Should I stop anorexiamaxing? I’m tired all the time and sleep 12 hours a day and physically exhausted doing nothing. I can’t focus, but I lost 25 pounds in a single month and am actually starting to like how my body looks. If I go for another 2 months I eat normally again I think once my bmi goes down to 16.
Anamaxing should make me feel bad but I’ve lost 5 inches off my waist and it makes me happy
>>44259243Hell no.
>>44261060number go down happy go up
>>442610605" is a ton, I bet the visual change is huge. Good job, anon.
>>44253677I don't understand people who force themselves into being this way. I would do anything in the world to not be like this anymore. But just the thought of eating anything makes me sick
from comments https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=whHvvOjThnI>Jax makes the primary audience of this show uncomfortable because Jax forces them to confront their own misconceptions of how the world works. No one who genuinely loves the show Bojack Horseman has problems like this because Bojack Horseman is a show with a target demographic old enough to start comfortably questioning black and white morality. The target demographic of TADC is young, and victims of the constant morality contest that has been swarming the internet for the past 7ish years.>While I think an internet more willing to acknowledge wrongdoing is a great thing, I also fear that children and teens being exposed to that lightening-fast competition to identify and destroy the most "evil" creator of the week is leading them to internalize lightning-fast judgements of character, based on minimal information, as the correct way to approach morality. Jax is a fictional character on a fictional cartoon, but once again, we see people treating her as if she is a truly abusive human currently victimizing real people in our real world. People promoting media literacy and the concept that "fiction impacts reality" are being horribly misinterpreted by people too young and too disengaged to even fully process what they are being told.>Its not their fault- children have ALWAYS had wishy-washy extreme opinions based on new information. They are building their personhood and morality, and they are supposed to be testing out new ideas and beliefs. It is a healthy part of development. The problem is that they are now doing so in the public arena of the internet, and are egging each other on in their extremism. The internet is insular to the change that occurs naturally in the real world.
>Ironically, much like in TADC, someone who finds escapism from their pain in a virtual world is unable to ever truly grow. Leeroy was forced to live with the real world, the consequences of her actions, and to go through the long, dreadfully painful process of finding a way to live when you have nothing and no motivation to do so. She was FORCED to either grow or be destroyed, and she chose to grow. I cannot imagine what horrific suffering she went through to get to the other side of her lowest point, but she did it. The version of her that became Jax, after being re-triggered into her worst defense mechanisms, decided to try finding escapism in the disengagement that comes naturally in a virtual world. Even as she understood that her dissociation into a caricature was killing her soul, it still felt more comfortable than confronting the reality of her past pre-circus, and her actions post-circus.>Even as an afab nb person, I saw myself in Jax, because I truly did consider becoming a horrible person for the sake of distancing people from me. I decided I was a horrible person, so I wanted people to think I was just as horrible as I "knew" I was. It felt like it would be easier, more humane, to hurt them so badly, make them hate me so deeply, that my death would be a RELIEF to them. It was unfathomable to me that there were still people who chose to love me at my lowest point, even knowing the worst of what I had done. It was excruciating to try consolidating the truths of both my extreme self-hatred, and their ability to love me. It was excruciating because it meant there was something loveable about me that I was unable to see, and I could not figure out whether it was something real, or something I fabricated. I lost sight of who I was, and 6 years later I'm STILL putting the pieces back together.
>For someone like me, characters like Jax, Bojack Horseman, Mae Borowski, Kyo Sohma, Shoya Ishida... these characters, despite being easy to hate if you only glance at them, are a reflection on what it means to continue living after feeling you no longer deserve it. They consider what it means to decide to be a better person when you feel you were predestined to be evil.>For Jax, she is the first time I've seen one of these characters fall too far. Make a decision too final to take back. The most important part is showing that she REGRETS it. She is horrified of what she has done. She so deeply regrets that she no longer has the chance to see a future where she got better, where she accepted herself and worked through her pain. It may have been scary, painful, even worse than where she ended her own story... but she'll never know. She decided to end the book halfway through, and the rest will forever be a blank, empty reminder of what could have been. That is an IMPORTANT story to tell. It is IMPORTANT that people like me really dwell on that. It is IMPORTANT that we really consider what we could be giving up if we end it prematurely.
>I want to end my comment section essay with a poem from Bojack Horseman, "The View From Halfway Down">The weak breeze whispers nothing>the water screams sublime.>His feet shift, teeter-totter>deep breaths, stand back, it’s time.>Toes untouch the overpass>soon he’s water-bound.>Eyes locked shut but peek to see>the view from halfway down.>A little wind, a summer sun>a river rich and regal.>A flood of fond endorphinsComment too long. Click here to view the full text.
>be me, 18 year old passoid (according to others), kinda luckshit sub1yr hrt>college freshman year, yearning to meet any trans girls irl, lonely>one day, one of my friends suggests i should talk to her transfem roommate who also wants to meet other trannies>excited yay>connect over discord and have some nice conversation, follow each other on ig, and make plans to meet up in person>i show up in a cute outfit (picrel), outdress oops...>we meet up, unfortunate big passing gap, i try not to acknowledge it or let it change anything about our dynamic doe>feel genuine maternal instinct to help her pass better with all my years of experience of social transition, not in a patronizing way>we get in her car as we planned her to drive us to our location, she seems quiet and oddly cold but i keep on a friendly optimistic demeanor anyways>i try to be wholeheartedly kind but she seems upset, feeling really guilty and trying to cheer her up> i really really want to make the friendship work but my presence seems to be enough to make her feel worse>she confides in me that today was her first time going out in fem>i do what i can to hype her up, it makes me happy to know she chose me for that first moment, but it is obvious something changed in her motivation>we get there, she ends up zipping up her hoodie and hiding her crop top, i try my best to get her not to rep to no availComment too long. Click here to view the full text.
>>44257158You're too kind nona, please, harden your heart and feel no guilt nor shame. All you did was be a loving soul, there's nothing wrong in that.
>>44257158Unfortunately, miserable people are really not fun to be around. This is one of the reasons why I choose to not bother people and just be alone, but I don't like it
You mogged her OP that’s very cruel. You can’t go around mogging babytrannies
>>44257158>adv?no offense, but when i was babytrans the idea of going out with someone in public who's dressed like it's a halloween costume party would have been extremely stressful. she's already super self conscious and you're drawing a ton of attention to yourselves for no reasonalso assuming that the problem was about how you pass so much better than her is pretty arrogant. you look decently clocky especially dressed like that
>>44261093TRVKE, I didn’t even see the outfit that is clocky baby trans stuff. Maybe OP didn’t mog anyone and just made some random boymoder extremely uncomfortable by being a honfident hon…
>>44260581actually having ed is fucking horrible and it literally fucks up your entire life on a molecular level
>>44259626I'm already unloveable so what's the downside
>>44260780wat is agab?
>>44261041a grand antoxicating binnocence
>>44261081Surely don't have it
Why do trans girls like stuffed animals so much?
im not trans but im just a genuine autistic male and have way too many of them and ive had them since before getting on estrogen
>>44259819Diaper threads are Aryan cispoopa
>>44257473i like your collection, make sure to hug them a lot!
>>44259927this is what happens when you have a website whos entire culture is bragging about their youthfulness btw
>>44259819I get that this is 4chan and all, but can't some trannies just like plushies for non weird reasons?
I’m 20. Whenever I’m alone or depressed I’m pretty sure I want to be a woman but how can I be sure? Whenever I’m having a good time I don’t feel bad about it. Most of the time I think I wanna be a woman but there have been times where I’m happy with the way I look.
>>44254488holy shit just troon out, no cis man agonizes over thisplease don't end up like me
>>44257621>no cis man agonizes over thisUnless you're tocd like me.
>>44244775the DSM is highly flawed because it doesn't account for things that can make you think you have a strong desire for those things. If you meme yourself into it you are clinically the same as an actual tran which is unhelpful.
>>44258735how do u make sure this isnt the case. this feels like my only barrier right now
>>44244750man? not a boy? if I can be a girl, why not a boy? man is too extreme!
I think it might actually be in my future. Having a vagina would be so hot and wonderful. Imagining having someone rub their penis against my labia and clitoris. I want to get to feel it so bad.It want to have a guy rub himself against my prostate while stroking my breasts or clit. It would be so fun. I don't want to be trans, I just want to be explored by someone who loves me and my body. C:
A guy helping me get surgery would probably be the hottest thing he could do for me. I would be so thankful that I would want to let him it.
Is this real? wtf
>>44258224Which is a total deviation from cis black women, they never wear wigs.
>>44254756Rounder, softer features = easier to passThat simple
>>44259456I'm genuinely confused by this statement. It really depends on their relationship as a whole to their natural hair, but in my life way more Black women wear way more wigs than white women.
>>44260909wow you figured it out retard
>>44260917This isn't helping me... What did I figure out??? I'm even more confused now
Is trutrans even real? I’m on HRT but I fear that I am making the wrong decision? I am aware that in ideal world I would have been born a woman and would not be in the position I am in now, where I am doing something that I never thought I would do. I am not ugly for a man, not was I was ever that masculine. I’m 18 now. I just fear it’s not worth nuking my life and relationship with my family when my dysphoria has never been bad enough to cause me major distress. What if I have deluded myself into doing this? I know I can stop, but it feels like a lose-lose, where I have the capacity to ruin my life either way.
>>44260448im the retard you won
>>44260442because it feels foreign in my body, like an extra appendage that doesn't belong
>>44260359>not 100%well, we're making progress. we admit that trannymaxxers do in fact exist.>well studied yes>looks inside>surveysthat's not incontrovertible evidence, nona. 10lb of shit is not better than 1lb of shit. It's still shit.
>>44260303>men don't cut their dicks offI doubt I'll be the first one, desu.
>>44260830>wewho?
Why is lesgen always a warzone? Does anyone there even like other women? Really putting the L in LGBT, ladies
>>44260806>no denialWe know it’s you.
>>44260787>you're a man, a man, a man!I'm not a man, but you calling me one doesn't offend me either, probably because I'm not transgender.>how on earth would a womanThis board or 4chan in general? I'm gay. I'm chuddy. I like video games.
The threads seem ass I'm just here to say I'm having fun with my new film camera I got for rly cheap.Get cute photos and it encourages me to go outside more too.
>>44260888It's literally just Lago with her same old bullshit
>>44260841Nah, just that your typical attack is that I am a man and not a cis woman. I am a cis woman, just a fucking fed up one. I don't need to defend whether or not I am a woman or a man, because I don't care, no matter what you say my biology will always scream female and yours will scream man
im cutting again
>>44259408I cut myself walking through a bramble brush recently but you don’t see me shouting about it now
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=HFJbgWzToLg
>>44259408don't you retard
>>44260912thank you anon
old >>44252461
>>44260916wj at?!?ka?
i don't speak norwegians but i love norwegians thank you for not being swedes
>>44260919something so funny about retards like you getting tricked into taking girl pills
>>44260958>>44260958>>44260958
>>44260893he is always so mean to you while you are always so sweet to him
does gender dysphoria really start in the womb?
>>44257116estrogen>>44257463>I deserve to be stuckno you don't. no one deserves this.
>>44257463(You)
>>44259790jax was right to abstract and so am i
>>44260284completely missed the point award
>>44260284no she wasn't and neither are you. you deserve to live, and to live well. saying you don't deserve it is cope because you believe it's impossible
Im sick of just wallowing in my own sadness and want to cut myself or something to relieve a bit of this pain.Problem is that I have a really really shitty pain tolerance and cant handle sharp objects that well, any tips to mitigate that?Pic Unrel
these kinds of posts are difficult because you should not be cutting yourself and i do not want you to cut yourself but i legitimately have no other advice because nothing i have tried works like cutting does.if you have a low tolerance for pain, though, snapping an elastic against yourself or punching different parts of your body (you kind of really have to mean it, though. just be careful) could be effective and are much healthier. both will leave marks.
>>44259492thanks anon, unfortunately i sort of have a thing for punching and like i dont want to be horny and depressed, that's a really shitty combo
>>44259501do try an elastic, before cutting, then.and if you do have to cut, think REALLY hard about where you're doing it. the scars i have from when i first started cutting when i was younger are really inconvenient as an adult who needs to be an employed professional.people say that drawing on yourself can also help, as well as holding ice against yourself to the point of pain, but i found the rubber bands and punching to be better, even if they didn't work exactly like i wanted. you should try lots of different things, though. if you can find something (literally anything) that works for you which does not involve permanent scarring then you should do that.incidentally i haven't self-harmed (for mental pain, anyway) in a few months: remember that the pain is temporary. it WILL go away if you give it time. i've been bringing small stuffies and other comforting things around with me for a while and their presence has helped me, i think. that being said, my depression tends to come in waves and paroxysms, so maybe this is not so useful, if you are more permanently addled.anyways good luck nonny. i hope you feel better.
>>44259501I hope you find a good long term solution for your problems. Cutting is like cleaning the water that got in because of the damaged roof instead of fixing the roof itself. Easier said than done ofc, as i myself am not a entirely happy person. But I do hope that you at least curb the pain just enough to not have to cut anymore, i dont think anyone here wants to see you cut yourself.
>>44259470so you want to hurt yourself without feeling hurt? yeah you deserve to get hurt that's some retarded logic, go to the fucking pscyh ward and stop shitting in your own piss pool
