hopes and dreams editionqott: besides tranny related goals, what do you want out of life?prev:>>42189189
>>42205605it's like i'm back in /repgen/
life would be so great if i wasnt insane. And funny for me im only insane because as a kid i had impulse issues and i decided to hate myself for and repress all my urges forever but now i have executive dysfunction issues and also i look male. it’s unfortunate. it happened worst when i was in second grade at a birthday party and i was dancing around someone’s table and holding balloons and generally yelling cause i was obnoxious and then i accidentally knocked down a beautiful crystal vase . I also once hit the older boys in the neighborhood with a hockey stick and they got disgusted with me after that but it was only cause i couldnt process my attraction and i wanted them to get away or maybe they were being rude to me i dont remember. either way i wish my parents moved and also maybe divorced so i could have had a fresh start and been a youngshit i waited my whole life for a fresh start before i could be me again right but jt never came so i never could be and eventually i started estrogen after giving up and losing my entire old life but im still in the same apartment only im old now and i look like a twink instead of a arthoe theyfab redscare girl with an email job in nyc
>>42205605why can't I be a masculine guy who takes dangerous hormones?
>>42205605Why can't you silent instead of asking retarded questions?
i imagine it sucks for them tho but they prob always got someone who looks even worse
>>42204039anonette if that's you fix your style, your styling is really really bad for passing.
>secured a gooner from this op image>get called a twinkhon>3 monthsygmi, and if ygmi it means igmi, winning.
>>42204216>got groomed at 17You know, somehow i don't feel so bad about being a weird manmoder anymore, i have the world of science and a boyfriend to keep me distracted anyways. At a certain point it becomes a point of pride to see your own shadow and it looks like a comic book hero, knowing what you are is somehow that thing and internally feminine at the same time. I suppose it still stings a little, but so do many other things.
>>42204377thank you. i know. i had my hair in a ponytail for the pic and im trying to style my brows but idk how.>>42204385i hope so. but my midface is super long.crazy how some guys hate thread got more attention than my og one... ygmi 2
>>42204124>>42204176>>42204261>>42204473oh i just posted ur face cus it was the easitest pic to get. no offense
Thread for any letter as long as you are 30 or older. Discus life, complain bout younger people, doompost, or anything else.At the end of this year, there will no longer be millennials in their 20s, by next year, the first 30 year old zoomer will exist.
>>42205408>FIREReddit nonsense
>>42205423>t. jelly
>>42205448>My life feels less meaningful than ever.So jelly lol
>>42205218i'll just shave it once my hairline recedes sufficiently
>>42205218Hair dye?
>qott: >t: do you let your body hair grow?>chaser: what's your limit on body hair?
>>42205960i use chaser in a general term i do prefer transbians
>>42205947you are the bottom faggie tranny, you should be the one to write it down
>>42206026Fine, my discord is @eatingennards
i pray to God i'll never be that desperate to the point of adding braith on discord
>>42206064Awww tell me how you really feel about me baby~ I won't tell anyone if you don't~
My soul is male. I aspire to be a successful man, with all the stereotypical qualities: stoical, unapproachable, strong, assertive, dominant.I don't value typical feminine traits like compassion, empathy. They are foreign to me. I think I might be narcissistic.However, I have terminal AGP, even since before puberty. I never craved sex with anyone as a guy. Instead I only ever wanted to be feminine, be seen as sexy, pretty and cute, be submissive. Sex would only be interesting from a submissive female perspective.Likely due to AGP, I developed dysphoria regarding body and facial hair, brow bone, skeletal structure, etc. I hate that I allowed it all to masculinize. I can't imagine letting this happen further.After years of repression, I began experiencing anxiety attacks about my masculinizing body and face. I started HRT 3 months ago at 21. I still have decent chances at passing, maybe even without FFS.Yet, every week, every injection, feels like another small defeat. Pushing me further away from the successful man I could've been, and towards living as malebrained faketrans. I don't want this to happen. I want to stop, and embrace the masculinization. But I can't. AGP and dysphoria won't let me.I don't want to desire being pretty and feminine. I want to singularily desire being useful and productive. As the man I truly am.How can I convince myself to stop HRT, despite enjoying it's effects?
>>42206074Exactly how I feel but I haven't started yet. Really fucking sucks It would be nice to be comforted and helped to feel better
>>42206074Idk surely there's some guides out there on how to stop agp
Real women? In my 4chan?
>>42206074Sounds like a question for reddit
>>42206122The question is: Who / what am I? A narcissistic male that can't allow himself to depend on other people for happyness (i.e. girlfriend), and therefore as to become his own girlfriend?Or someone with a deeply misaligned brain structure that won't ever be happy as a guy, and just repressed everything female since childhood due to social pressure. There is an argument to be made for both.>>42206140There are a few. But looking at the (reddit) profiles of the ppl that posted them, it's nearly always clear that they just temporarily deluded themselves into believing to have beaten AGP. As in it always comes back, and the suffering is permanent.
Sometimes... i get consumed by my anger....... it makes me feel like an agent of vengeance.... its so hard to resist it sometimes... the frustration the anger... I also.. seem to be addicted to confrontation.i like being anti social.. i enjoy scaring people. I like their fear, cherish it... i consume it... i am essentially a force of domination.. i was born to dominate... . I enjoy taking people's arguments apart, i like embarrassing them in front of others, neutralizing them... stripping them bare until they are pure, reduced to a pebble underneath me...
>>42199401What had she done that is so bad? I generally like her threads when I see them. I did see a few where she was talking about touching herself to someone she met that kind of rubbed me the wrong way. Is she actually bad?
>>42203221she makes rape jokes, harasses people, threatens them, spams (and it *is* spam when there's like 3+ threads with the same nonsense at the same time) the board with offtopic shit all the time
>>42199212You should probably use this image to illustrate your posts instead of an image of a cute anime girl sweety
>>42205827why the fuck did you bump the thread? are you retarded?
>>42203221>>42205789>>42205827these get her wrong and misunderstand her and masterbation is normal and i think that if she felt bad about she clearly cares idk there is just one anon who doesn’t like her and is probably samefagging whatevs i will defend her till i die idc you miss the point she is chill and funny just has a unique nuance about her stay mad and get filtered she is one of the best posters rn nyaaaaa
>when asked, 76% of finns accept transwomen as women>the finnish language lacks gendered pronouns, and in spoken finnish people refer to everyone and anyone as "it", so whether you're talking about a cup of coffee or a person is entirely context dependent>almost nobody uses the words for "sir" or "madam" even in service jobs, as it is considered outdatedwhy not move to finland? its the promised land of troons.
>>42205775as i thought, you don't voicepass. it's giving autistic moid. calling it clocky would be generous
>>42205892i have a point as to why that is, but I need to know something for that. Is finnish your native language?also i'm not the anon who was talking about doing a vocaroo.
>>42205905finnish isn't my native language, no. i don't think finnish cis women have different vocal cords than women from the rest of the world tho
isnt finland importing a lot of brown people
>>42195822lmfao
Why do so many ftms succumb to their fertile pink wombs?
>>42205879I'm not the king of foldering tgirlsAnd I do NOT fetishize them
>>42202848It feels good to touch/have someone else touch your genitalsSounds fake but it's true
>>42205945You’re right, you’re the queen
>>42206021Still untrue, other folderanons have hundreds of more pics than I do
>>42206083But non of them have the succulent lips given to you by the lord himself
I don't think fetishization/chaserism is that bad. Typically, when I fetishize someone, I feel a very strong sexual attraction to them. Combined with certain personality traits of them, it makes me want to love, cherish and protect them forever. Heterosexual sex is mostly fetishism, the concept of a wife and her physical appearance in contrast to her husband is more attractive than the actual woman and such. Therefore, chaserism is more or less typical straightness.
>>42204934Are you that misogynistic trooncell who wants to hurt cis women? You have nothing positive to give us if you are
>>42204991Please keep doing what you're doing. There's not enough people like you in the world
>>42204889they are mentally ill and think they should expect the same a 8/10 cis woman would
>>42204421gay men with long hair will cry about anything.https://www.tiktok.com/@maid.satinfairy/video/7576295820459396365
>>42205220>self-positioning as the enlightened exception - "every once in a while i am hit by a desire to at least try to give a good word to another tranny struggling" (quasi-spiritual calling vibe) or "occasionally some nona is being helped by something i wrote" (focus on own words as the saving force)>soft bootstrap narrative as universal truth - "a lot of it is the result of putting in the work and learning to enjoy the journey. and a lot of that is under the control of the individual" plus the classic "if even one nona considers that, then at least i did some good too">humility as a shield - "am i being too naive? be honest"invites criticism but makes it feel like kicking someone vulnerable>escalating to moral/cosmic stakes when pushed - "if nobody even tries, then the void wins">burke paraphrase about good (wo)men doing nothing - "i just want more happy trannies. is that really so bad?">externalizing failure to communicate onto audience/environment - "it'd soon be flooded by gigacommies and more crabs in the bucket"the overall tell is the constant subtle contrast between "me (successful, altruistic, seeing clearly)" and "you/them/this place (struggling, bleak, crabby)". it's wrapped in care and emojis, which hides the hierarchy even more.i get the esl angle, i have the same issue a lot. understand that this is what someone might gather from what you're saying even if that's not your intention. i'm not saying they're right, i'm saying you aren't communicating effectively enough that what you're trying to do actually succeeds.
New Year's Editionprevious: >>42044782 >>42079478 (died prematurely)Goal of the thread: Consider the things you want to improve or accomplish, whether long- or short-term. What small steps can you make towards those goals?Daily goals can be repeated. Remember to keep score, it can only go up!>What is this thread for?Getting better is hard, and sucks. A lot. It does not get easier doing it alone.Share resources and experiences with combating depression, anxiety, personal issues, achieving or maintaining a healthy weight, etc.>Why is this thread /lgbt/?Struggles with mental and physical health are an indisputable part of /lgbt/ life, be it from dysphoria, social pressure, heartbreak, or just unfortunate lifestyle choices.>Notes to consider:Please be civil. Shame is your greatest enemy in fighting urges of self abuse (be it sh, drugs, or just self deprecation). Relapsing into bad and unhealthy habits is to be expected, the goal is to increase the average amount of time it takes between relapses. Any improvement is a victory no matter how small. Your worth and right to get better are non-negotiable. And most importantly:WE ARE NOT THERAPISTS, WE DON'T REPLACE MEDICATION>Note on adviceComment too long. Click here to view the full text.
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>>42198374>Just so I get it, is it about, like, a Ba thesis?Not a thesis, but the research was supposed to replace some elective credits I needed to graduate with my bach degree. I signed up for a class with this contingency in mind, but by the time I got to it, I was already on the waitlist. I'm hoping he just forgot, or something, but after telling me, he was going to send me the information the Friday after the semester ended (and never actually doing that) I haven't heard a peep. If the guy didn't want me in his lab or working with him, he could have just said so already, I wouldn't be offended. I mean, he approached me, he took me to his damn lab and everything. It's also possible I dodged a bullet, there was some weird shit about it all.>Hm, how many hours of sleep do you get with that schedule? Did you try going to bed earlier?Probably about 8-10 hours, depending. Tried going to bed earlier, but ended up reading a bit to try to turn make myself tired. *Oops!* spent 2 hours reading an account of an arctic expedition from the 19th century. Silly fucking me.>Look out for points of friction.Strength training is just miserable for me, I'm not naturally athletic or muscular. Cardio is an easier sell and makes feel ecstatic. I guess getting the clothes is the first thing, having some water, setting up myself with some music, and then getting a timer going if needed. Psyching myself up is the most arduous part. My pullup bar is in my yard, so it's a little inconvenient to have to go out during winter, and constantly having to have the clothes to run outside is a bit fucking annoying.>leverage the social aspects you talked about itIt's harder for me. Not really knowing anyone in the area anymore, having to go far to see cool shit, being firmly against most social media, having a strange sense of humor, and having fairly atrophied (if they were ever developed) social muscles makes it difficult. The degenerate sleep schedule doesn't help.
>>42203939bowump
>>42198186>Oh, sadly not, I am aiming for it and more or less applied for just that, my chances are slim though, and my perspective is shifting rapidly.Ah, okay. It's still amazing how far you've gotten. Good for you. I am jealous.>I am growing increasingly tired of the FrenchI am also tired of the French!
>>42162119I did it, /sig/. I got the FFS that I worked 4 years to pay for, right after starting HRT.The results are mostly ok. I don't pass mostly, but it's better than it was.2026 will (hopefully) be the year of working out, and maybe saving for VFS. I'm too lazy to voicetrain unfortunately, I don't think I can bruteforce my way through that.I should probably start changing my docs as well.Things are kinda rough financially due to the surgery itself + some unexpected expenses afterwards. But things will be okay.
I regularly come to this board to remind myself that I am not a tranny. Seeing how horrible gender dysphoria really is always reassures me that I'm just overly dramatic and feel nothing like it. I'm really sorry you are suffering so much because of mere chance
>>42197490>I regularly come to this board to remind myself that I am not a trannyThat's me a decade into repping. Or me ~3 years before I started hrt.You'll join us eventually, nona. And we'll welcome you when you're ready.
>>42204400That won't happen because I'm not dysphoric like you all. Hope your transition is going well though. Wish you all the best
>>42204461>I'm not dysphoric like you allI wasn't dysphoric either. I was just fascinated about being a woman. In the end I just wanted to try. Much to my shock, it worked really well and I'm lowkey upset I didn't start earlier.>Hope your transition is going well though. Wish you all the bestThank you. It has gone well. 14 years into it. Perhaps too well that it alienated me from the online trannies.
>>42204518I wouldn't say I'm fascinated by being a woman at all. I'm sure it is just as mundane as being guy is, and I certainly feel a sense of estrangement thinking about what it would be like. There's just sometimes the passing "what if" thought, just as I may wonder what my life would've been like if I were born somewhere else or in another time period
>>42197490Same. I was pretty convinced and even seeing a dr, then came here and giggled, now im fine with it just being AGP and me being man moder or whatever yhe words are.
i want to know if you started hrt because you gooned too hard to the idea of being the opposite sext. manmoder who gooned too hard to the idea of being a woman
i dont think so it was something that kicked in bad with puberty and i only knew of straight porn then but already had sexual experiences with boys and girls too.the irony is hrt fixed alot of my problems
>>42198509Comments like this make me not willing to post advice.I have graduated to just being a woman and that's precisely why I want to help other nonas to do just that too.It's quite unfortunate that this board has developed such a crabs in the bucket mentality.
>>42196455Can you elaborate? What is the shitty mindset you think I have?I'm genuinely compassionate to dysphorics but other than offering very practical and actionable advice on how to improve, what else can I do?>>42196469>You "really wanted" to be a woman which is different, sounds more gender euphoric than transmaxxyWhat's the practical difference?In practice transition was indeed an improvement in everything (no difference from a transmaxxer) and I stay on hrt precisely because of the result. Is that euphoric? And if yes, then what's the distinction given that transmaxxers also do it for the practical outcomes?I'm not disputing your distinction, I'm just trying to understand it.Sure, I really wanted to be a woman and I am certainly happier since I became one but it's primarily due to the benefits. I'm no longer a neet failed man, but a successful woman with a boyfriend, functional social life and finances in order.
>>42195014AAP FTM and yes. penetrating looks fun. i think porn gave me a fetish from impregnating others. also spent too long imagine myself as my favourite male videogames character and masturbating as them lol
>>42204080do you think having SRS would make you feel more authentically a woman?
are there any relatively cold countries that dont despise trannies and have a good demographic outlook anons?
>>42204264very good point, don't come to Australia
Melbourne, Australia
>>42195724I don't know how to tell you this but the only country on planet earth right now that has a good demographic outlook is Israel
>>42204352Good to know, i will bring myself and several thousand of my muslim brothers and sisters with me.
>>42204352demographic outlook also means the amount and type of people immigrating there
is it really a social contagion?
>>42205630you must pay taxes and purchase property and breed and send children to daycare you seeit's very importantthis is all very importantyou must not transition
>>42205761Could this have anything to do with systematic discrimination in employment and in many cases poor access to healthcare? Boggles the mind.>>42205872Trans people are able to do all of those things, actually.
>>42205395>watch the video>he's literally describing ROGD>"it just hit me like a ton of bricks">"it was like a massive wave"it totally isnt real though
>>42205516LMAO>>42205544oh my science!!!!
>>42205872Dont worry, john 50 has already done all that.
>be me, """straight""" tranny>be bisexual in youth>slowly lose attraction to women, but still hold on to some of it cuz AGAMP.>be content as straight tranny, happy that I could never fit the stereotype of "transbian rapehon" cuz I'm not a transbian>one day randomly get desire to have sex with another tranny>mfwI don't know how to feel about this. I still generally prefer guys but with how difficult it is to find men that are willing to even talk to me, let alone date me, I can't get this fantasy out of my head.idk if this genuine gynephilia tho cuz I still have no interest in cis women really at all. the only thing I feel looking at cis women is envy.
>transbian fetishist rapehon rapemoidi truly hope you can find a good man so you never have to subject an innocent transbian to the fact that you see her like this
>>42202962are you a man or a tranny?
>>42203057fair, I feel bad about it but I've been so brainwormed to hell that at times I can't help it. honestly I think it is partially insecurity on my part because I have a fucked up relationship to sex in general
>>42197553Y'all zoomies are too hung up on labels. Just fuck whoever you think is hot. Why do you care so much what other people MIGHT say/think?What other people think about you, is none of your business
>>42197553I get this too but only when my t gets too high what's worse is I did try topping a trans girl it's just years of hrt have made that unrealistic to happen
