Years ago I transsed and changed my name and sex markers and all that bs. I never really passed I just look like a retarded hrtwink. However it seems as I've pretty much fucked my chances at getting a career as no interviewer takes me seriously for any positions for advanced than a McJob. I look uncanny and sound uncanny and I guess my name gives it all away.Do I just kill myself when I inevitably go broke from working $20k/year jobs? I can't seem to get anything that pays better.
>>43407538I also did the same in like 2023? still working there. got decent raises. was def a hon when I first started but now apparently I'm a passoid. I don't see it but eh I'll take it
>>43407538>21>not in college at all, fell for le trades meme and didnt even go through with it at all>it's 100% impossible for me to take this bitch's path because you just know they're only looking for younginswhen a life of shame and misery is guaranteed, rebellion is a virtue.
>>43405345>>43405659I'd almost given up on my last semester of college having applied to so many places but I got a random cold message from a recruiter on LinkedIn and it got me a jobMy life went from piss poor to middle class instantlyNever blackpill
>>43407538oh well i guess ill kill myself
>>43408420>I can't commit to anything>this is somehow happening to me and not my fault at all>waaaaabeing good at school is fembrained fwiw
why do i even take hrt if i don't even care of my body otherwisemy teeth are crooked, my hair is a mess, my skin is breaking out and i'm doing absolutely nothing about any of that despite all of this being easily in my control compared to something like ffs or hrt
>>43411282Dysphoria and depression make it difficult for you to value yourself, let alone practice self-care. It gets easier after transitoning.
>>43411310>It gets easier after transitoning.i am on hrt and i still don't really take care of myself.i've been insecure about my teeth forever and i can finally afford braces and i just haven't botheredi haven't gotten a haircut because i know any cut i would actually want would look bad on my male head shape
>>43411282stop caring about these things and they will become 10000000000000000000000000x easierthis is the only answer
>>43411450what does that even mean
>>43411498stop being insecure about these things god it's not my fault you didn't get taught to read damn
How did you break out of the re- and detrans loop? i am a 19 year old male on hrt now who is severely mentally ill although nobody knows since i act normal on the outside. i keep detransing and retransing. i have been dealing with this for 3 years now, and it makes me want to kms. i started hrt a year ago, and i was on it constantly for 9 months, but after that i have been hopping off and on. anyone who has dealed with this? i feel hopeless, and i feel like death is the only way out.
>>43411254im 30 lmk when you figure it out cause i wish i knew
>>43411356fucking bleak bro
I hate being a gay bottom so fucking much. I was raised by conservative Christians in rural texas so yeah, this is gonna be like, 99% internalized homophobia, but I need to scream into the void.It's fucking humiliating to enjoy sex with a man. All I can think while being fucked is how fucking pathetic I am for enjoying it. I shouldn't want this. I should be normal. I should want the normal things a man wants. I should want to be dominant, and strong, and masculine. But I don't. I used to be muscular, and I fucking hated it so I became a twink.I've tried being a top, fucking hated using my dick, so i quit. I tried being with more fem guys and being a powerbottom. None of it compared to being bent over by a bear, put in a headlock, and fucking demolished. I've never felt safer, or more at peace then when being held in the embrace of a strong man. I wish I was a normal straight guy, or failing that, at least a gay top. Being a bottom is the fucking worst, because it doesn't just make you weak, it makes you crave weakness. In every other aspect of my day to day life, I fucking loathe being seen as weak, or pathetic, or unmanly to the very core of my being.But when I'm alone with a guy, all I can think about is him overpowering me and fucking me senseless as I beg for a mercy that will not come. Whenever I have sex, I can fucking feel all my ingrained values and self perceptions crumble to dust as my lizard brain just curb stomps it and replaces all higher thought with a white board that just says "cock" on it. God I wish conversion therapy worked.
>>43410780internalized homophobia is what my therapist says. But knowing why I feel the way I do doesn't undo it. I'd love to just stop being ashamed, but I can't. my brain is too cooked from being raised by psychos that believe in shit like chastity pledges and purity balls and all that weird shit. even after ive been away from them for years, their stupid ass beliefs linger in my brain.
>>43406104Have you considered transition? If you can pass, you can get a straight man
it's okay to be gay anon
>>43411125tell that to my fuckass brain
>>43411013>I can'tStop saying that. Faking it is making it.
Pepe the frog should be the next symbol for the LGBTQ+ Community!!
>>43409162It's better than gleagle
>>43409713The ADL is a projudeofascism organisation that was founded in order to defend the memory of a wealthy pedophile who murdered a child and got killed for it after being convicted in court.
>>43411221no it's not retard.
>>43409162we have a gay pepe
>>43409162Kill this frog with bricks and concrete
/lg/ is a new lesbian general focused on actual lesbian discussion, for all homosexual cis and trans women. Please for the love of all that is holy, keep drama and bigotry out of this general. The other gen is done for, it seems. Let it rest in piss. Give anons here posting about their love and sex experiences priority!
>>43410706wya
>>43410709AmericaSouthwest
I can't tell which thread is supposed to be the good one, same with the posters
>>43410715ur far enough to be an ewife yea
>>43410845Yus, dis?
brown tranny edition
>>43411007I will pull your nipples
mode are gods
>>43410637cant see
>>43402621>>43402633And we are the trans grumps
Whee do y'all find mef / straight trans woman+man greentext slop to read - I'm a lonely old brickhon plz help
which genre of gay are you?
>>43411259to become what
where's prison gay?
>>43410317Im not gay by any means but Id breed the top middle one
>>43410317Lawfully fem except I don't sleep around "often" wtf
>>43410317Mix of lawful neutral and lawful fem.
>Friend says mean things to me>Become incredibly hornyWhy am I like this?
why would your friend say mean things to you?
>>43411341because i peed myself a little after we went shopping........
>>43411353that's very mean nona. they should be more empathetic
>>43411363I know right????????She said I have to wear a diaper next time if I want to hang out...........
>be trans>will never, ever, be a hot ass chickHow does one cope with this truthnuke?
>>43405987I don't need to be a hot chick.
trannies are so hungry they'll take the thinnest bait
>>43411187it's fine. you're right that alone it isn't really a big deal, but when it's that and a large brow, no one is ever taking you seriously as a trans woman or even gay bottom. even when everything else on my face and body is ideal to what people want out of one. i really just need to get comfortable with not having what other people have; being feminine desirability. i'm sorry for turning this into some pity thing.
>>43411273no need to apologize. everyone needs to feel loved & beautiful. you showed your humanity and that's the first step.
>how do I cope??By being a mid transwoman and pretending you could ever melt everything down to be female via AI videos
oughhh i just farted so hard that my prog fell out
>>43411213That cat looks like it's missing some polygons
>>43411213you have to hold them in for a while after putting it up your ass, i have the same issue cause i tend to brap constantly after boofing my prog for a while
It feels so crazy when I look down and realize im inside a woman right now
>>43408376I have a belly like that and still look like a woman from this pov. Boobs, shaving, stretch marks, and fat redistribution making my belly less moid round helped
>>43406195Is it agpfaketrans that when I look down sometimes, it takes my breath away. It feels like a kind of euphoric sensual overwhelm with some 'this is too good to be true'. It also happens sometimes when I half wake up in the middle of the night and think the whole tranny thing was a dream, then I grab my chest to prove it to myself and get a boob.
>>43409546It's just appreciating what you have and being happy. There's nothing wicked about this.
>>43409550It feels like not for community acceptable reasons
>im inside a womanthat's called "being a woman." can we please stop pretending we have little plankton homunculi in our heads that perceive the world via cartesian theaters? it's silly
I'm honestly getting to the point where my mental dysphoria is becoming more severe than my physical dysphoria, I've managed to take care of most of my physical traits that makes me dysphoric and I pass pretty well, but being moidbrained is driving me insane I put together a cute outfit yesterday for work, and looked in the mirror, it was pretty but it just felt wrong, like a straight man's idea of female office wear, so I just threw the clothes aside and wore the same plain and safe outfit I always wear to work. At work today, I looked at female coworkers with envy, I saw how idiosyncratic, conservative and yet unmistakably feminine their outfits were, there's a level of complexity and orchestration to them, that's just beyond my aesthetic capabilities Even my music taste is "vaguely feminine music that appeals to autistic losers", it's not the music tastes of someone who's genuinely feminine in mind and soul I just feel like a completely separated from the feminine collective unconscious. I always thought that trying to brainwash oneself into being more fembrained was regressive, but now I'm beginning to see the sense in it...
>>43410465cocteau are actually pretty femme coded. theyre very popular with goth/alt girls.what's not femme coded is spiraling over whether your music taste is feminine or not. If you were actually cis it'd be a point of pride that makes you *not be like other girls* while being a pickme for men.
>>43410789I am around 2 months in and I already basically look like a dyke rather than a boy
>>43410617looks pretty good as is but yeah a gold like, bar necklace would go pretty well here. for more specific advice, consult actual female fashion places and not 4chan lol
>>43411191I hate posting in female fashion forums because theyre all enormous hugboxers and I feel like I'm invading women's spaces, but okay, thank you nona, I like the gold bar advice specifically, that's unironically very tasteful advice
>>43411245what works for me is trying to break up large flat expanses with thick lines, generally, but that's because i'm a gigamoided shoulderhon. you look like you have good proportions so you can worry less about that, but see about a belt or something for the front of the skirt maybe too? gold-coloured chunky buckle maybe
Just as a general bit, how can you tell when someones clocking you, vs them just checking you out? I've been told im pretty by most people I go on dates with, but I still think I'm clocky, and I find it hard to differentiate between the two looks in a public space. Is it just disdain, general look of disgust vs curious smiling? Or is there some inbetween here that my autistic self cant pick up on?
>>43411268oh my g*sh I need to bury my face between his legsas for the topic I find it very difficult to tellI consider myself kind of pretty but 100% clocky, not only physically but with my voice tooI usually attribute people looking to them not seeing trans people often because I live in a place where I am essentially the one local tgirl
>>43411301>oh my g*sh I need to bury my face between his legsreal af
I was on patches for my first year of hrt (5+ now) and had decent results before switching to needles. I'm not consistent about injecting because I'm a moron and am afraid of needles. l would switch back to patches (I also have a clotting disorder) but I'm scared of worse feminization (though my fat distribution is really bad). HRT is probably a meme and this is futile but what the hell. Tips appreciated <3
