I have no real friends to turn to or confide in with anything, just a bunch of acquaintances that don't give a fuck and never invite me out to stuff, even when I invite them to stuff half the time they say they're busy or whateverThought it was gonna get better after high school but I'm two years into uni and still fucking hate life and being an autistic piece of shit and am where I was 3-5 years ago except that instead of being 16, I'm nearly 21 and have wasted 5 years just doing internet and not working on my goalsDon't even get me started on being a fucking khhv man, girls don't like passive hurt people like me but reading all this redpill stuff about being alpha and dominant is fucking soul crushing and I don't want anything to do with it, I just want to be able to be myself and be loved for that
Damn, that sounds rough. I met my life-long friends around 20-24, they made the rest of the decade well worth it. My advice despite that? Do not give up hope OP. One of my friends at the time was in his late 20s, just figuring out life, and now he is in his early 30s rocking it to the point that it has become a running joke amongst my friends. High-school is the worst time to find likeminded people, and your BA / undergrad is like high-school 2.0. Keep going until you find an area that is your own and a group of people who are your own.
>>64710886Thanks for the kind words anon, I'm glad you and your friends made itSorry for sounding like a little bitch but I'm just really tired of feeling alone and depressed, and my head is telling me that it's only gonna get worse from here on out, what with wagecucking after uni is done and all
>>64710833You need to find a way to persist despite having your soul crushed in the meanwhile. Let loose.
I just want to scream into the void because no one really cares, and you'll be my void /r9k/.Do you know that feeling where you just want to talk your heart out so you write down ten paragraphs but end up just deleting it all and feeling completely empty. Does anyone else feel like every year gets worse than the last one, no matter what? I feel like I mentally and physically hit the bottom and just as some time passes I realize that bottom wasn't actually THE bottom, just another step downwards. And it's complete mental torture not to be able to escape your own condition because of laziness, fear and plain old idiocy.Thanks for coming to my blog, vent away robros.
>>64710559Thanks for letting us be your void anon. I have a virtual diary, I like it being virtual because it's easier for me to type over writing physically, it's more private and I like associating images with my feelings. I don't often delete my vents.I feel like my life has been pretty downhill, but I still hold onto hope no matter how naive it is because it's all I have. I think 2022 will be a nice year for no other reason than the numbers look nice together, harmonious even. I hope next year will be good for both of us.
space is pretty cool bros
>>64710559>vent away robrosThanks, I actually just come from a situation that merits some screaming-into-the-void.Fuck you, dad. Why the fuck do you ALWAYS think you're in the right no matter the context? Not everyone and everything works the exact same way, so why the fuck do you insist on getting a word in no matter what's being talked about?Pray tell, you fucking nigger, when's the last time you were /wrong/ about something, according to you? Did you make a poor judgement when choosing all of your now ex-girlfriends? You kept telling them to get a psychologist because "they were crazy" and you STILL wonder why they all dumped your ass mere months after starting therapy, almost like fucking clockwork. Are YOU never the problem?The prospect of nature ever taking over nurture and making me as retarded and deranged as you are today will definitely make me lose sleep at some point, maybe tonight, maybe in 5 years.If there's one thing I must thank you for, though, is the fact that you have successfully pushed my cowardly ass a little bit closer towards finally jumping off a fucking skyscraper.Fuck it, I'm hungry.
>>64710575hackerman.jpg and feelsBadMan.jpg>>64710599a virtual diary is cool but I like the feeling of going through a real diary, feeling the pages and seeing all the scribbles and what not. It gives off a certain roughness that you can't get digitally( I realize that I sound like an angsty art student that thinks he's so deep)Hold on to that hope anon, it's the only thing we can always count on. And I hope 2022 will be a great year for you.
>>64711050True, I didn't think of little scribbles. Too paranoid my family would find mine, so virtual it is.
Incel, learn humility.
>>64710331I'm not an incel but noI'm humble at the right momentsbut not for non caring assholes that want to manipulate and use me as they pleasemost people are like that so basically just no
>>64710331Yes Goddess, please teach me humility.
>>64711021this t.b.h
Hey, I'm a twitch tittystreamer you definitely would have heard of, and honestly my life is so much better than all of yours>Start stream>Thousands of losers like you all tune in to watch>Idiots immediately start throwing bits, donating and subscribing literally just because they can see the tiniest bit of my cleavage>Spend 3 hours doing nothing but hanging out in my room, very occasionally answering chat>Pretend I need to get something so I can bend over>Donations skyrocket>"Okay that's it for today guys byeeeeee">Collect a MINIMUM of $8k for doing this>Go through to the next room and give my boyfriend a blowjob so he orders us food and buys us some weed>Do it all again the next dayHow does it feel knowing I've had more success in me early twenties than you'll have in your entire life literally just because I have decently sized tits? Lol
>>64705527Finally something to do with my life, pls no coomthulu.
>>64705527Dapadodippity day
>>64705527Rolling for god rolling for life.
>>64705000What is your name I want to give you money?
>>64705527rolling lets hope i dont get raped
>start taking antidepressants>can't stop smiling or laughing at random shit>family thinks i'm weird
lirl (laughing in real life)
>>64709153Shut the fuck up stonefag degenerate
>>64710110Not a stonefag, just commenting on how "can't stop smiling or laughing at random shit" is not a typical antidepressant effect. Sounds like OP is high as opposed to meaningfully cured but I guess we'll see
When I took it I only felt happy in the first day, probably because of placebo.Then I went back to be a bitch
>start taking danabol>can't stop smashing shit and yelling
Just found out my favorite drink today- piss cheap scotch (vodka-tier, cheaper than laphroaig). I don't like beer because it makes me fat and bloated from the gas. I don't like vodka because I drink it like water and don't even realize I'm getting drunk, it only works as a complement to a main drink for me. Wine kinda works but it's still sugary and fattening and I kinda don't dig it. Sorry for making you read something but I just wanted to share this momentous event in my life history with someone. I'm not an alcoholic but I watched a film once and I aspire to be one.
>>64710924>I'm not an alcoholic but I watched a film once and I aspire to be oneretard
>>64711027*artistic alcoholic, I meanNo fucking way I'm getting through university elsewise. It's dignifying, I choose to take the option that preserves my sanity.
>compose an entire song in my head>open up DAW to create it>can't remember any of it
>>64709782its one of those cringe things where the only way you can get good at doing it is by doing it.To start with, try copying the "structure" (A section, B section, Bridge, etc) of a song you like, and use it as a guide/stencil to make your own
>>64709656get a small recorder so you can make notes for yourself
>>64709919You mean one those little plastic flutes. I don't see how that would help.
>>64709669It happens to me once a month but I have no Idea how to make music lole
>come up with a 2 bar long phrase>no idea where to take it or how to turn it into something longer
>Tfw born too early to escape the suicide inducing era of capitalism
>>64709600>Capitalism is doing fine, but America isn'tWhy anon? Because we choose not to participate in cucked social policy, because we actually care about the prices of housing, food, ect. I read Europe has been experiencing particularly bad brain drain by the US because they can't keep shit together enough.
>>64709759HAHAHQHAHAHAHAGAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAH MUTTS ARE SO-FUCKING-STUPID HAHAHAGAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA>GRRRR WE MAY BE PLAGUED BY BLACKS AND CRIME BUT ATLEAST NO MUSLIMS AMMIRITE FELLERS?!?!?!?
>>64709775>>GRRRR WE MAY BE PLAGUED BY BLACKS AND CRIME BUT ATLEAST NO MUSLIMS AMMIRITE FELLERS?!?!?!?Are you suggesting we were supposed to kill off all the blacks after slavery ended? Deport them to Brazil or something? You know, America doesn't have a gun or crime problem, it has a black problem.
>>64709865No, you put them back on the boat, dumbass. "Oh, we took you, and now, you're staying." Good one
>>64705502We must form anarchist communes across America
what's even the point of this board? 4chan is now more of a semi-serious discussion place for outcasts who can't handle heavily moderated forums/platforms. the desu spam of the 00s is now long gone, I rarely see copypasta on other boards. why keep it around?on an unrelated note, after not visiting this place for a few years, it's nice to come back a few times and not immediatley get visually inundated with tranny porn. keep it up
>>64710510Funny it's now filled with incel spam
>>64710672that preceded the tranny spam if my memory is correct. and at least it isn't just constant tendies/reee/kill all women type shit, it seems like people offer counterpoints and actual discussions take place
>>64710510berry kute kitties>>64710627Also kute!
>>64710737Are we on the same board? Every discussion ends in "get fucked roast" if you don't completely placate their meme views.
>>64710510>can't handlewhy do femoids and plebbitors immediately apply this to everything they don't like?
>see feminine cock>get bonerWtf, I'm not even gay. Why is this attractive
>>64710516Just wait till you feel that dainty little girlcock pulsing out a dainty teaspoon of cum into your mouth. Lovely.
>>64710516If see a cock and get a boner, you're gay. Sorry fren, I don't make the rules
>>64710516Is actually pretty common around straight males to get an erection looking at a woman with a cock because you like the femenine form and the cock serves as a way to self-insert. Needless to say if you get a full erection looking a naked male penis you are probably gay.>>64710746Women don't even like cocks and if you don't know about the gynephilia-androphilia spectrum shut the fuck up
anime girl cocks are where it's at
>>64710516a cock is a cockyou are very gayenjoy your eventual AIDS
What is the religion of /r9k/?
>>64709048Preach your religion anon, spread the wisdom, enlighten us.
>>64709334Well if you want to live like the angels then the monastery is the place for you.
>>64708129NONE FUCK YOU N IGGERN NONGEEDEEEEE HUEHEUHEUE HUEHEUE I VELEEEEEE DA9IHADBNANPDFAIOG7UDEAOAETGFGJO JWEFG
>>64708129Atheist extinctionist and it's coming true.
>>64708129Technically Buddhism but I take advantage of the "learn your own truth" aspects so it's a very personal sect: notably utilitarian, uncaring, and harsh in its doctrine.
what am i doing anymore i work to eat and i eat to live just to live a meaningless life i have no reason i have no goal i dont need to be here and i dont want to either all my friends are dead or gone my mom is somewhere and my dad died from heroin and all the relationships ive been in ends with the girl leaving me for a better guy, nothing really matters anymore, does it
So I got an escort and now I'm afraid I probably got hiv what do I do?
>>64710817you still have plenty of time, just get to hospital holyshit lol. the faster the better. :D however the chances are still low for men even if shes infected, hopefully it was just vaginal and oral sex and not anal sex....
>>64710845https://www.hiv.gov/hiv-basics/hiv-prevention/using-hiv-medication-to-reduce-risk/post-exposure-prophylaxis
>>64710845>not anal sex....whats worse about anal?
>>64710845I just pray im not unlucky I get unlucky with a lot of things in life now Im just hyper paranoid
>>64710869nothing, just like 2-8x more chance to get hiv compared to vaginal or oral.
you should cut down porn usage
>>64707370she looks good, probably slightly above average for someone her age but at the same time its a social media pic
>>64707370I''m mainly attracted to a girls body over her face so post urs if you want my opinion.
>>64704486What does Tessa have to do with that?
Anyone else here has had progressively degenerating fetishes as the years of porn usage have gone by? It's been a slow descent into hell for me, the things that would get me diamonds in a hornyness frenzy when I was a teen now do absolutely fuckall to me.
>>64704486You know what. I've been very stressed out lately. I'll just learn another language instead of masturbating all day thinking about my ex friend
Why haven't you gotten a tat of your favorite animu character?
>>64709834I want to sniff Tomoko's stinky feet! Also I have NHK tattooed on my arm.
>>64709834eat a sandwich bitch
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>>64709834Level 22 Skeleton arrive
>>64709834HahahahahabaOmg. Fucking autistic
