anytime I seriously think about getting my life back on track my mind is flooded with >I will die in 2 weeks so it's pointless>I will probably die in a car crash soon>I will get brain cancer and die within the next 2 years so why work >i should keep rotting and maximize pleasure >rotting continues anyone else like this? my life is hell. im also gay btw
my biggest fear is that im not gonna die soon at all, that its just going to be a slog on and on, in this body i hate, as this person i hate.
no i feel like this all the time but especially when im stressed like i am now (breakup + move + return to college). alternate between this and like very well defined plans for suicide which honestly might be the move later this summer i dont rlly want to do anything anymore
>>44070056idk. i sometimes feel like that, but i don't feel much pleasure from life so i just focus on work instead. im the opposite of a hedonist i guess
>>44070056I don't get how you can have depression but also be afraid of deathI hope I get a brain tumor and die in two years
>>44070056I mean, trying will make whatever time you have left less unpleasant and more enjoyable.
the shit some homosexuals do online for attractive straight guys is so cringe inducing
wait till this guy finds out what straight guys do
>>44071504tell me
>>44071523bit of silliness
>>44071467>the shit some homosexuals do online for attractive straight guys is so cringe inducingAnd there's only one way fags can get them...
>>44071619bro i can see a nipple you might be in trouble
I'm an FtM transbian that loves chubby straight tranny holes eating and fucking and tranny tits. I love fucking tranny ass but above everything I want to fuck SRSussy and keep my tranny cumdump soulmate at home to breed and love
>>44070654Mine? I'm a FtM transbian I just said
Bump
>>44071644What're you bumping for? You have your tranny already, this is just greed!
>>44069721i'd marry you but im underweight lole
>>44070386oh i got excited for a second </3 back to being an unlovable fat tranny
>be me, 19 yo cis m>generally doing well in life, if a bit empty feeling at times>periodic feelings of dysphoria about once every two years since about 13>feelings last only a week or two before entire subsiding>most recent bout of dysphoria started 3 weeks ago but is not subsiding >intense despair seeing facial hair, adams apple, etc >hang out with mtf friend >wish I could be like her so badly, admire her confidence and self actualization >spiraling for the last week over the feelings, praying it will all go away againgenuinely fucking terrified about this situation. I am not trans, maybe mild agp, but not like genuine, lasting dysphoria. it has always gone away without doing anything. I just want things to subside like before, but each day feels more intense than the last. not sure what I am or what to do
>>44063221I'm so sorry
>>44063221>periodic feelingssighone more timeare these feelings truly occasional or are you so used to being out of touch with your own feelings that you have a hard time identifying the things you feel that aren't extreme rage/sadness?if you think ((the thoughts)) outside of one of these "periods", does it really bounce off of you, or are you actually just really good at dissociating from your personal feelings and steering yourself away from ((the thoughts))? Can you describe a busy, content life of actual interests and relationships, or are you simply staying so busy that you don't have time to check yourself internally?
>>44063221yeah same. its always there but mild and spikes hard every couple of years. also gets way worse every winter and kinda fades in summer. this lasted well over a decade lol it doesnt go away >mild agpthats trans you goof>>44063276>do you feel like hrt has helped you? if so, how?it fixed literally everything. >>44063276>it would fuck up my whole lifeyeah it would, but its really just in a different way. living a fake life is equally difficult. trust.
>>44067267between the acute episodes, I mostly just ignore any residual dysphoric thoughts. it's not like the feelings are totally gone between episodes, more that they just feel like intrusive things in the back of my mind rather than genuine desire to change my genderI am genuinely pretty successful. doing well in my (fairly prestigious) engineering program. exercise regularly. im not super social though. feel weird and awkward talking to ppl so I mostly just work ahead in my textbooks during freebie>>44068011the mild agp i was referring to is the preference to shave my body and face daily, not like actual dysphoria. also I know a fake life wouldn't be ideal, but genuinely transitioning is not an option even if I were actually trans. it wouldn't fix my body but I would be completely discarding my relationship with my family after they've been extremely kind my whole life. i couldn't live with myself that way
>>44067206is it over for ppl like this? in a similar situation
My transition failed and I regret hrt
>>44069736hi
>>44069736which do you regret more?>starting hrtor>being born black
>>44069928Go away
>>44069736Get off the stuff. The sooner the better.
>>44069736Same nona, same
Would it be weird or wrong to want chaser friends as a tranny? It's kinda hard to make friends with cis men and I miss the few male friends I had throughout the years
>>44071586i would do it if they can accept i won't go out with them but that kinda feels like using people for attention and i don't wanna do that
>>44071586no, go for it. we're affirming and know the lingo already. I made one true long term tranny friend and she was the one I met under the most platonic circumstances where all the trannies I've added from flirting/horny contexts all end in disappointment
>>44071609That's what I'm conflicted about, because I don't want to use them or create expectations.>>44071621I don't even care about being affirmed as long as I'm not expected to change how I am
>>44071633>>44071633>I don't even care about being affirmed as long as I'm not expected to change how I amnot sure what you mean by that, friends shouldn't expect you to change how you are. I'm guessing you had a specific experience with that if. still I say go for it, chasers need friends too
avoid the incel-type chasers and you'll be fine. i find the hot experienced chasers don't make things weird because they are not desperate, and you can actually make genuine friends with them
>Bud Light sales and volume continue to struggle, and the brand has never fully recovered from the 2023 consumer boycott. It permanently lost its status as the top-selling beer in the United States to Modelo Especial and remains roughly 40% below its pre-boycott sales levels. Would this have happened if they had sponsored Hunter Schafer instead of Dylan
Transphobia is a net positive because it's convinced less alcoholics to continue ruining their lives by consuming this liquid garbage. Think of all the child abuse this promo curbed!
>>44068487It didn't even need to be a hot one. Just one who could act like a human being in front of a camera and not a cartoon character.
>>44068013Yes, only Redditors like honter schlonger
>>44068013This would've happened anyway, tranny sponsorship or not. Modelo is just the objectively better beer. And I fucking love beer so I would know.
>>44068013>lost its status as the top-selling beer in the United States to Modelo Especialno one wants to admit the truth: this is a demographics issue that's been a long time coming lol. got nothing to do with trannies
Exercise Editionprevious: >>43905265 >>44000501 (both died prematurely)Goal of the thread:Daily goals can be repeated. Remember to keep score, it can only go up!>What is this thread for?Getting better is hard, and sucks. A lot. It does not get easier doing it alone.Share resources and experiences with combating depression, anxiety, personal issues, achieving or maintaining a healthy weight, etc.>Why is this thread /lgbt/?Struggles with mental and physical health are an indisputable part of /lgbt/ life, be it from dysphoria, social pressure, heartbreak, or just unfortunate lifestyle choices.>Notes to consider:Please be civil. Shame is your greatest enemy in fighting urges of self abuse (be it sh, drugs, or just self deprecation). Relapsing into bad and unhealthy habits is to be expected, the goal is to increase the average amount of time it takes between relapses. Any improvement is a victory no matter how small. Your worth and right to get better are non-negotiable. And most importantly:WE ARE NOT THERAPISTS, WE DON'T REPLACE MEDICATION>Note on adviceComment too long. Click here to view the full text.
and I havent got that catharsis in quite awhile and i'm also mad over the clothes industry as my previous boy scout switchbacks blew out (two different pairs) because "stuff is built for consumers to look gay rather than consumers to squat" - the slop generator. and it was impossible to find these pants that are actually usable gear pants because there is no fanbase for some mysterious reason, not enough of those kind who are intelligent and curious enough to be captivated by such design and quality of the uniform assigned. That or being unwilling to spoonfeed anyone what the perfect pooner pants are
It's too damned hot but I worked out anyways
Fuck summerrrr
>>44069999why is my name not summer :(
bump :3
Bottoms are property
>>44070825why can't versatiles just accept that some gay men don't want to top and some gay men don't want to bottom.Why must versatiles enforce their standards on the rest of the gay community.
>>44070993>because you were bombarded with messages from birthInteresting theory. Prove it>all gays would be vers without homophobiaProve it. I don't want to fuck a hairy man ass.
>>44070958>>44071067>gincel banned againt. fag who anons mistakenly call gincel
>>44070810And yet nobody owns me. Curious
I believe I overcame dysphoria without transitioning. Others have too, it's not an uncommon thing to read here.Why is it that when either I or others mention this, trannies ALWAYS feel the need to come in and say shit like>John 50>faketrans>Rep harder>You never had dysphoriaI'm not disrespecting your choice nor the way you dealt with dysphoria. This treatment feels belittling and disrespectful of who I am, my experience and the choice I made in dealing with my problem. Why do you have to treat this with contempt, anger and dismissiveness ?Inb4>Why are you still here thenI was confused lately about where I was after a teenagehood of confusion on my sexual and gender identity, so I made the poor choice of coming on this board and trying to talk with people to figure it out.And yeah I think I dealt with my own dysphoria pretty well, I'm good with being a man now
I kept telling that to myself and I just ended up old and hrt repping
>>44069062how do i deal with it? im 29 and its as bad as ever. hrt didnt even help really. i think im gonna do something bad soon
>>44069062at the end of the day it is your life and your bodily autonomy... dont wanna transition? then dont. but understand that not everyone is capable of just. not having a debilitating misery caused from GD. dont perpetuate this as something that is at all the norm for folk, and accept a lot of people will tell you you either are a repper who will regret it or were never fr experiencing it due to how the understanding of GD is currently. at the end of the day you are in the more privileged position, the treatment sucks but at the end of the day being cissexual is the luckier position regardless.... hope this does not sound rude peace and love
>>44069062Manifesting this, I will learn to accept that I'm a cis man.
>>44069708how long do you plan to stick around here for anyway? this board isn’t exactly conducive for maintaining your peace of mind.
"Why yes I AM a bottom how did you know?"
>>44071687Bottoms be shopping nawamsayin?
>>44071591It makes this board unusable
>>44071678Using the word meta in sentences is male brained
>>44071700Why do you type like a guy? Are you a chaser
>>44071700Yes…
my soul is absolutely destroyed at the fact i wont ever look even a quarter as attractive as either one. im thinking trooning was just a cruel joke of a lotto scratcher and the price was my sanity and happiness.
>>44071451>my soul is absolutely destroyed at the fact i wont ever look even a quarter as attractive as either one.life goes on, dude. you got a sub-par lot in life. no amount of lament is gonna make it go away. cry if you must, but don't make it your M.O. you're never gonna look back at your life and think, "Man, I'm really glad I wasted all that time needlessly moping about shit and not being productive."
>>44071451Who's the one on the left?
>>44071451She no arm??
>>44071694You may be blind, or retarded. Mayhaps both.
in honor of the brave lesbians who are out there every day surviving>QOTT: what do you do when you're alone?jannies leave my bread alone
>>44071802it’s okay bbg i understand you
>>44071802im a bit worried that getting fucked in the srsussy by a man who wants me soooo bad wont feel as good as being railed by the same man who won’t let me near the key to a flat cage that only comes off for showering and shaving
>>44071864i have the same fear...
>>44071864never gonna say this though i’ll probably take this to my grave, i gotta get this thing off of my body
i want a pent-up autistic ftm to r*pe me waaa
have you unlearned shame yet anon?
>>44066531i have very little of consequence to feel shame of any kind overim a kind and wonderful person; beautiful inside and out even despite my deformed crippled body; it sucks that i never achieved anything in capitalism but i was never in that soulless rat race to begin withi exist to love in the wonderful impassioned all consuming limerence way that i do; nothing else mattersand ive reached my purpose and make my wife the happiest beautiful girl in the world everydayi am capable of experiencing shame; recently when new meds fked me up the ladt 6mo i started feeling shame about all kinds of stupid things and my dysphoria got much worse toostarting to get back to normal now that i have a new dr that will take up my xanax so i can get back to the good stability i had a year ago; get back to my proper positive self
>>44066531people who say things like this are generally obnoxious entitled weirdos who will interpret it as a deep personal attack when you ask them to stop yelling in a restaurantgod forbid you make any effort to accommodate your self-conscious tranny friend by not drawing a bunch of attention to yourself
>>44069903im sure you arent all that
>>44069903you are delusional and view reality like a narcissistic 12 year old
>>44066531Shame is an objective good especially if ur a hon / optics nuke so no I'm not unlearning it
>Turns you trans
>>44069942WHo caRes
>>44069942all genders are my property and i use them however it pleases me
idk what this is
>>44071253It's Max Stirner
