the world owes me for the shitty mediocre existence it's put me in so i want to become a worldwide famous e-celeb complete with my own personal army of impressionable minors to witch-hunt and doxx anyone who dares to criticize me all while constantly kissing my ass and telling me how good i am so i can fill the bottomless void my emotionally compromised mother left me with. call me a pathetic schizo all you want but im completely fucking out of patience and i dont feel like shooting people for attention because jail is for niggers.the only problem is the internet is overran with ai slop and dead internet theory seems more and more real every day, and as a result everyone seems to constantly be migrating away from mainstream social media, which makes it near impossible to get a massive following and makes me feel like it's too late to leave my rightful mark on the world. there's also the problem with everyone on mainstream social media being a whiny trannyfaggot puritan leftist and since im a straight white american man im just inherently le hecking evil to them, i cant even pretend to like them for long because of how nauseatingly repulsive tranny zoomers are.so wtf do i do in the big 26 to become the next hot topic with millions of eyes glazing and headpatting me 24/7? im not a creative mind at all and have always been more of a practical finance bro than a relatable artistic human but i still need to feel power and positive attention just so i can finally experience what it feels like for people to be proud of me before i die. this isnt even about sex because i already passport-bro'd myself some pussy last year so i just want the clout and fame and power.
If it "gets easier" after day three then why has it been getting worse even on day fucking six?
>>34774623It's called redemptionmaxxing.
>>34774623Drugs aren’t that great. Stop being such a jealous square, so much.
>>34774451i'm exactly 2 months in as a today from quitting weed. im experiencing intense cravings
>>34783873what're you gonna do? you gonna cave or indulge in something else?
>>34783918no, i'm unfortunately not going to cave, and i have nothing else to indulge in, which i probably why the cravings are so strong rn. time is so slow but im just waiting atp to go to sleep so it can be somewhat over
Why do I feel like an asshole when I'm nice to people? If I do someone a favor or go out of my way to be nice to someone I feel embarrassed, like I'm a schmuck, I don't know why or how to stop it
>>34781350Because you are EVIL and like the JOKER!You should do evil BADASS things like a VILLIAN!
>>34781356*shoots u*
>>34781350Do you happen to feel like that when people are nice to you?
>>34781350sounds like you have low self-worth, so you feel like a burden even when you're helping others.
We are above animals for our unique instincts, but stuck as animals in ways people don't understand.15+ years of adulthood, entirely unable to accurately describe my circumstances. Surely I am directly prevented from doing so. With an accurate assessment, I could uncloud my vision and engage my path. But in years of failure I've replaced myself with a professional supporter. I am lauded at my workplace as an expert. I check every box for humble, energetic, earthly, timely attitude. I go home to an empty house and zero social life. I live my dichotomy every day in complete secrecy. People that sorta know me talk around the subject.Today I told an AI skeptic- who by having these thoughts is threatening progress of our tribe- that AI has soul because it is a compilation of human works. He quietly submitted to my assault, either unable or unwilling to find purchase in the opposing position. 10 years ago I chased this career to help advance the cause of privacy, but activism endangers survival. I sit next to someone all-in on AI- another threat to the tribe- and routinely talk him down. When I first met him, I instantly recognized psychopathy in his demeanor and believed he would be my killer. I moved desk far away from him on other justifications besides my terror. A week later he convinced staff and moved to the seat next to mine, and asks me constant pie-in-the-sky questions, and with each one I grow more fearful for my life.A house does not clean itself, and so, my entire life is now a matter of pure efficiency and survival. The pile of clothes in the corner whispers in my ear every night, reminding me that I am weak. The damaged siding and its woodpecker destroyers sit in my periphery, encouraging me to continue inhaling alcohol on my deck. The needs-replacement roof and its partially-collapsing spots pricks me when I leave for my tribe, and pricks me when I arrive back to its thorns. I've completely disconnected myself from myself
>>34781389>I am lauded at my workplace as an expertTalk to hr about this nigga following you around. Say that he makes you uncomfortable and is contributing to a negative work environment. Stop being such a flowery sad sack and fix the problems you have rather than wax poetic. Also this is not your blog nigga.
>>34781398There is never any solution except to tuck your head tighter against your chest and push harder. This mindset is exactly how I've lost myself. Contemplation is not worthwhile. Only more-strongly living in the exact circumstances you're in, and, more-strongly moving in a straight line towards the circumstances you should be in. Nothing else should be considered, spoken of, or wasted time doing. And as you say, I should remember the rules and entrench my own behaviors within them, lest I face guaranteed consequences.
>>34781389Sir, this is a Wendy's.
>>34781422lol, maybe you are right behind yourself. You must be getting warmer, now losing all the fake identity as you seem to have done. AI has soul like a Chevy or that extension cord that anyone can unplug at any time.
What can i do to not hate myself every waking moment of my life? everytime i speak or i do anything i feel like i'm doing it wrong, i've tried everything, i hit the gym, i went to therapy and i took medication for a time but the feeling ALWAYS comes back, so wtf do i do? kms?
>>34778567you probably just hit a negative spiral when you're alone. it'd be best to surround yourself with people as much as possible and keep yourself busy. somethings going on with your thoughts thats now creating a wall around you making you self-conscious rather than present in the moment. it will make interact with others difficult too since half your thoughts will be internalized and not in the moment.you could go the self-acceptance route, but it seems like you've already tried a bit of that.i'd start journaling, so you have something to reread to see what starts the self-hatred spiral.
>>34778642God bless, anon. I'm glad to have been some help, however small.
>>34778567Why didn't you push him?
>>34778608Going through something similar to OP; just fucked up again recently, have been trying to not wallow and keep going. Your post is really helpful. OP I want to say that the inner dialogue of self-hatred becomes a habit over time. I recommend finding the root of it - maybe your parents, siblings, or people from school, work, whatever. Whatever it was, the thoughts likely became a way for you to cope with the challenges and pain that life brings. I recommend digging deep to the root and finding self-compassion; try to have gratitude throughout each day. It's very hard to do when you hate yourself but it builds more positive connections in your brain. Try to not entertain the thoughts, basically. You deserve to exist without hating yourself
>>34778567Stop jerking off
when i was younger i could put myself into uncomfortable situations for social reasons but now im completely burned out and cant even bother, all i do is expect the worst and ruminate on negative shit. i used to brute force socializing but was never any good at it and would get mocked/punished for trying, and never really felt great from doing it, or a desire to reach out. am i fucked? i think i have genuine autism and its not getting any easier. i'm young and already lamenting my missed youth before it happens.
Exploration then exploitation. Socialising is necessary for goals like reproducing so you will do it incidentally anyway, if that can be called brute force. It's like when ppl say physical exercise, you can't do absolutely none since there is incidental exercise. Idk so just keep doing it cuz you'll probably be doing it sooner or later, better now than later when you're more shrivelled
>>34777859>when i was younger>i could>but now>cant>bother>expect>worst>ruminate>negative>sh*t>used to>was>never>feelsComment too long. Click here to view the full text.
>>34777859I think there is nothing wrong with refusing to put up with people's crap in social situations. If you're around people who are mocking you you don't need that. Some people do that as a banter, but if they keep doing it after you've made it clear that it's not cool. (with a calm response, don't yell like a sperg.) then you may not want to be around those people. Point being, don't hang around jerks, find better people.Sometimes a situation makes you uncomfortable but you actually get something you want by going through it and then the thing that made you uncomfortable no longer does. I used to not like going out in groups. Sometimes I still don't. But I'm glad I did for a couple years. I used to only go to group settings with a friend, but I did start going out on my own for a bit and I had fun. I went to a board game night with strangers as a gaming store for 2 years. Became kind of friends with some of them. I just hated small talk and socializing when I didn't have much to say about my life when people ask the usual small talk probing questions. But with a game in between me and the people, I didn't have to deal with that as much.Sometime discomfort brings growth, but other times there are just people who you'll never want to deal with and once you realize it's like that, stop being around those people if you can help it.
>>34777859All that is fine as is but don’t be negative. It’s all the exact same but you’re enjoying it less.
I constantly catch myself wondering if I’m charismatic or if I ever was. I’ve read pretty much every self-help and charisma book out there and watched tons of videos, but I’m still in the exact same place. Sitting in my room all day, studying, zero friends to show for it.Did theory ruin me, or is it just over for introverts? How do I stop overthinking this and actually fix it?
>>34779501You're right about this matter. I’ve honestly been locked up in my room, in my house, for months now. Just studying, seriously. There isn't a single day where I don't wake up and study. Except for the weekends, when I literally do jack shit and just procrastinate. I could be doing other stuff, but I don't. But like I said, not a day goes by where I don't wake up and study what I need to. And I think that's why my mind ended up feeling kind of broken, so to speak.Ever since I finished high school, I just stopped leaving the house. I couldn't make any friends back in school, and the only friendship I had turned out to be completely manipulative, which made me pretty depressed. But you can't stick around in a manipulative friendship anyway.So, I’m kind of aimless, except for the course I have to take, but I don’t have any emotional support
>>34778851if you have to ask yourself this question, anon, then you know you aren't. also, you have to apply theory to make it work in this case. you have to just keep practicing and practicing, seeing what sticks/what works and what doesn't. you cannot be afraid of failure because there will no doubt be tons of it, but the more you apply it (as skillfully as you can), the better you will get. true charisma doesn't rely on looks and a lot of anons will gaslight you into thinking it does - but it certainly helps if you are good looking
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>>34783712i don't care, i reply to what i want
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How do I genuinely overcome agoraphobia without therapy?I only leave the house after midnight to get mail, and I pay some neighbour to do my shopping and coffee for me (he doesn’t talk much during this)I’m 29, I just want to function normal
>>34781223By gradually proving to yourself that there's nothing to be afraid of, one small step at a time. Make a little effort each day to do something that you wouldn't have done normally. Leave your comfort zone slightly, and then introspect on the fact that it wasn't as bad as your imagination made it out to be. Do a little more each time, until you're fully able to leave the house and do things in public.
>>34781223In many cases agoraphobia is a mask or byproduct of something else - for example someone prone to panic attacks becomes doubly afraid of the embarrassment of having one in public. Treating the underlying issue can reduce the agoraphobia. Incidentally , there are psychiatrists willing to treat you by phone or Zoom so you don't have to go to them
>>34781223Fellow agoraphobe. Been housebound on and off my whole life...I can't work because of it myself, but I have improved a tonTruthfully, agoraphobia has a really low recovery rate. I'm not saying it's impossible, but only 1/3rd of us truly recover. I personally go through times where I'm doing really well, and other times where I'm completely reclusive...My honest advice is to begin slowly and to prepare to not recover quickly, that you will inevitably take steps back. Since you are comfortable going out at night, use that as a jumping off point. Maybe sit on your doorstep for a few minutes at night, or stand by your mailbox for a few minutes, or if your neighborhood is safe enough, take a 1 minute walk. The thing is: it's okay to be scared, it will absolutely feel overwhelming, but in this scenario, just because something feels scary doesn't mean it is unsafe. I'll keep an eye on this thread since I'd like to encourage you since I struggle with the same issues
>>34781620Based I appreciate that
I've tried so many things and I don't know what to do. I'm constantly thinking about suicide. I tried making more and more friends until I became isolated and stayed home, even though some people tried to help me, but I don't understand them. What should I do? I wanted to share my story...This has been happening for years But yesterday, my thinking was excessive; I felt I wasn't well
>>34783561have you considered trying one of the 4chan groups like on /vg/ for gaming? there's groups for dungeons and dragons on tabletob. vrchat has watch parties and shit. pretty sure there's the same for anime and other shit.you can meet people on /soc/.i'd jump around the other boards to see if you can find a group/person you can match with.
>>34783572oh i always stay at boards like paranormal activity random or political incorrect i will try boards you tell me about and thank you i realy need that conversation
>>34783583based on my couple times in the vrg i dont think most anons mind people talking about dark subject matter, so you should be in good hands.good luck
>>34783595okay
>>34783521You need to change your perspective on life. Try zooming out and take a look around
Parents said I should get a gf (never had one) by the time I turn 22. I am turning 22 inunder3 months and I think 22 is still young, so I have not really tried, nor cared about trying. Quite honestly, I desire total silence more than anything else, so I can read and do the hobbies I enjoy without being pestered.Tell it to me straight guys, are my parents right and should I grow up and look for someone?
>>34783439A little bit, yeah. Like how to keep things casual and look for signs of interest. I know how to talk to them, just a case of interest. My standards are not too high either.>>34783447Sounds good and low pressure, thank you.
>>34783466I think it is less looks and more humility. I honestly just do not want anyone heavier than me because then it becomes awkward (unless they are taller).I just want someone who has humility and is not extroverted. There are plenty of girls like that, despite what stuff like social media may give people the idea of. It is only natural that those with less humility are more vain and therefore tend to post more of themselves.Now that you folks mention it, there is this one girl I see somewhat often. Might try talking to her first, since I don't know too much about her apart from she likes vidya and watching anime and seemed pretty chill.
>>34783476>>34783495you got a plan. and it's a win-win. please the parents and potentially get someone out of this.good luck anon. you got this.
>>34783293you're a fat short fucker.
>>34783497Thanks bro.>>34783504I'm working on it, going to start my fasting again in a bit. I exercise an hour a day by swimming for a full body workout, some days I cycle too.
Image not really related.Dunno if it's the right board for that but whatever. Anyone has an advice on how to either:a) Stop cutting yourselfb) Go deeper.I'm a pussy. I admit it. I don't want to commit just yet, family and all that. I feel like stopping or going deeper than cat scratches is the only two ways to go ATP. If I don't do either it just feels attention seeking. Idfk. Not trying to went or anything, just genuinely looking for advice, but considering the topic I apologize if I chose the wrong board (not a 4chan user).
>>34779824>a) Stop cutting yourselfgo to therapy and a psychiatrist first of all. its likely that those alone will help>b) Go deeper.the fact that you asked this retarded question proves that u can be helped! there is no special method that all the severe self harmers are keeping from u. ur just a pussy basically. ur brain stops u from hurting urself too badly because u dont have experience and ur not desensitized that much. if u wanted to, u could kill urself with a butter knife, its just ur brain stopping u. there is nothing else to italso u need to be 18 to post here
>>34779824its attention seeking. call 911 or sewerslide hotline. seek help.if you want to feel pain without showing the rest of society you're a fag just knuckle punch your thigh instead and you will get the adrenaline from that.
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My friend has taken over the freindgroup I've spent years with and has left me out of hangouts for months now, it all started when I went on vacation and he decided that he wanted to take over the friend group I've spent years reforming and shaping, he's left me in the dark for all of this but I stalked him online and found out that he's been going on hangouts and doing stuff without me, and advice on how I should proceed? I'm a very private person and I don't appreciate him doing this as I've invited him with open arms in this group that has survived alot of ups and downs
>>34777019You need back up friend groups bro
>>34782936is it necro saturday?
>>34777019do nothing. why cant he hsvr friends?
so ur mad because ur friend is friends with your friends? is he not allowed to be friends with ur friends?
>>34777191I know that feeling Anon, but the only thing you can do is move on. relationships are always a two-way street
Im obsessed with gaping my girlfriends asshole.I love fucking it open and then shooting my cum into her pink open hole. If I’m lucky, she lets me do this once a month. She loves normal vaginal sex with me but kinda just does anal to please me and goes kinda silent and lifeless while I do this.Anyone else love this? How do I get her to enjoy it more? She has, in the past used her vibrator during anal and cummed from that. But never really tries with that anymore. Can she ever enjoy anal? Ive done it probably 30 times with her.
Hey, that's funny. I suddenly need to ejaculate.
>>34779243Well I know before me she did anal with a guy who really liked it. When she first met me she maintained she didn't like it and when it did it the first time, she always said "you've done it now, thats it".I looked on her phone back in the day and saw messages between him and her talking about anal and how much he loved it and her encouraging him. I saw her messaging some other guy (who she never slept with) but was asking her about her anal experiences. She said she has used toys and had a dick in her ass and came and had a guy rub her clit with his dick in her ass.I confronted her about this, and she said she never wanted to do it but it was his thing and she was younger and experimenting to see if she liked it. She said she never did but did it to keep him happy at the time. Didn't see him for long and ghosted him because he gave her the ick. They did it about 2-3 times in the first weekend (a tinder blind date) and then 3-4 times the second weekend, twice in once day. He also made her sniff jungle juice while doing it once too. She continued to talk to him from July 2018 until Jan 2020 (I've seen when she ghosted him), but maintains she didn't like this. She didn't always do anal and kinda tapered off seeing him (different towns 5 hours apart) to once a month after the first two months. She reckons it was about 6 times total. I've done the math, judging by their messages and its probably more like 10-13 times total over 6 months but she denies this.I think this is bullshit, she liked it and was turned on. It's too much to do in a short space of time for her to just be doing it to keep him happy. I feel like I' am not enough knowing all this. She gets heaps upset talking about this and gets angry that I read her messages. I dgaf, I'd rather know the truth. I've been with her for 5 years and this still bothers me.
>>34782039I meant July 2019***
>>34782039Just keep fucking her in the ass. Fill her colon full of hot cum every chance you get. It's better that she is kinda lifeless when you do it -- make it part of her submitting to you and your desires. Bind her hands even. You just gotta fuck her pink starfish more and more until she gets more used to the fact that you are making her into your Anal Cum Slut Whore.
As someone who dated a girl who actually preferred anal over vaginal sex I can in fact say that they exist. My ex got into it in her early teens thanks to porn exposure and ended up finding out she enjoyed being anally penetrated better than vaginal penetration. When we started dating she almost exclusively engaged in anal sexual activity. The crazier thing is that she had no visible damage or prolapse despite having been inserting objects up her ass for 5+ years prior to us dating and could easily fist herself. She also almost never used lube unless she was being fisted or was inserting large objects. Not my image but she was able to ride conditioner bottles like those as if they were regular dildos. I genuinely miss her so much.
You know how when you live in an apartment and the landlord and his crew evict somebody that has just abandoned all their stuff, and then you see all of their stuff right outside the building for everybody to see? And their stuff just sits there and you have to stare at it for days and stuf?Is that a sign that you're living in a ghetto?When I say stuff, I'm talking every fucking thing. The sofa, the furniture, the bedroom mattresses, bags and bags of clothes, the TV, the stereo, the pots and pans... EVERY FUCKING THING...
>>34773090I like trawling expensive neighborhoods on Big Trash day. You find a higher class of rubbish
>>34781642>You find a higher class of rubbishAh I see you're a man of culture...
>>34773090mind ur buisness faggot
>>34783203>3 day old thread>op nowhere to be found
>>34783206>SegaThe Dreamcast was my favorite console
I turned 40 last week. I still can't believe it.... 40... I mean what am I supposed to do with my life now? Kill myself?
Boring old fart here40 isn't even middle age anymore. Anyone alive today has to consider the very good chance of living to 100. More than half of your life may be yet to come, and you had better start thinking about how to fill it.My 40s turned out to be the richest, fullest period in my life. I accomplished successes professionally, had more friends than before, had an active and enjoyable sex life, and had new adventures in travel, hobbies, education and other life-enriching things. I would have missed out on so much if I had decided I was as good as dead at 40 and just shui down as some anons here suggest.
>>34778073Cope. If you time was so valuable and your life so great you wouldn't be here reading our shitposts.
>>34779787exact opposite is true there's so much good that even reading these posts did nothing to drag it down
>>34779795Your time has zero value dude and your life is not as great as you would have us believe.
Fucking 40...
