Wasting my 20s being a NEET and rotting my soul. Coping with porn because of isolation and mental illness is only making me more disgusting and in turn i lose more and more of my ability to act normal. I used to mask so seamlessly but after going to a party i was invited to by old classmates i realize i'm just doomed. You can say it's my own fault but i never asked to be autistic while life flows naturally for everyone else. I could get a job with a livable wage here and a girlfriend as well but what's the point when every single normal action is an insurmountable task and i will at most be liked for my looks. Nothing about my real self will ever be liked by anyone, and no job will ever be liked by me.
>>84782657there's nothing wrong with having your own cool private world. I wasted my late 20s and 30s in a similar way, then got a degree and a good paying normie job. Sure, I'm the quiet office sperg, but I get my work done and am respectful to people. I like how people are shocked whenever I give a 10/10 presentation despite my 1/10 daily social interactions.
>>84782550When did I type this?In all seriousness, do something before it's too late. You are in your 20s still. Time is running out, but don't be like me. the isolation WILL drive you insane, you will cease to enjoy anything, even your vices (porn, drink, etc).Get that shit wagie job. Fuck that bpdemon 18yr old that works there. Hell, smoke crack, pay hookers. Do anything but rot. Find something that interests you and just do it.The isolation got so bad, I feel like I was in a coma the past several years and just woke up. I have no idea how to interact with the world now. Don't be like me
>>84782769>I like how people are shocked whenever I give a 10/10 presentation despite my 1/10 daily social interactions.this is very relatable, i'm the same way, it's easy to perform for regular people when needed, but it brings me no joy.>>84782777you're right, but it's just destined to be when any kind of work is literal torture. I can't explain it without sounding like an edgy retard or lazy bum (which i might just be) but any kind of work just makes me feel like i'm in actual chains being forced to stare at paint dry. I can't do it
>>84782810>any kind of work just makes me feel like i'm in actual chainsoh I understand. Believe me, everything you've been saying is me, half a decade ago. But that's why I'm telling you, it can and will get worse.I don't pretend to have the answers, just not to be like me
>>84782550Me wasting my life because of a little anxiety and internet addiction.
Mmm, yeah, you gonna sizzle for daddy slathered in butter and spices in that pan, you little sexy slut? I know you like it when I soak you in that buttery concoction of pepper garlic salt and paprika.
>>84782788Haven't seen my mother since I was sixteen. That's a decade and a half.
>>84782845>Haven't seen my mother since I was sixteen. That's a decade and a half.bich fuck you
>>84782849WHAT DID I EVEN DO POTATO HATER
OOOUUUUU MY GOD I MEAN DAD YEAH DADDYYYY OOOUUUUU I I I IM GOING TO GOING TO DO IT DADDY I CANT BELIEVE IT DADDDYYYY>https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=eXuXBj-xbB8
Favorite thread up rn
Post waifus and husbandos here!!!!!
https://youtu.be/2WPD2NHgVEg?si=4kf2Lr6ftGm8nz-N
>>84782794Yeah I can't experience most somatic effects of emotion so my panic attacks found an alternate manifestation in the form of overwhelming mental visions of horrible things happening. I've had it since I was a kid but didn't even realize what it was until I was almost 30.
>>84769901>>84770494>>84772560>>84776164shit taste, tali is infinitely superior
>>84782889Have you tried like xanax or something?
>has an entire discord server she can sperg out in>still brings it into a comfy waifu thread
Why are muslims like this?
>>84779256I bet they arrest the albanians more than the others only because they look white
>>84779256How are the albanians worse than the arabs? How does this happen?
>>84782915>look whitelol i wouldn't be able to tell them apart from other mena honestly
>>84780363Based foid slayer
>>84782900nta but jews committed genocide of europeans on a genetic level, almost all european countries' genetic profile has shifted drastically except for eastern europe, but sweden is still saveable, at least compared to the other countries, because most of them don't have citizenship, but this is completely different in the uk, france, italy, spain
i'm considered attractive or moggerous or whatever by like my friends my gf my family etc and i have a twink build but i just want an androgynous face so bad instead of just being "handsome" or conventionally attractive. my face looks good with makeup my gf puts on me but i just wish i had a super androgynous face. it's still considered a "twink face" which i guess is fine but whatever idk i just wish i was more feminine because then i would be more sure of myself and not wonder if id look like an idiot for wearing my hoodie with cat ears my gf gave me.
>then i would not wonder if id look like an idiot for wearing my hoodie with cat earsThere's no need to wonder, son.
Your gf is cheating on you
>>84782938>Your gf is cheating on youwtfff
>>84782952Or is going to leave you
>>84782276Take estrogen like a real faggot
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*rip*i needed this so badly today...
>>84782139>You can separate the codeine from cocodamol pretty easily apparently but its more dangerous if you get it wrong compared to what you listedwhy? omg tell meee
>>84782130It was bad news is all I can say without wanting to die. The benzos are helping now though so life could be worse
somebody at work gave me a honey pack. has anyone tried this? is it legit? can i use it to stay awake at least.
What do you do while high? What are some of the best things to do with the experience?I honestly can't think of anything else to do other than either listen to music or watch funny cartoons. Is there anything else? Sorry if noob question, but I am a noob to this.
Come one, come all, and draw.Draw things you want.Or take requests to draw others ideas.
>>84782420ooo id love that! i love seeing people's ocs, my own ocs in their styles, stuff they just enjoy drawing.. anything really>>84782484playing vidya with some friends but if the thread is still up after im done, i def will do this
>>84779847Looks cute>>84781704Man in balaclava playing drums? Pic is reference.
>>84782635you now, vs you in a few years. remain locked in big dog. btw i appreciate your art, i learned a little.
>>84782783added to the list for when i am free to draw again ^^>>84782904i will make it!!! im trying my best to keep up with it. walking a 1-2 miles on days i dont go gym. and thank you!! always happy yo see and help other artists
>>84782972>added to the list for when i am free to draw again ^^Cool, thanks
>Spend literally almost a month watching all of Naruto including fillers, all day everyday.>Spend a week 14-30 hour days playing a sim game>Spend 11 hours edging in a row>Mountain of trash piled up in my home>Procrastinate for 9 hours about going to get groceriesI hate myself
>>84782923>30 days of 16 hours a day VR narutothis is how they torture prisoners in cia blacksites in 2026
>>84782876What was the SIM game?
>>84782932it'll be good
definitely an anime that's better when you're younger
>>84782876your immense autism and dedication are nothing to scoff at... you, my friend, have potential. once the ball gets rolling with you, you can keep it rolling, almost indefinitely. you just need to get the ball rolling for something productive, that you also like. for example, drawing, boxing, running,reading, writing. other stuff, probably.
>*jumps out at you from under the covers*>BOO>ha anon you should have seen the look on your face>I'm sleeping in your bed tonight honey>...because I've been lonely since the divorce and I want someone to cuddle with>come on anon, it's been soooo long since we cuddled>I'm your mother and it's my apartment, I can sleep wherever I want>what, you're too cool to sleep with mommy now? after all those nights you would sneak into my bed after a nightmare when you were little, I think you owe me>do you really want your mommy to spend another night sad and alone, don't you love me?>oh baby, you're so sweet>so anon how's it going with what's-her-name are you still seeing her?>it is too my business! you're young, naive, impulsive, and horny, and girls can take advantage of that, as your mother I just want to protect you *giggle*>no, I can't sleep with a shirt pants or a bra, it chafes me>on no, a woman's bare chest, oh the horror! grow up anon>are my big saggy old boobs that gross to you anon? how could you say that to your own motherComment too long. Click here to view the full text.
>>84778658Also repost them on /mcg/ so i won't miss em
Disappointing mommy she should've teased anon with the memories of nursing him as a baby and actually do it.
>mother, you are making me very uncomfortable and I would appreciate it if you respected my boundaries
>>84778658Lorna Morgan BTW
these scenarios are only hot when the mom is hot and not some walled dumpy old hag like 99.9% of middle aged foids
i fucking hate my life, im such a boring person and nobody wants to be my friends, here i go thinking that maybe if i befriend the loner i could maybe have a friend but once her life gets better and she finds a new friend group she straight up ditches me like nothing and then participates in mocking me saying "its just humour bro" not even social rejects want to be friend im just some fucking filler whos there until someone better comes along, im never gonna experience any of this man, this is fucking delirious i hate this, God just kill me already, why did he have to make me so boring, its humiliation to talk about any of your hobbies or interests for five minutes just for the other person to be visibly bored and uninterested, just a waste of time i should just go into social isolation, this is just a humiliation ritual , i dont know if its my fault or theirs, i dont try to be too nice or too mean. i think i should just accept it that im a fucking loser and get away from people, they piss me off anyway
what kind of music do you listen to? what are your favorite bands/artists? im curious bros
>>84779612I've been listening to a lot of Bach. Before that, I was listening to a lot of late 19th to early 20th century music.
Gay nigger rap, it's actually legit.https://youtu.be/Sy2_dWSXYCohttps://youtu.be/31m5TiYk19shttps://youtu.be/MyWTeYHTOgU
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=wsevTsGvJg4I have only watched episode 1 of lucky star btw.
Old Japanese stuffhttps://www.youtube.com/watch?v=VDuDQNkSC6g
>>84779612https://youtu.be/tMY9vRxSqcYhttps://youtu.be/0sR7t6hQLZwhttps://youtu.be/1xTiw49PRI4https://youtu.be/lQTvKnX8XK4
>make thread on /pol/ saying fuck whites>banned >thread saying all non whites should be exterminated is allowedHow come the pro free speech right likes censoring the opposition so much?
>>84782527Because we dont want your bullshit here. You guys have reddit and practically the entire internet censored to match your views. We dont want this place to become like the places you pollute with your filth
>>84782622why not allow both views instead of only allowing minority genocide threads?
>>84782527white racebait threads stay up all the time. they banned you for making a shitty and unfunny thread.
>>84782527>>make thread on /pol/ saying fuck whitesWas a Blacked meme attached to your post? Be honest.
>>84782527I'm as pro free speech about as much as lefties are. How's that?
Be nice to each other, boys :)Old thread: https://desuarchive.org/r9k/thread/84769071/
>work manages to be the best part of the day just because I don't have to think about my life
Well. Anyone still wanna rape my fat ass before bed or no?
>>84782859Can I just fuck your ass instead? I'm not big into rape.
>>84782918Same thing difference
>>84782947Okay then sure but just lay on your side so I can fuck you while spooning I don't feel like getting into any positions.
Kinda crazy to think Runescape has a growing player base and is breaking all time high player counts constantly. I bet a huge portion of the player base were born after the game's release at this point. Its like they perfected the MMO experience and no one has been able to replicate it.
>osrs is considered a perfect MMOsad state of affairs for mmo niggers
>>84782785What happens to my in game character when I die irl? Are they going to delete me eventually because I'm useless data on a server :/
I'm sure more people play Tetris now than in the '80s.
>>84782843Tetris doesn't require the time investment that OSRS requires.
>>84782785It isn't even that good. It's about as overrated as World of Warcraft. At least RuneScape doesn't have gay tranny script writing I guess. Play good old MMOs with private servers like Asheron's Call, Minions of Mirth, MOULa (the Myst online game), SMT: Imagine, and obvious picks like Ultima Online and EverQuest private servers.
I wish I wasnt such an ugly, low IQ manlet. This is genuinely life on ultra nightmare mode. God created me for nothing more than torture and constant humiliation/pain.
