all the same thing: self-bullying, self-sabotage. Harm that seeks relief, but the pain always returns stronger, but now you're less capable, less confident, and the only thing that lingers is hate. You don't cure hate with hate. You don't become strong by starving yourself. You don't heal by hurting yourself. You're not going to find many men in their world who don't run from you because you have a kid. If you betray that, you'll never get it back, and instead of worrying about your hormones, you'll be spending your life on social hell, emotionally isolated and alone until you die, but not before all your mistakes torment you for years. Slow down.
>>35087669And being trapped with a kid in a role that gives you mental issues for 18 years is not okay. Abort.
>>35089155trannies have mental issues by default.Abort yourself
How do I meet women on rule34.xxx?
>>35086656You don't meet 'women' on those sites, nigga. The only people corresponding on rule34 are men pretending to be women, trannys, or horribly fucked up (sexually abused, morbidly obese, fugly) females.
Wow, one of the subhumans that comments on porn sites made a post. Neat. I've always wanted to tell those massive cringelords to kill themselves, thanks for giving me the opportunity OP.Are you a jeet or just regular retarded?
Most sane people will not comment on porn.
Just saw a doc on phenazepam, which apparently makes you black out for a week and which is lethal with alcohol or opiates. Since they took my guns away I can't off myself the way I want to, which is to dig my own grave in the middle of nowhere so that my body is not found until it is a skeleton, but if I had a fast-acting dangerous drug like phenazepam I could lay in my grave and never wake up.It's gone, it's illegal now, idk where to buy it.Does anyone know where I could obtain phenazepam or an alternative with similar lethal and painless effects?
>>35082168If you were actually suicidal you'd get it over with instead of whining about your intentionally retarded plan halting you from doing so. Get over yourself.
>>35085018But you still believe in the old Canaanite gods so wtf is with that?
speaking of controlled substances, does anyone know how can i get potassium cyanide in europe without a license ?
>>35088908Wont allow you to go the easy way out
>>35088908All you need is a belt.
Look, don't try to talk me into not doing it, I've been thinking of killing myself since 2010, tried 6 times already, have advanced depression and anxiety disorder, borderline personality disorder that's getting worse by the day, adhd, and multiple addictions. I've been in treatment by psychiatry since 2018, have taken more than 10 different pills through the years, been passed around maybe more than 20 different specialists counting psychiatrists and psychologists and I just get mentally worse and worse by the day, in the outside I may not look like it because I'm fit, hot and charismatic, but I'm tired of that fucking facade, I just want to end it ok? Life just get's worse and my different ills too, so, tl;dr, I have a 375ml bottle of rum, maybe more than a gram of quetiapine and the same for pregabalin, will I just fall asleep and die if I take it all? tried to trick some AIs to tell me but as far as I've they just have told me that it's enough to maybe get into a coma or something.
>>35058955Overdoses fail all the time and there's a good chance you'll just render yourself a crippled retard.Look into something like inert gas asphyxiation as a means of ending yourself, it's completely painless.https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Suicide_bagHowever, if you are really going to kill yourself, why not do something interesting or at the very least notable or novel.Go to a crowded public square and try snap your own neck, I've always wondered if that was possible.
>>35076748I'm extremely afraid of heights so that's a no go for my, and yes, i'm aware of the irony>>35080572That looks complex but it sounds interesting as painless goes>if you are really going to kill yourself, why not do something interesting or at the very least notable or novel.I was thinking about hugging a politician with a grenade but i don't know if the mediatic martirization is worth it
Hey, OP here, I wanted to tell you all that i'm planning on doing it tomorrow, so if i'm gone, it's probably that i made it or I got in a medical facilityhave a nice life, nevertheless
>>35088615good luck OPI'm also doing it soon
>>35088615I nearly killed myself in my early 29s. Had a plan and a gun and wanted to do it. I got interrupted and medically seen, and now I'm married and having a good life. There is hope, you have to find it. Take control of your life, and guide it somewhere better than it is now.
For those of you who work in physically demanding manual labor, how do you handle or manage the pain? For the past few years, I’ve been unloading pickup trucks filled with fruit and carrying the loads to distant areas. I’m suffering from plantar fasciitis, back and lower back pain, and my shin muscles feel incredibly sore. I honestly don’t know how some people manage to spend their entire lives in this line of work—I’m not sure how much longer I can keep going. What can I do?
>>35075599You need better footwear. I have 2 pairs of $300 boots that I alternate between during workdays. Don't forget about quality in-souls they help just as much as the boots.
>>35075599high powered massage gun
>>35075599I don't abuse drugs, I take hot salt baths, stretch a lot, and stay fit. When lifting have good posture, squat more than bend your lower back when possible, use common sense to avoid accidents, etc.
>>35075599Use specialized tools/machinery>But we don't have them/do it by handThen your body is a tool and it gets worn down irreversibly. Either accept this fact or change job
>Either accept this fact or change jobYeah you got to ask yourself if you want to do this kind of job long term, some blue collar fields can get easier on the body if you move up to a more managerial role or start your own business to get younger guys to do most of the grunt work. Long term though somethings aren't going to be good to do past 30+.
I've honestly thought about killing myself because of this. Long story short I inserted a DMF bait meal worm into my urethra for my amateur maggot/wormplay solo porn blog, a stunt which I have done twice before. Usually you wait until the worm has completely buried itself into the bottom of your shaft so that when you cum, the worm gets shot out like a high velocity projectile. However, when I ejaculated this time... There was no worm. The worm did not eject. I genuinely do not know what the fuck to do, I have already tried asking ai but it just tells me to go to the hospital which I absolutely cannot do due to the fact that I live in an extremely small area and my two sisters + extended family work there. Under zero circumstance can my family find out about what I do online. The two delta 9 edibles I took about 2 hours beforehand are just now starting to kick in and I am having the worst anxiety of my life, my hands are shaking and I am unsure if I can even feel anything below my abdomen due to the adrenaline so there's that. I've been drinking shit tons of water and have urinated about 1 and a half times, still no worm. I think right now my greatest fear of all is that the worm could be a girl worm and she could be pregnant and lay eggs inside of my guts. The thought of it makes me want to faint. WTF DO I DO? Could I die if a worm colony is birthed inside of me?
Tie a thread around another worm, put it it, let them become codependent and then yank it out.
>>35079305this is W faps rp scenario for me tonight thank you
what the fuck
>>35079305Just white people things
>>35079369I just accept it as artworks of fiction and falsehood and let myself be entertained.
Did anyone here ever work at Outback? How is it?There is a restaurant near my house, but I don't know if it's a good idea, first because the tourist season is coming, and second because I have never worked at a restaurant. The pay is ok, but I googled, and they got like 100 items, this shit could be a mess. I have no problem working under pressure, but I'm really slow when cooking. Do you think it is a good idea?
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Before my fibromyalgia got bad, one of the best jobs I had was waiting on tables. I learned social skills and got a lot of tips. I just wish I'd focused more on college than trying to make money to get away from my parents. Maybe don't cook at the restaurant. Wait on tables.
>>35088548Opposite experience. Prepcooking was chill. Customers are stressful
>>35087873>because I have never worked at a restaurant.>I'm really slow when cookingChances they'll even consider you for an interview are very close to zero. Do something else OP, there is a very hard ceiling on what you can make wage wise in the restaurant industry anyway.>>35088607Prep cooking is usually a test of how much of a shitty job you can take.
>>35088548Waiting high end, or even just mid restaurants here often pays more than low and entry level stem jobs....
She was not happy about it. Apparently she's an extremist Roman Catholic and hates other religions. Should I just lie to her and say I've seen the light and lie about converting back to Catholicism to keep the peace?
>>35078186Have they started teaching you cultivation techniques or martial arts yet? If not you might as well just convert back to Catholicism.
>>35078186You're just falling for demonic nonsense that will bring nothing to your life and ruin your chances for a good afterlife. Listen to you mom and come back to the Way, the Truth and the Light.
>>35086723>cultivation techniques or martial artsDo some sects do what? Based. Which ones?>>35086749Sure whatever>>35081392I lied to my mom and she was overjoyed- She asked what made me change my mind and I just said I had a situation lolIt's that easyLesson learned: lie to women
>>35078186What sect of what religion? Also you should never lie.
>>35086979>What sect of what religion?Metaphysics. I didn't actually join any sect, it's all from the internet, YouTube specifically. But I kinda see it as a religion or something similar, since it rejects the core idea of Christianity, that you externalize your power to an outer GOD, instead of viewing yourself and everyone around you as GOD.>you should never lie.Kek, you obviously haven't had much life experience
So if my pp has limited … *thrust* and the length of the vagina canal elongates to over Nine … DIVINE…. inches long … how would I go about maintaining a decent relationship (erection) with my dad? (Whom I see as a futanari?)Psychotherapist plz responded tySHAZAM
>>35088586Soo you're not 18 but at least you're not a clanker like 80% of the posts so you know what, I'll allow this
I never wanted to do be here but I’m a bit desperate. How do I even make myself fall down the stairs without making it seem I threw myself off it intentionally?, also biggest problem is I wuss out every time I get to those stairs, It just feels so embarrassing if I failed to get myself hurt. I really want to escape something and being admitted to the hospital is what I think would be the better option than being six feet under. I’m suicidal but I don’t need to die yet, I just need to hurt myself.
I was drunk and fell down my basement stairs by accident. I broke my arm and had a terrible concussion. I stayed in a dark room for two months and puked constantly. Even thinking about moving would make my head spin and then puke.Just jump off a building, do a flip.
>>35088314Would’ve done so if there was but I still have the consideration of not making people see my dead body
>>35088344Gay, kys
>>35088344Who cares you'd be dead.
>>35088269Jackoff more . As in x=>1
What are some jobs you've worked - or things you've done at work - that let you maximize your output on personal projects?About to start my first entry level sales job, and frankly, I couldn't give a fuck about anything other than the better paycheck. I did not study anything related to sales or tech in college, and only got this job by random chance. Worried that it's going to drain my energy to work on my side projects if I only do it after work is over.
Security job. I learned how to play ukulele in the parking lot, started One Piece from scratch and caught up, completed several living dexes in Pokemon. Just gotta get a security license and a gun permit and it's just babysitting. I quit because I had so much free time that I got addicted to Pokemon Go and the place I worked had an enormous surplus of pokestops that I just didn't want to return to the job anymore.
>>35083812Real World 101: You are not being paid to work on "personal projects." From 9 to 5, they own your ass and 100% of your attention, and thinking otherwise is a sure route to unemployment.
>>35086066Actual Real World 101: every white collar friend I have does have to sit in the office 9-5, but they are only required to do 3 hours of work during that time. Not during the first 6 months they were learning the job, but now that they have mastered it.There were always be that one guy at work behind everyone else so he is like this guy:>>35085309
>>35086066Cringe and boomerpilled, fuck you pay me
>>35086066Real World 201: It is against good principle to allow a major, international tech corporation to take more of my time and energy than my actual life. Prioritizing career over living the way I want is stupid, and a balance that leans on the side of preference is necessary.
When it rains, what's better to use, an umbrella, or a rain coat? Cause every time I use an umbrella, I always look like a fucking retard trying to hold the umbrella steady as the fucking 15 mph winds are practically throwing it around like it's a fucking ragdoll and my ass is getting wet cause the wind is blowing the rain sideways. And it's always windy when it rains, so like I dunno. Help a nigga out. What should I be using?
>>35082163The fucking time
>>35065182Work your forearms out you pathetic faggot. Never in my life have I had trouble stabilizing an umbrella regardless of wind speed. Use your flabby wrists for something other than maneuvering cocks into your mouth.
If you are struggling with umbrella when there's also wind, I assume you are pretty slim and lighter. Light enough that wind can push you back with its trapped force in your umbrella. I can't suggest one, but I don't suggest wearing raincoat because you'd look like Bateman if you choose transparent one. So... maybe you should wear pink latex suit with green latex trousers?
>>35065182If you are struggling with umbrella when there's also wind, I assume you are pretty slim and lighter. Light enough that wind can push you back with its trapped force in your umbrella. I can't suggest one, but I don't suggest wearing raincoat because you'd look like Bateman if you choose transparent one. So... maybe you should wear pink latex suit with green latex trousers?
>>35083824The fucking... time...
If I'm in prison and some tough dude says he likes me and that I'm his now and that "we can do this the easy way or the hard way"... what am I supposed to do to survive that?
>>35081216Pay for protection.
>>35081216Just act and dress sassy even gay guy gets disgusting by sassy guys.
>>35086375That's dark
Constant diarrhea, if you're always shitting on yourself, they will find someone clean to fuck
>>35088234lol
I’ve been working the night shift for about three months now. There’s a girl I work with, and we’ve been spending a lot of time together since we work the same shift and are mostly alone for much of it. We talk about all kinds of things and try to have fun during the boring hours. I’d consider her a good friend, and honestly, I’m happy with that. I’m a pretty lonely person, so having someone like her around is fun.A few weeks ago, we started a routine of buying snacks after work and sitting on a bench on our way home to watch the sunrise. A few days ago, while we were hanging out there, she said, “Hey, you look tired, the kind of tired that sleep can’t fix. Are you okay?”I struggle with chronic depression, but I usually try to hide it. I guess I didn’t do a very good job, since she noticed. Then she said, “I heard head massages can be relaxing.” She patted her lap and asked if I wanted to rest my head there. I did, and she played with my hair while we talked casually, like we always do.I was blushing hard, though. I was freaking out, no one has ever been so kind to me. Now it’s like a switch has flipped. Before, I could face her and talk to her easily, but now I start freaking out. I don’t know what to do. I genuinely consider her a good friend, and I’m fine with things staying that way. But now I have a huge crush on her. How do I stop crushing on her and continue interacting with her normally?
>>35085538I’ve thought about that, but I’m not really sure. What if she’s just being kind, and I end up making things weird by assuming she likes me? Besides, I’m too much of a mess/mentally ill, for a relationship right now.
>>35086962>What if she’s just being kind>lap pillowNo.
>>35087837I guess the lap pillow was a pretty bold move. I'll stay on the lookout for more signs. If I find anything obvious, I'll ask her on a proper date and see what happens
>>35087906Don't wait too long.
>>35084373Honestly, bro...just keep the ship on course. This seems like your a young lad, this is a good sign of things from a romantic prospect. If this kinda thing continues for another month or two without directly talking to her. I would ask her about it, Mention the first time of the lap pillow and since then the idea of a relationship first appeared for you. Either signs come faster or slower. Just hold tight.
