Previous :desuarchive.org/r9k/thread/83222338/Rules:Ignore impolite moidsFAQ:>What is this thread?A place for biological women to talk about their lives.>Why aren't you on Crystal Cafe?It has been aggressively raided for years and is dead.>Well, you're raiding my male safe space!r9k is not a male board. https://wizchan.org/ is.>I'm a man, can I post here?Please don't, but if you are going to anyway, be polite and indicate your gender.Comment too long. Click here to view the full text.
>>83291882you missed your old friend >>83284012
>>83265579Why are fembots so cute?
>>83292861Ok. Let's try this again.Oh hey! You like dancing? Let's go dance together under the moonlight. Then after Let's go swimming!
>>83288659>>83288689>voice changeraside from the fact my weak ass setup can barely run a heavy game and another tab together i don't think dad would enjoy hearing that instead of my voice lol i have another friend interested in arc so we might actually both get it to play with dad as a trio. if it goes wrong im sure the both of them could play together as well.>>83288897i'm just paranoid because i'm super terrible at aim, but don't get any better since i don't get any practice in. should i start playing shooter games on roblox since those are all 5yos on tablets against me? lololol>>83289985you made those? so cute!!! i haven't crafted anything in such a long time... i still have so many materials i'd like to find a use for>how did they get a daesang already....???!?samsung conglomerate chaebyol >>83291882>I tried playing rdr2 FIRST (idk what came over me since I havent played the first one)is that really such a terrible idea? i thought of doing the same thing since rd2 is on sale >>83292876Comment too long. Click here to view the full text.
Which /biofem/s will cry the most when they finish rdr2? Me, I shed a single manly tear and tipped my hat.
>over one year in therapy>she gave me a "self-care assignment">couldn't think a of a single self-care activity or something that I'm grateful for>session devolves into me revealing about sex scares me, how I mistreat myself so much that I created a bubble to maximize my misery; >>isolate myself,>>being a cheapskate, (never spend a single dime into anything fun, only hoard my month to month paycheck and pay the bills)>>fill my freetime with distractions, (do nothing that give me satisfaction, only shitposting and doomscrolling)>>force myself into hardwork that ultimately just stress me out>highly self-judgmental, nothing is ever enoughNobody can treat me worse than myself. I literally managed to create the perfect system to maximize my misery in all ways possible. God, that session was so emberassing when I revealed my fear, I couldn't even look her at her face. Fuck me.No, I don't want to have sex with my therapist. fuck off
>>83294414How did she respond to that ?
>>83294429I'm not bitching about it, it's part of the process. But it was one of the most embarassing experiences and the worst session I ever had.I've told her that our sessions are like "self-immolation", I always leave her sessions BAW.Worst thing about it, I have nobody to talk about this and all my baggage, the only places I have is fucking here and her. I need so much of a person in my life that I can trust it's unbelievable. >>83294439She did her therapist job and tried to find the crux of my fear. The ultimate solution was to face my fears.>>83294428I highly recommend tho. If you think you know yourself, you doesn't.
is the goal to quit 4chan forever something that occasionally crosses your mind?
>>83294461It is difficult, it is hard, it can be painful. You're in therapy. It is okay to bitch about it as long as you are eventually working towards something productive. Man, we're on r9k. We all have issues. At least you're in therapy for your problems. I'm not qualified to be your therapist or help you with your problems. I have had sex with prostitutes and casual empty sex wasn't any better than complete avoidance of sex.
>>83294479Always. But that session made me realize why I distract myself so much and seek out escapism.To avoid myself. Since I treat myself so badly, my brain ultimately seeks out ways to completely 'numbfy' me from any experience that might make me remenber about myself. All the escapism I seek is completely removed from relatability and self-identification. It's a way to avoid the pain.I seriously can not understand how did I got to this point. I self-sacrifice myself in all the ways possible, I'm a people pleaser, I even hide my pain from other people so they don't be bothered by it.>>83294483This is mostly a vent thread. I wish I had someone in my life to talk about this, but all I have is r9k.
Whats a good way to get over your fear of death in light of an untenable existential situation? For instance, if you knew that youre life is largely out your control and is left at the will of other people, and you know that wont end well. What line of thinking leads to that final mental switch that makes the decision to take your own life easy? Im in a position where that is genuinely the best choice but I cant bring myself to make that final heartfelt decision, my mind is in a constant negative loop, I wake up beyond miserable with no change in sight no matter what I do, the fact that my life is shit and is shaped by the people around me makes things even more unbearable since i have genuinely no control over anything but myself. The life long mistreatment from people is finally catching up to me, im in analysis paralysis and im looking for that final mindset click that makes self elimination an easy choice. Those who have attempted, what was your thought process?
>>83292887Helium masking (exit bag) or CO suffocation are probably your only choices. Either that or insulin overdose, its painless and you just fall asleep.
>>83292272Im looking for that final set of hard facts put together that drive the decision home. Im tired of all these bullshit games, tired of being fed unfounded positivity cope, tired of every attempt at finding a meaningful purpose failing because there were people standing in my way. Especially sick and tired of being blamed for other peoples transgressions negatively influencing my life. The door towards improving my situation has closed a few weeks ago and its finally setting in, the years of neglect have damaged my brain and my nervous system soo much that im genuinely having serious issues retaining information or learning new things, so rewiring is not an option. a clean diet, new routines and daily HIIT hasnt helped me at all, if anything it might have sped up the process thanks to cortisol accumulation in a body deprived of oxytocin, dopamine and serotonin.
>>83293169And you have reached this state and you're waiting for others to catch up?
>>83293241Im looking for that final nudge, one of the biggest motivators is the fact that IVE witnessed how things DONT GET BETTER over time. Its mostly survivorship bias
>>83293176Insulin overdose is a great idea, I hadn't thought of that before.
Im 28 tonight. Youth gone. Never got to do the things I wanted to. No friends, no memories, never became attractive to girls, never fucked a bunch of cute emo foids. Entering my 30s. Starting to see the age on my face. Ready to die.
>>83292972pay them enough and they'll pretend enough for it to be worth it.
>>8329229328 feels like the end. Then you hit your mid 30s. And realize you were still young
>>83293016wait until 31!!! :OOOOand so on and so forth. better get 2 work now.
>>83293016Then you hit your 50s. And you wonder why you fell for this again.
>>83293004Still won't hit the same
>finally get the perfect 18yr gf whos obsessed with me>too bitter and broken to reciprocateFuck this oofy doofy life
she deserves better frfr
>>83294451Obsessed lovers aren't actually good. I've been obsessed once and had another one who was obsessed with me. It sucked both times. Obsession blinds you to reality.
>Big boobs are common in online porn>Almost never see anyone IRL with huge titshow can we change this? And can boobs be too big?
>>83293490>Almost never see anyone IRL with huge titsMove out of Asia.
>>83293490>>83294143Those look like E or F cups, which are slightly above average in countries where D cups are average (Russia, Scandinavia). Maybe move there?
I almost never see any girls with fake tits anymoreare implants no longer a thing?
i want ami to ride my dick so fucking much i miss not talking directly to her since i uninstalled social media to work on my website but i talk to her in my mind and jerk off to her every day i think she is the most beautiful woman i have ever seen and she makes me super jorny
what anime is this hoe from
I LOVE EVERYONE AND EVERYTHING
>>83294395But what about... brussel sprouts
>>83294445...Stop stalking me.Whoever invented Brussels sprouts I hope is dead! DEAD!
You do know its a major debuff, right? How did it end up that way?
>>83292285i ended up googling it.ig this is another reason bmi is bullshit
I try to but it seems my efforts have been failing Lost 120 lbs gained back 60Im just lazy and my life is tough I guess
>>83291910I like the way it feels and my boyfriend likes it as well because I have bigger boobs and bigger butt, so why should I lose weight
none of the fatties actually like being fat, they just convince themselves they do so they dont rightfully want to kill themselves every time they look in the mirror. same for fatty chasers, it's the only thing they can get so they force themselves to "like" it
>>83291910guys like it they even say get fatter
how well groomed do moids like womens pubic hair?
>>83292188I want it hairy, and I want it stinky (as long as it's not the fishy or menstrual types of stink).
>>83292188well i'm not japanese so the ideal amount of hair is 0
>>83292188the hair is the least disgusting thing about her vaginaI wish i could bleach my eyes
>>83292188completely shaved or I don't want her
>>83292188that looks abhorrent, this one's nice
Straight cis men of /r9k/, how do you cope with not being able to get pregnant?I cry so much that i will never be able to carry the babies of the man i love. Please tell me how you cope?
>>83294125As long as I loved the person I wouldn't mind if they couldn't give me kids. I would still love them
Lol at how everyone is answering as if op is a woman
>>83294360Im gonna find a period pad and post it
>>83294125>straight cis men>coping with not getting pregnantStraight cis men, definitionally, aren't interested in getting pregnant...what an odd audience to ask.
>>83294125>ai image>thread ignored do better, you failure
>your type>when was your last kiss?>how many tabs do you have open?>do you refresh threads hoping someone posted?>when did you realize you weren't gonna make it (don't lie)>16 personalitieshttps://www.16personalities.com/>Enneagram:enneagramtest.com>love typettps://lovetype16.com/personality>Myers Briggs Type Indicator Text analyzer:https://www.uclassify.com/browse/g4mes543/myers-briggs-type-indicator-text-analyzer?input=Text>Turbies Test CompilationComment too long. Click here to view the full text.
>>83293591Saaaaaar how dare you insinuate i am from endia? I am big bobs america woman looking for my h1b I mean my america white boytoy saaaar
>>83293591>You still have not replied to the indian allegationsI'm Half Puerto-Rican, Half-White. Since I'm American let me tell you about my ancestors:>The Puerto Rican side My mom basically dislikes "Port Rich" (as she calls it) for reasons I won't get into, but she's still a hot headed latin to the core.>The White side (dad)My dad is German, Irish, English, Scottish. My 4 great grand dad fought for the confederacy. Cause of that, my dad made the family do civil war reenacting when I was kid, which I found depressing and boring.>>83293630Lol that actally made me laugh.
>>83293775>my dad made the family do civil war reenacting when I was kidDo you know your father's type? There's another girlbossy ENTJ who struggles with performing/presenting/conforming to conventional standards of femininity/cuteness I know who had a very "drill sergeant" sort of male parental figure, so that's interesting.
There's some relevant bait from the other day I decided against posting, but perhampce it could still have SOME utility...
>>your typeINTP>>when was your last kiss?coupke days ago>>how many tabs do you have open?juste one this time but i typically keep around 8 open >>do you refresh threads hoping someone posted?I don't post so much anymore>>when did you realize you weren't gonna make it (don't lie)things have gotte better
Do you think white Americans will go full Nazi soon or is online hype just talk?
no their lives are too comfortable if you asked them would you like to live in a white utopia but first you must forgoe all the luxuries you have now and endure hardship then the choice is obvious
>>83292966maybe idk. I think if the US has actual nazis at the helm rn based on leaked chat messages etc that are hard to tell if they were ironic discord level jokes or actually meant earnest deep down. I'm in europe and I'm south east asian in appearance but was born here and have dealt with racism my whole life. From old men or kids calling me ching chong to people asking me if I can even speak german.95% of verbal racism I received (people being angry at me, insulting me, having preconceptions about me) has been from caucasians. The only 3 physical incidences of racism I had ever in my life were all during covid from muslims/afghans/pakistanis, with one of them throwing a bottle after me.I basically ordered fastfood and stayed inside during the pandemic most of the time because I was actually scared that someone would attack me more seriously, didnt help I was a student and had to live in a cheap apartment in the "muslim" part of town
>>83292966It is just media buzz.The white Americans who want nothing to do with ethnic minorities started forming white-only farming communities in very rural areas. The media smear merchants say this is racist and all of them are white supremacists. The glowies put them on watchlists and call them a threat. It seems they just want to be left alone.Checking out of broader society is easier than trying to tear the whole thing down.If you don't get it, listen to No Surprises by Radiohead.
Nah, there's nothing they can do. Only impotent rage.
>>83292966Online hype. They tried with the Nazis and failed so utterly that racism gives white women the Ick and they actively pursue black men as revenge for the patriarchy of White Men
Is this how it is, having a girlfriend?
>>83286304>>83286338If I had one wishI would be the complete eradication of all zoomers. They are less than vermin
>>83287897I actually feel bad for him. How many hours, days, weeks if not years, including or excluding drugs, trt, steroids or other shit has he had to do in the gym and how much does he have to earn to pull an ugly, brown chink.That should be the takeaway. He is not even chad enough to plap a normie white girl.
Anyone who doesn't want to genocide foids is a cuck, anyone who wants a relationship is a cuck, anyone who treats foids with anything except malice and hatred is a pathetic soulless soulless useless worthless sissy clitty having BVLL prepping CVCKOLD
>>83293765A TRVTHNVKE from the plight of the humble trvecel
>>83287897You want to bet this beefcake actually loves her?Poor bastard.
The women at my work are incredibly vulgar, they always talk about sex, cumming and "romantic" experiences with men.Its completely and utterly disgusting.
>>83294390>women are animalsnever would have guessed
