I see and hear things like they are not really there. I hear voices coming from a certain direction, or see images in a certain direction. I think that's the best I can describe it.Sometimes it seems like someone from the past is talking to me. Or I am seeing things that are happening somewhere. In cartoon images.The psychiatrists say it's a form of Schizoaffective Disorder. I have tried many medications, and it seems to be medication resistant.Does anyone else experience this, to some amount?It seems so real, like there are actual people communicating with me.
>>34909681nobut you do and won't be able to tell the difference without medical assistance
>>34909618>Does anyone else experience this, to some amount?I sometimes do. Doesn't happen almost ever, but very rarely when I for example use a hairdryer and blow air into my ears I hear something that kinda resembles human chatter. Other than that when I am extremely tired I will also interpret background noises as people talking, but I really have to be on something like 30h of no sleep for that to occur. Also there's this strange issue when I listen to very repetitive music I start interpreting the lyrics as something that could mean something to me, not in the typical schizo way of someone trying to talk literally to me, but just something that my mind decided that it's worth paying attention to (like someone saying something that resembles my name in a song over and over, stuff like that). That's probably just listening to brainrot too much and it never happens with classical, but still normal people don't have this I wager.Also sometimes when I stare at my computer wallpaper too much I see strange shapes and faces forming, but only when I am literally looking at it for an hour straight and had the same one set for months, still I guess it's quite unusual.I'm close to 30, if you're wondering. Your situation seems a bit worse, I'm sorry to hear that. When it happens to me I freak out a little because it's not common (maybe once in a couple of weeks), I couldn't imagine living like this all the time.
>>34909681It could be god talking to you, I think you may be the chosen one.
>>34909681>Do you think some of what I see and hear this way is real?Definitely not, and you need to hold on to that fact.
>>34909618nigga youre a schizophrenict. schizophrenic
I'm in my first full-time job, which is physically demanding and comically time-consuming (12 to 13 hours a day in total, Monday through Friday). As I see it, it seems to be hard for the average worker to put up with this without resorting to some form of escapism, like doomscrolling, junk food, etc. Especially for me, since I've never a social life and I'm somewhat alienated from my family. You may ask, "Well, why not make friends with your coworkers?" I've been told that before, but, like in my previous (and short-lived) work experiences, the main topics everyone seems to talk about are gossip (which I find pathetic), sex (I'm a virgin), sportsball (I don't watch TV), or politics (I don't care about it). So I never seem to get along with anyone wherever I go. If it's relevant, I'm a depressed 23-year-old(/adv/ main demographic, I know).
>>34913134>politics (I don't care about it)but you have made choices that put you in one camp or the other. did you get the covid shot?hey at least you have potential people to talk to in your job. I don't.The only way out is trades, and that window is closing soon.
>>34913134You can’t. You know you’ll end up trapped in a frustrating job that will take up all your time, leaving you without a shred of soul, in a city you despise and in a society steeped exclusively in the fashions and consumerist culture fostered by capitalism. You have no choice but to grab a sniper rifle or a jerry can of petrol and take your revenge on the liberal order that has stripped you of any hint of that joie de vivre you treasured so much in your early youth. The capitalist system has destroyed the working class, and now is the time for revenge. Don’t even think of committing suicide without first setting fire to the very system that is systematically reducing people like you to the status of wageslaves.
I've fallen in love with my friend with benefits. We have sex every day and say romantic stuff to each other all the time, but I'm so scared that he will turn me down if I ask him to be my boyfriend. He's been very promiscuous since a young age and I really doubt he loves me the way I love him. I'm sure that even if he doesn't return my feelings he will continue to have this kind of relationship with me, but yeah... I feel trapped. I love him. I'm addicted to him. I'm obsessed with him.
>>34913251>How is it terrifying to fall in love with someone I've been having sex with almost daily for three months?Falling in love isn't terrifying. But this: >>34913225>I feel trapped. I love him. I'm addicted to him. I'm obsessed with him.that definitely is. Love is fine. Obsession is frightening.
>>34913225Your options are 1) tell him how you feel, or 2) don't tell him how you feel. If you go for option 1, the chances of him becoming your boyfriend are quite low, but if you go for option 2, the chances are zero. So you may as well tell him.
>>34913395Love often is obsessive, especially early on.
I know this is a LARP because there are no girls on 4chan but I hope it's not because I'd love to see another dumb slut get pumped and dumped after chasing Chad. Like, it's the big 26, there's no excuse for not knowing you're just succumbing to hypergamy. You chose this and deserve every bit of pain you get :^)>>34913391Women deserve most of the blame but let's not absolve men of their responsibilities here either. Beta males enabled women and lotharios and fuckboys take advantage without caring about the consequences. We need to bully beta males and punish lotharios same as we did back in the old days.
>>34913225The fun of obsession is that you don't have the object and u can fully enjoy the object of fantasy obsession to me is a sign u shouldn't change anything u are enjoying it too much right now why collapse enjoyment ?
What the title says. I went on two dates with this girl and she’s inviting me over to her place for this Sunday (for an "oracle session"). I am an anxious and high inhib person so I have some concerns 1) On our second date, we sat at some table in a park. A squirrel jumped on the table and got too close for comfort so I got up. My date was still sitting down and reached out to the squirrel for some stupid reason. The squirrel bit her but she claimed it was only a tug/nibble since her skin was not punctured or bleeding. 2) I asked if she hasany pets or roommates. She said she has four female roommates however she has two floors and half of them are away for weekends. I get more high inhib and anxious when there are roommates at a girl’s place. I was expecting it to only be us since she never mentioned roommates before. Idk if I’m looking forward to it now.
>>34912965>for an "oracle session"I don't claim to know what that is, but it doesn't sound like code for "Do you want to come over and fuck?"
>>34913024On our second date, she seemed pretty horny and often made our conversation pretty sexual. She even showed me that she had a condom in her purse kek. That's why I believe she wants to fuck.
>>34913137Just go and fuck her. If you don't like it just tell her you wanna leave. I want an update monday morning though im too invested
>>34913137Yeah, the prisons are full of people who made that assumption.
>>34912965If a girl invites u to her house for a "oracle session" she wants to hook up. The end. If she invites u for tarot she wants to have sex. The end. Bring some wine and a spooky offering
I'm M28, living in a big bad country on a low-mid paying job, which, at least, keeps me safe from being a cannon fodder for Uncle Poo. Been diagnosed with mixed anxiety-depressive disorder last year and since then been holding on prescripted meds and some activities that I've took through this period of time. Of course, this wasn't and still isn't enough to change anything, so, as I've read from all the usual sources, a therapy seems like an obvious way, unless there are any other things I could do here. I've tried CBT and IFS methods with therapists for 4 sessions each, and it didn't do anything but felt like an embarrassing waste of time and money. So, is there any other methods of therapy or self-help for my shit?
>>34910218try ketamine
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I got a new office chair that feels comfortable, but sitting in it for more than a few minutes leads to my tailbone aching. I'm trying to find positions / ways that don't make it feel like that, but nothing is working. Any help?
buy a new chair lol
>>34913179return the chair or get some sort of cushion
Get a cushion. I have an employee who uses one because he broke his tailbone in the past.
need some meat on ya booty
>>34913179Get a cushion with a coccyx cut-out.
Im feeling extremely suicidal at the moment and nothing is helping. Even thinking about family and friends isnt helping. I am actually concidering to end it all due to the future of this fucked up world and my mental health. Nothing is getting better. I cant go to a therapist because im poor as shit, my parents cant help me go anywhere for help because they don't have money either. Everyone has just been pissing me off aswell. Everyone ive told treats me like a one year old child or act like im the plauge. Ive grown apathetic towards everyone and everything. My hobbies dont make me feel better, learning new hobbies is stressful. I don't know what to do anymore and i need actual proper advice please. I really don't wanna do horrible shitThe image is just my favorite pokemon. Ignore it
Hope the redness of my eyes will disappear. I look stonedI've stopped crying now. Might watch a movie later to distract myself a bit
>>34913057>I cant go to a therapist because im poor as shitIs seeing a therapist online (via video call) a possibility? Do you have some local equivalent to betterhelp.com?If you get really desperate you could try asking an AI to give you some CBT exercises for anxiety.>>34913183>Im scared ill have to deal with global warming. Im scared of the inflation of koney. Im scared of water droughts. I dony think ill have any food or water intbe future. Im scared if being a worthless drunkie struggling on the streets. Im failing all my classes and im scared of disappointing my parentsHonestly, most of those things will probably happen. But you'll find it much less of a catastrophe than you thought it would be when they do. Humanity has much more of an ability to muddle through somehow than you would think. Here in London during World War 2, for example, people lived with the constant threat of death from German bombs; even if you made it to an air raid shelter, there was a good chance you'd get home to find your house completely destroyed. It's hard to imagine living with that kind of stress every day for years, and yet somehow people did. They just kept on making tea, and buying black market goods, and adjusted somehow. You will too, even if you can't at the moment imagine how.t. guy who failed all of his third year university exams, but muddled through somehow
>>34913341>I think i'll try tell my parents when im readyI think you'll find they'll be much more concerned for your welfare than they will be angry.
Maybe im just hormonal. I am a teenager afterall
>>34913357*hug*I had a day like this today too. Been at work shitposting and hiding all day. Feel better SkittyOP
This is a long post but i feel there is much to unpack. I'm (male) atm. making exit plans dated for the 25th of this month. A week after my gf's niece's birthday.Short story of what has been going on. We are both in our late 30s, the relationship has gone on for 9 years. We have had a lot of issues, and i admit a lot of them have been from me.First change in the situation was 5 years or so ago, she started to have this urge that we should put our trash in one of the sinks in the kitchen. At the end of the day or two she made a trashbag and i took it out. Then the time between her making the trashbags got longer and longer... Sometimes she actually cleaned everything up but that has been years now, maybe 2 or 3.Slowly that situation evolved into something much worse. Now there are multiple trash piles in the apartment, especially in the kitchen and bathroom. Papers and newspapers are scattered around. Both sinks (kitchen and bathroom) have been unusable for almost a full year now, and even basic maintenance (like fixing a broken bathroom light) feels impossible because the apartment is in such a state that we can’t realistically invite anyone in. The light in the showerroom, that hasn't worked for a year, also is special and an electrician is needed to change it(it's not just a lightbulb i can change alone). So we use a type of forehead light when we operate there.I wash the dishes using a handwashing bowl and the shower faucet. When i talk about cleaning it all up by myself, she gets angry. Says she must be the one to do it, and she might get a nervous breakdown if i did something to it. I do small, mainly logistic fixes every now and then but even they get her anxious.I’ve adapted to functioning in this environment, but I feel a lot of shame and discomfort about it too. If I had a free choice, I would never live like this.
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>>34907736It's all goddamn junk. You really don't want to leave your past behind if you insist on clinging to all the piles of junk you've accumulated together. If you lack willpower, find a male friend IRL who is willing to intervene on your behalf and put it to her straight. This is what we are going to do, and I couldn't care less what you think about it. The problem being that you would still side with her over him when she has a meltdown over not being catered to. That's what these kind of women will do, feign desperation and self-sabotage in order to manipulate you into "rescuing" her once again. Congrats, now you're back to square one.
>>34910550>It's all goddamn junk. You really don't want to leave your past behind if you insist on clinging to all the piles of junk you've accumulated together.90 % of it is her stuff. I can't just throw it out or do much to it. But i have at least later tried to put my own stuff in better order but all the clutter makes it hard. Everything is going to be ordered so that i will at least know where my stuff is and in what kind of storage it will fit. I'm trying to look what's actually something i could just throw away from my own belongings. Yeah there is actually a lot of stuff to remove there. I'm trying to lessen the amount i actually have stored so moving will also become easier. I'm not going for full digital nomad mode but having all my stuff basically fit in one car will make the next phase of the plan a lot of easier. That being moving to somewhere where i can live cheaper and find work better. >The problem being that you would still side with her over him when she has a meltdown over not being catered to.Well i do get why she feels the things she does. But i won't be be taking her side. Like, her stuff needs to be cleared in a reasonable amount of time and there will be a deadline to that. I can't live like this anymore. >That's what these kind of women will do, feign desperation and self-sabotage in order to manipulate you into "rescuing" her once again. Congrats, now you're back to square one.Feigned or real. I won't be doing what i have done during the previous times. There's a date now and clear boundaries that will be put in place.
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So there's a guy in my college who I really like. I never confessed to him because of my social anxiety and I don't have much experience in dating in general but he def knows I have feelings for him and he never gave anyone a solid answer about his own feelings for me. We started actively talking about 4 months ago and everything was great but it just changed in literally one day. I thought I was just imagining things but it's like one day he walked me to the metro, laughed and talked about life and stuff with me and another day he just straight up ignored me. Few days ago during our class I heard him joke about his girlfriend and he kept discussing her with his friends. The same day when I sped off to the metro after our classes he called up to me and wanted to walk together. This shit led to a really bad depressive episode for me. So what do i do? Was it a joke? Does he actually have a girlfriend? Do I ask him about it? My friend tried asking him about it and he kept avoiding the question. I'm not afraid of rejection that much, I'm more afraid he was just using me all this time. I really need advice on this
>>34900421Severely underrated postThis would also explain why he was evasive to your friend
>>34898419How old?
>>34898269Can you stalk his social media?
>>34898269Grab his arm in a playful way, then pull it between you boobs. Squish them together around his arm. If he leaves it there, then he’s into you. If he pulls away you can try to comfort him a little and try the embrace again. If he pulls away again, he’s just not into you. It’s better to do this in a secluded area so he doesn’t feel judged by other people.
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>> I meet a girl online>> we start chatting for a bit and I find out she has a bunch of mental illnesses>> she has a pmdd episode and starts questioning why I'm so nice to her>> after a couple more days she starts talking about how her therapists are bad and how her dad abused her and her mother and sister>> I also hear that her mother tells her she should commit suicide and be put down like a rabid dog>> a week passes>> one night she tells me she wants to kill herself, I eventually calm her>> another week passes and she wants to kill herself again>> I slowly start to realize I kinda relate to her in terms of what I experience like selective mutism and social anxiety>> It's been around 19 days of talking to her and I start wondering about my own childhood and how my mother denied and denies me having social anxiety and she apparently overcame hers (family curse apparently)>> I think about how I was 8 and told my mom I wanted to kms>> I tell the girl all of this>> one night she tells me she wants to "fix" me>> I try and tell her I'm fine and she says she can't trust me being safe with my thoughts and therefore will not kill herself and will try to fix me and does not care what she will have to sacrifice>> I try to explain my concerns about thisComment too long. Click here to view the full text.
>>34913062> I meet a girl online>I find out she has a bunch of mental illnessesAs expected.>one night she tells me she wants to "fix" meNice. When are you getting your dick sucked by her, I did not find this information in your text.
> If I leave her she will kill herself and I will feel bad and I also care a lot about herShe's manipulating you.Block her and never contact her again. She's obviously fucking crazy. Pussy is never worth so much that you have to deal with some crazy fucking bitch.
Selling is legal but buying is illegal in my country. Does the average escort/prostitute in europe look decent or should you pay extra for even hotter ones? Is it a high risk to get scammed or is it generally safe?
>>34912826I think Turkey should quit NATO.Just saying.
Pretty sure it's legal in Belgium. But why not just install Tinder? Free whores all over the place
>>34912826The Netherlands is the obvious choice.
>>34913050hahahah what a funny joke. the women in the netherlands are like 180cm and im assuming OP doesn't want to fuck ugly tall women
spent wed & thurs installing HVAC at for a resident at the apartment I work at. conext: I am the supervisor. the only person who outranks me on site is the property manager.have known the resident for about a year. we get along & always chat when I'm there. Wednesday she made lunch (sandwiches) for she and I, not totally uncommon in my line of work. Thursday I finished up & she made two margaritas...That *IS* uncommon, but i accepted, because what is one drink at 16:30? we sat at her kitchen table, talked about my farmlife and her "dumb job" (her words not mine). we finished our drinks and she sort-of stumbled/blurted something along the lines of "If i dont ask, I'll drive myself crazy... can I make you dinner sometime and you watch a movie with me? I know im fat, but you're really nice and I'll make it worth your time." not verbatim, but ballpark.she is a big girl, but she has a waist, chest and hip ratio that falls well within acceptable parameters. If i guessed I would say 165cm, 65kg. not at all "round" beach ball or hamplanet. she actually has really pretty features; eyes, nose, smile, hair & overall proportions. if she lost 10 or 12kg she would be hot. that said, i dont really do big girls. however, im a little worried that she might get offended if i dont accept, and I did in fact drink on the job at her house yesterday. if she wanted to be spiteful she could tell my boss, and I'm pretty sure that's a fireable offense. I essentially gave her the "I'll think about it, I really appreciate the offer but its really hard to get away from the farm" line to buy some time and make an amicable exit. when i saw her in the parking lot today she said something like "how does your schedule look? I bought 'X, Y & Z' at the store last night..." I smiled, said "oh that sounds tasty" or some shit, not realizing that may have sounded like some degree of confirmation. I quickly followed up with some version of "I better get on these work orders, have a good day!"what do?
>>34912313Dont shit where you eat.Actually this gives you an acceptable out. Just tell her you're flattered but since this is your place of work, you wouldnt be comfortable dating a resident. Gets you out of it, gives her an out without embarrassing her.
>>34912360This. If you're nice about it then I doubt she'll do anything. And if she threatens you then having sex with her would definitely make things worse.
got a message from her at the office this afternoon. she said I left a tool at her unit. entirely possible, so went by just before clocking out. she had a pair of coax cutter/crimpers... not mine, not a tool I own or use. told her they weren't mine and thanked her anyway. she asked if i wanted a margarita. I told her i appreciate it, but can't really fraternize with the residents as that could get me in trouble for "favoritism, discrimination, harassment or other liability issues" she said she understood. she said if i change my mind the offer stands. she ended with "you're really nice and fun to talk to. most guys either dont talk or only play video games. I hope I didnt make it weird". I could tell she felt awkward. i mean, i did too, but i felt bad for her.I guess in all honesty, its probably best that she was a fat chick. if she was a 7+ I might not have been as clear headed. in all honesty it was tempting anyway. I'm almost 40 and she could easily be 10 years younger than me. I haven't been that directly hit on in several years. ill take the ego boost and go home.
guys what do i do? should i risk sending a message in the discord group i share with my ex boyfriend? the one i have a restraining order with? we both have restraining orders which means neither of us is allowed to contact the other... should I SEND HIM A MESSAGE TONIGHT or should i just leave the group without saying anything? but his birthday is on 10/10 so that's next month
>>34912818THIS IS NOT THE QUESTION I NEED AN ANSWER BEFORE MIDNIGHT OR ELSE I'LL LOSE MY PRETTY DRESS AND MY CARRIAGE WILL TURN INTO A PUMPKIN AAAA (the carriage being all my confidence and my pretty shoes being the courage i need to actually do it...) (to answer your question my dear friend it's because i was abusive and hit him now answer me)
>>34912822NO ONE replied to me literally no one. even though i bumped my thread nobody was nice enough to answer should i message him yes or fuck no? or should i leave the group?
>>34912822you realize two people can ask the same question right.Also im not >>34912828 so its probably him that asked not be. dumbass nigga
>>34912823if you hit him then stay away from him stupid idiot hes probably fucking other bitches already
>>34912961>you realize two people can ask the same question rightYou're seriously claiming that two separate people within hours of each other are asking "Should I send a Happy Birthday message to my boyfriend even though he has a restraining order against me?"Of course this is OP: >>34911516OP even admits it: >>34912828>NO ONE replied to me literally no one. even though i bumped my thread nobody was nice enough to answerPlenty of people told you not to be stupid, OP. They're still telling you that.
I'm at my University. There are beautiful women everywhere. I am about 10 years older than them. Is there any chance at all? Why can't I talk to any of them? What's wrong with me??
>>34911179I'm going to need that rear view for proof.
>>34911183Official art from the game:
>>34911192Nice. I'm more of a boob guy but both are good.
>>34910158This is good advice
>>34910278>>34910277I checked out 2 clubs and I'll try to join next week I do need club activities after all.>>34910242>>34911158I have been a filia simp for years but squiggly is also S tier. They were my team for a long time
I'm not interested in a relationship, I just want to have sex with women on dating apps but I'm afraid of getting STDs. What should I do?>Just wear a condom>Just ask if they got testedCondoms don't always work and whores can lie about their tests. All it takes is 1 mistake then I'm stuck with HIV for life.
>>34911693>I want sex outside of relationship>I want to be 100% sure to not get any stdpick one
>>34911714>I'll remain a virgin for the rest of my life because I'll never get marriednigga wat
>I'm not interested in a relationshipYou do not deserve the warmth of another human. But, looking beyond that, I can understand the overwhelming urge to cum deep in hot pussy.There's a million reasons not to do anything. Live while you can. AIDS isn't even fatal anymore. Does the fear of a lightning strike stop you from enjoying a beautiful storm? Does the uncertainty of what tomorrow may bring stops you from getting out of bed in the morning?>Condoms don't always workThey work well enough. Who wants to reduce their pleasure with a condom anyway? At the end of the day your mind is ruled by your fear and that is why you stuck here lamenting all the what ifs and why nots of life. We are all guilty of this. I learned a long time ago to just follow your heart, consequences be damned. If you won't do something because there's a chance something could go wrong, you might as well never do anything ever again.
>>34911793>Does the fear of a lightning strike stop you from enjoying a beautiful storm?NTA, but... yes? Obviously? Any sane person stays indoors during a thunderstorm, for precisely that reason.
The fact that its risky and dangerous makes it 10x hotter to fuck her so just do it OP
