Instead im just some weird cis man on hrt who may very well regret ever doing this sometime soon.Im not even sure why i did it, do i want to be a woman (physically or socially)? I dont actually know anymore... I used to think i might want to, i used to get jealous of women i saw, a lot actually. And in general i just thought they looked prettier than guys and were smarter and kinder and stuff so why wouldnt i?But now idk anymore, i think about whether i wanna look like or be a woman and idc anymore i think, ill probably be miserable either way. I used to think that, maybe, if i was a girl, id actually care about myself, like that, if there was a version of myself i didnt hate, it would probably have to be a girl. But now idk anymore.The worst part is that im not even certain. I have memories from when i was younger that seem to hint i might have wanted to be a girl sometimes then too. I dont wanna disappoint the little trans girl i may or may not have once been.Also, eventhough taking HRT makes me super anxious that im doing sth wrong, and that i will regret growing boobs and that i might not like them. It also kinda made me like how i look for the first time ever. Like i never took pictures of myself before or liked how i look really, now i have hundres (almost thousands) of pictures.And eventho im super anxious and scared of breast growth, i also sometimes like it, like every other day or so i notice how it bumps my clothes out a lil, or how it makes my chest look more feminine and gives me more curves. And instead of being scared and anxious about it i sometimes get a stupid lil grin on my face instead and im happy about it.I also like everything else its doing with no caveat.And yet im still anxious im doing the wrong thing. I wish i was actually trans, then i would know i wanted breasts, and i wouldnt have worry about this and could just take E without the fear of eventually regretting it or developing reverse dysphoria.
>>43641952Take it easy on yourself nona. You seem to be high on the self loathing axis (you and me both)
>>43641966This is just how I am
>>43640530>feels like ive been cursed by permanent indecision, confusion and a constant fear of doing sth wrong and its never gonna go awayliterally meeeeee
>>43640494"I wish I was" just get on hrt and start being transgender by identifying as another gender identity simple
>>43643235Im already on hrt lol. The problem is that im still not sure if this is right for me or not despite literally trying it right now.
My boyfriend said that I'm his property and I got turned on grr
>>43643489Good girl
>>43643489yaaas goon your clit sissy
>>43643489Natural Response
QOTT:Do you have a favorite geode/gemstone?What's your birthstone and do you like it?Do you believe in the healing properties of geodes?Reminder: This gen is for cis homosexual females (lesbians). All trans-related or bisexual posts are considered off-topic and should be directed to other generals or threads. No discussion of male (XY) anatomy.Discords:>OG Discord: https://pastebin.com/P644WESi>clg2 Discord: https://pastebin.com/1ct1Fcag>clg3 Discord: https://pastebin.com/emrpgWM8Previous threat: >>43499865
What's the most effective way of harassing a tranny I don't like into killing himself? He's already suicidal if that helps
>>43639692Every time you see them or make eye contact, turn away laughing
>If I go to bed and get up early, I can get my nauseous over and done with>smell eggs cookinghttps://youtu.be/REXZ0KRPAeo?si=-OPi4pbSVxxbUEsc
>>43638507fuck yeah, you're right. just when i thought it was gone for good.https://weareultraviolet.org/press/website-promoting-sexual-assault-taken-offline/rapists should kill themselves, of course, but it was (is) also a decent source of non-rapey amateur and niche porn.
will you love the tboy when it is too sore to top you? when it is too weak to do those physical acts you ascribe to masculine duty? too stupid? will you love it when it needs things from you, can't give up any more? did you ever love the tboy? or did you like having a service bot. a customizable automaton of a 'person'. good bots don't ask for things, they work and obey commands at the push of a button. when its neural network malfunctions and it doesn't automatically recognize your needs, or its voicebox is muted when it shouldn't be, remember that you can berate it or hit it or ignore it and make fun of it to your friends. it doesn't have feelings you need to concern yourself with, because it's a boy, and that t doesn't really matter for boys, it's just like the rest, the rest definitely accepts it, no matter what it tries to say, and when it breaks down realizing that it has been beat too much by the others and by the others and needs it to stop, that voicebox scrambled up filtered through pain, it deserves to be taken in the worst possible way and discarded.
>>43639005moids are very good at doing tasks assigned to them, which i mean in less of a heartless way then that statement would lead one to believe. boys are good at opening jars or whatever, sure, but more than being mindless and subservient i think it's a method of showing affection---and if it wasn't something provided by them, i doubt it'd change my opinion of a given boy that much. yes, i think men are entitled to rest and aren't defined by their use. yes, i see men as people. your bad experiences don't ring to me as universal, but i'm no expert on the male (or transmasculine) experience, and regardless, i hope you find yourself in a better situation in the future-- the priestess of yarns
Dehumanizing language shouldn't be allowed here
>>43639659I wish I could do the jar thing, that's the struggle that triggered this whole depressing rant. thought T would help but it turns out I'm disabled, not just dysphoric, and still my joints dislocate over and over before getting anything open, or when carrying heavy things. can barely work enough to pay my rent without debt let alone someone else's. even sex is too much pain for me physically unless I relax and am motionless like a doll, which isn't what people want from a guy generallyI'd like to provide. I wish I could do more. I am trying to recover my sense of self but I had a very bad relationship, very long, in which all of my failures were proof I was a man while also not living up to the expectations of one. in the beginning before it was official I told her I didn't want to be a boyfriend because I felt I would not be good at it because of my relationship before. she told me boyfriend was just a word and I was overthinking, and only a month later told me I wasn't being a good one. and I let her live with me for basically free and sacrificed sleep and money and forgave the hitting and molestation and all the ways she ruined my connections to other people and said demeaning things about the body I have or the body I wanted to have, and now even over a year after i finally cut her off I don't feel like a person that should exist when I think about being a guy. I used to be so happy about my deeper voice, and now it repulses me because she said she didn't want a voice like that around her, told me to not use that tone with her. she liked when I feminized it. softer, questioning. used to enjoy "typical" masculinity in my own way until she said she hated when trans guys "look like that". I don't want to detransition at the very least because it would make me even weaker, but it seems like an escape from that self hate and alienation even if it would make me more miserable in other ways. I don't want to be a boyfriend but I do want to love and be loved
>>43641151>even sex is too much pain for me physically unless I relax and am motionless like a doll, which isn't what people want from a guy generallyGod why is it so hot when tboys complain about feeling emasculated by their delicious feminine bodies? Like "woe is me I'm literally forced to be a breedable pillow princess and let my breasts get sucked on even though I want to be a man" *throb*
>>43643498>*throb*This is one crazy rapehon post, I'm thinking it was ghostwritten by the Queenbee herself
I will learn to accept that I am a sissy
waiiiiiit miss violetina chachkina looks sooooo xunt here i love her downnnn
>>43643083sissy?, that's fucking disgusting and weirdI'm a cute little failed male faggot which is based and cool
>>43643225fAGGOT!
I love being my Mommy's little sissy doll!
Trans women should just be drag queens and not take hrt.
I hated it when I was younger because I am was severely mentally ill and dysphoric.But I found a pic and felt a Yearn.Oops...
>>43639539>>i hate that i never got to be young.>ik zoomer mentality on youth is toxic but i highkey just did not get to be a kid at all.i had a really abusive childhood and was 'homeschooled' for most of it and i never understand ppl who feel like they missed out on childhood, is my brain cooked? or do i just not care about social standards etc and therefor am not bound by needing to 'act my age' etc
>>43641987This is a good thing and you should be glad for it. Why worry? Enjoy your life
>>43641987>i had a really abusive childhood and was 'homeschooled' for most of it same... abusive homeschooled childhood. i'm sry nona. hugs> i never understand ppl who feel like they missed out on childhoodi felt the same at first... after moving out i was in a confused daze. too worried about figuring out how to exist to care. also i think maybe that's because i thought i could have some "youth" to make up for lost time. i've grown older so fast though and haven't really done that. looking back i doubt I will.>is my brain cooked?idk your story desu. for me tho it was more than i realized.(also oof this thread is not what i thought it would be ;-;)
I was anorexic for 16 years and I don't miss it. When I was 12 a gay boy threatened to rape me because I called him creepy. Now when I see a trans woman with fat on her it makes me want to eat.
>>43642453R u mtf?
What have they done wrong?Theyre just trans women who like women right?whats so bad about that?
>>43643341teen newfag
>>43643357nta but regardless of how stupid teens(fucking hate kids) are this is infinitely less embarassing than being a grown man on 4chan(like many of the chasers on this shithole board)
>>43634988but incels dating incels when only one of them is trans is ok?
>>43643411imagine hating teens and grown man at the same time
>>43634970Here on /tttt/ everyone hates transbians cuz Blanchtard told them to. When his chaser ass came up with HSTS and AGP he intentionally designed the labels to be stigmatizing, suggesting being a straight woman is the only real way to be trans by labeling "AGP" - being a lesbian - as a paraphilia. He totally dismisses trans men, probably because he thought they were lesbians, and Western normies have always sort of hated lesbians. Normies hate transbians because they think you're being straight with extra steps. The girls just like pussy, so they get all mad at you for having a cock when they literally dont have to fuck you. The men don't like it cuz in their mind, the reason why you transed is to be a gay slut cuz their porn brained, so why aren't you gay and letting any man have their way with you?Imo this is 80% of the normie and /tttt/ phenomenon against trans lesbians.
What do you think of traditional transsexual women? Not larping as a 1950s decadent and artificial petite bourgeois "tradwife" but rather women with a true Evolian aristocratic soul. Women who lovingly yield to the might and doctrine of a cruel, wise and chivalrous noble male warrior of her blood and who deeply love their ancestral tongue, homeland, consanguineous kins and Urheimat and who practise the tradition of her ancestral faith and who prepare for the inevitable collapse of the modern world's hollow liberal rationalist secular materialism.
>>43636633Yes and? I hate nazis.
>>43629568LARPing so hard as le tradwife when you’re posting gook mobile game pornography, just jerk off next time instead of making a thread weirdo
>>43641572only because you think they're doing it wrong
>>43641808Imbecile
tranners on this board will genuinely do anything but put serious effort in and be normalalways gotta be some stupid larp shit just be a normal woman
Do people actually live in weird t4t polycules with puppygirls who don't do anything but cry all day?>You wake up at six because she had a crisis at two and you couldn’t sleep after. You lie in the dark for forty minutes after she finally goes under, watching the ceiling, listening to her breathing change. You think about how you have to be on a call at nine. You think about how the dishes from her midnight snack are still in the sink. You think about how you forgot to pay the electricity bill again, because last night you were on the phone with her other partner explaining that the puppygirl was not, in fact, going to leave the polycule, that she had said it in the way she sometimes says things when she is dysregulated, that it would pass. You eventually fall asleep at three-thirty. The alarm at six is brutal.https://pastebin.com/KVw4zLJK if you want to read the whole thing
>>43642556yes and it was hilariousshe is a major lolcow
>>43637552im a little confused by how the talk about the whole sexual dynamic hereis everyone fucking the puppygirl and telling her she's her favorite and the only one they really want? what do they say when they fuck others? that they aren't their #1 but still "fine"?
>>43637765>>43637552Here's the article before it was edited.https://files.catbox.moe/4w2oqo.txt
>>43643440>https://files.catbox.moe/4w2oqo.txtwhat was changed?
>>43637552im casual with a beautiful poly gigapassoid puppygirl, I'm not in her polycule though and im not polyamorous, i have no interest in the other members. singlemaxxing is the path to the right balance of intimacy and freedom
Feminists:>men bad, men evil, men all rapistsMen:>ok I’ll stop being a man and be a woman insteadFeminists:>nooooooIs feminism the ultimate self own?
>>43640882>this whole threadTrannies aren't beating the "scratch a troon and a foaming at the mouth misogynist bleeds" allegations. >>43641008 in particular sounds like something from Elliot Rodger's manifesto.
>>43642985OK but misogyny is correct.
>>43640953MEN BUILT EVERYTHING OMGGG yeah and the world is a shithole because of it.... lol. also enjoy the internet???? you mean how i get on youtube and theres 5 hour ads on everything? or how i get on instagram and its basically slight-diet tiktok? or when i go on porn sites and its "JUST TURNED LEGAL 0.000000000001 SECONDS AGO LITTLE TEEN SLUT WHORE CUNT BITCH GETS RAPED BY LIKE EVERY MAN ON THE EARTH"......like... what enjoyment derived from the internet? the internet is a shithole too because yall fucked it all up for PROFIT. this entire website was made by some 15 year old lolicon after CSAM was banned off somethingawful and pretty much its one of the biggest contributors to everything thats currently making the world a shithole. men didnt do shit but build everything only to ruin it. yall suck lol. get over yourselves.
>>43640955no offense but you're really ugly. i can tell by the fact that you type like a sex offender
>>43642961>I feel this way and it's your responsibility>feministchecks out... learn to take accountability before you hurt someone
I'm a transbian 14 years on hrt and I'm giving up on attempting to be normal. I'm letting depression win and fully embracing being a weird autistic shutin
What's got you down? Asking because I'm also a 14 year hrt transbian.
A good man would save your life you know
>>43643317its been a slow buildup of mental illness getting worse and rejections>>43643379I would only go straight for will graham
>>43643003tfw life is just the haves and the have nots. its a brutal blackpill. the rich get richer and the poor get poorer.
My parents hate me for being gay, so does the rest of my Christian family. I have no friends because women scare me and I dont want to become attracted to a dude because my family will kill my ass. I live alone and all I do is work, skateboard alone and smoke weed in my dingy one room apartment. I'm sorry you took the time to read this, I just need someone to see this and understand
>>43641664Nah you fine man just live your life
its your family fault for not accepting you. i came from a loving caring family. issue and ultimatum. either accept or leave them and get adopted family
>>43641664You live alone and your family already hates you what do you have to lose? They aren't literally going to kill you.
>>43641664skateboarder bf is like so hot tho u cant give up now!!! i hate not having any skater firends irl :(if yoire living alone and paying yiur own bills fuck your family u already won and can easily cut cintact if they hate you
if ur already independent why do you care? tell ur family to go kys and just talk to some new people, u sound generic asf so theres plenty of people that would hang around you (no offense lol)also "women scare me", girl - YOU SCARE THEM. stop being a pussy and go talk to girls that would never date homophobic men, theyre literally fine, nothing to be scared of
she got away with it
>>43642388One rape. ONE rape. One (1) fucking rape, and you niggers can't stop talking about her. So much for the tolerant left! So much for rehabilitative justice!
>>43642388With what?
>>43643403nothing, it's just natalie out of meth again
>>43642388she knows people
>>43643434I seriously don't know the lore between them I have no idea what's facts and what's schizo posting
Since I was very small I've had a fundamental difference in my brain that separates me from everyone else. I'm not autistic, it does look like autism though. I'm told the word is neurodivergent. I don't see myself to be the same kind of thing everyone else is. I'm not alone, but I'm not in the "normal." I didn't experience gender dysphoria until around halfway through puberty. I don't understand the circumstances of it. I became incredibly depressed around this time for a couple years. They put me on meds and got me out of it. My sexual feelings have begun to change too. I was addicted to porn for a while, but I feel less and less. I think HRR is to do with that. The two feelings quickly manifested into AGP, but my preferences have been changing. I don't find the idea of myself being feminized arousing. I also used to be purely sapphic but now I don't really fall into a group. I'm inconsistent now, and I've developed a fascination with the human body I don't think I've seen in anyone else I've met. I find illustratioms of blood and guts arousing now too. The dysphoria stayed despite the feelings of AGP leaving. Unfortunately I was a massive pussy and didn't start HRT until 17. I got unlucky with puberty and I look like a disgusting man now. I've only been on HRT for 7 months, so I have to have patience, but the effects feel like an actual meme. I know I'm not hondosing. I've begun to exercise more and fatmaxxing in hopes I can at least shift the fat around my unfortunate skeleton to at least look like a feminine girl. I probably need surgery but I don't know where to even get surgery. Whatever's wrong in my brain made school impossible for me past elementary school, so I dropped out and am trying to get a GED. The only field I'm interested in and understand is game development, but I'm still extremely new to that and I don't even know how to get my foot in the door. Is there any hope to be had for me? I can post photos later but not right now.
HRT* not HRR*. Got two sentences backwards too. Should have proof-read.
I'm making a game and I think I want to make one of the characters a christian trans girl. what bible verses do trans people like? I figured here was the best place to ask since I don't have any christian trans friends
>>43641193Just so you know op these are the imprecatory (cursing) psalms you use on your enemies, best to be sung 3 times in prayer
>>43641010Some of my favorite parts I know the verse numbers by heart, some I remember the chapter but need to open up my Bible to see what the verse numbers were, others I have to Google to remember if the part I'm thinking of was in Matthew or Luke.
>>43639194we should make a Christian 4tranner discord server
>>43639221The path of the righteous tran is beset on all sides by the inequities of the luckshit and the tyranny of endocrine
>>43639194You’re coming at this with a fundamentally protestant way of understanding Christianity. If you really want to make it realistic, base it off of Marcy Rheintgen and Pariah The Doll
