How does one get rid self inflicted dysphoria?I'm certain that I have no authentic and real dysphoria at all, but I have been gaslighting myself into having it over the past couple of years, and now I can't figure out how to go back to how I was before it all
>>43410441If you weren't trans, your mother making you hate being a man wouldn't have made you transition
>>43399451yeah idk, my dysphoria i think has been self inflicted since 12 when i started wanting to be some pretty twink when im ostensibly not that, this spiralled into femboy stuff then tranny stuff. its just a life of wanting to be something im not either physically or mentally. it sucks so bad. i dont know, radical acceptance? i dont want to accept myself as somebody that i dont think cant experience anything good in life.
>>43411217lol it absolutely could do that though if it was severe enough.
>>43411239Untrue cause even if someone got traumatized into thinking they had to transition, if they are cis, they will immediately stop after getting on hrt
>>43411930I wasn't traumatized into thinking I had to transition, I was traumatized into hating myself as a male. So I decided to transition to appreciate myself more, and I did, but I stopped because it was clearly a response to my self hate.Life and who you are is about the decisions you make. HRT isn't a crystal ball that reveals your inner intentions, people who aren't actually trans could stay on HRT for so many reasons. The average person doesn't value their gender expression as much as everyone here does.
post your ideal self
trying to build up a theory for why gender dysphoria develops help me by answering a few questions:>how many of your friends in early childhood (before age 6) were girls>are you more attracted to men or women or equally to both >are you agp (not in a Blanchard way but like have you ever had any attraction to the idea of yourself as a woman)>how feminine were you pre transition and in what way, like were you flamboyantly "gay", were you nerdy, not really outwardly feminine at all?>when did you first experience any type of discomfort with your gender in any way>when did you first wish you were the other gender >when did you first seriously think about the idea of medically transitioningBackground for these question if you care: i think my gender dysphoria stems from having mostly female friends early in childhood but getting messaging from society that platonic cross sex friendships were weird/impossible. people acted like i was only allowed to think that girls are gross or be romantically interested in them. even though it was in a joking way i always hated that adults framed my friendships like romantic relationships. i always had people saying things like "oh is this your girlfriend" cause there was this assumption that men and women are inherently and irreconcilably different and because of that it was impossible to have a normal friendship with a girl as a boy. i think this lead me to hate being male and want to be female. anyway i wondered if anyone else has had similar experiences cause i could see this being an under investigated phenomena.
>>43404505>how many of your friends in early childhood (before age 6) were girls3:1 ratio favouring girls>are you more attracted to men or women or equally to bothexclusively men>are you agp (not in a Blanchard way but like have you ever had any attraction to the idea of yourself as a woman)no>how feminine were you pre transition and in what way, like were you flamboyantly "gay", were you nerdy, not really outwardly feminine at all?was mostly an unassuming nerdy kid but apparently i had obvious fagcent. i did gravitate towards a handful of stereotypically feminine interests though>when did you first experience any type of discomfort with your gender in any waywhenever in school they would split us up by boys and girls>when did you first wish you were the other gendersame time as above>when did you first seriously think about the idea of medically transitioningaround 20 when considering how i'd rather age
Maybe having no friends early in development is a risk factor for transgenderism or does being a tranny make you less likeable as a child?
>>43410261yeah honestly im kinda shocked by the trend there not really what i was expecting at all. could be a combination of having a preference for female friends but not being accepted by them or maybe its just the autism overlap showing, or maybe like autism + female friend preference = tranny.
>>43408511honestly yeah i think that might be the bigger take away i've gotten from this
>>43404505>>how many of your friends in early childhood (before age 6) were girlsAll of them any one else I hung out with was a neighbor I was forced to spend time with>>are you more attracted to men or women or equally to bothExclusively men>>are you agp (not in a Blanchard way but like have you ever had any attraction to the idea of yourself as a woman)If imaging my bf fucking my vagina or fingering me counts yes but never just oh I'm a girl erection>>how feminine were you pre transition and in what way, like were you flamboyantly "gay", were you nerdy, not really outwardly feminine at all?I thought of my self as very masculine but no one was surprised I transitioned and I got a lot of I assumed you were gay so I guess feminine >>when did you first experience any type of discomfort with your gender in any wayWhen I was 4 my sister dressed me up i was very happy then my parents yelled when she showed me off and that really hurt me. I guess specific dysphoria moment would be around in 3rd grade at a friend's birthday party her other girl friends there treating me different felt terrible I wasn't allowed to stay over and do things with them>>when did you first wish you were the other genderI guess 4 during the dress thing I thought of it as just wanting to wear those clothes and I liked being cute but the desire of being a girl only intensified>>when did you first seriously think about the idea of medically transitioningI learned about it at 14 shortly after trying to cut my penis off at 15 I ordered diy hormones
Pooners are hilarious, of course a real fat and leaky cock wil always be better than that deformed clit, lmao
>Kinsey 4 bisexual opens up the relationship with his transhusband>mogs the female every daywhy would a poon evenwhy must the queef happen
>>43411876I have cocklust but im a virgin how did this happen
I find that even though I pass well people can tell in the psych ward.Discuss.
>>43407141sorry that happened to u nonayeah i didnt trust any of the male staff there lol save for some older guy who fought to get me a safe place to stay after but he was a therapist and would only stay there for a few hrs so idk if he rlly countsits funny because i explicitly tried to hide that i was a tranny from everyone after getting transferred there from the hospital and somehow they all ended up finding out and getting a lil too comfortable getting close to me lolat least the cops that brought me there were respectful though, every involuntary psychiatric hold ive had placed on me the cops were always super nice and guarded me from sight when i was crying having a mental breakdown/looked away when i had to undress so ive sorta developed an appreciation for themdont tell twitter i said that tho
>>43406100They're not in the mood to humor you
>>43406100one of the nurses was a girl i went to school with and she didn't show any sign of recognising me the whole time. met a guy who introduced himself to me every time i saw him because he'd forget everything within an hour. there was a girl in there who was coincidentally in there almost every other time i'd been in across 2 separate hospitals and we both just assumed the other one was in there all the time. this one guy was always screaming into the phone every opportunity he got and people said there was no one on the other end. random old lady i'd never talked to before pointed him out and told me 'see that guy? he thinks he's superman' completely unsolicited but no one else corroborated that so i think she was making it up. a lot of people were just coming off drugs. one of them got kind of offended when he told me he was coming off heroin and i said that was 'retro'. most surreal experience was a 45-50 year old woman who sounded exactly like a 13 year old girl. like, you could have closed your eyes and thought there was a child in front of you. honestly the psych ward is kinda fun and the people in there are a lot more interesting than outside. i'd stay in there all the time except that they make you take meds
Was inpatient a number of times when I was younger. The longest time in was over three months. Experienced and witnessed a ton of patient abuse, put on meds against my will.For a long time in my life I had to frequently remind myself that I was out now and didn't have to go back. My mom and the partner who used to beat me would use it as a threat all the time. At this point I'm not worried about going back. My life has improved and moved on.
>>43410030glad you're doing better
hi everyone lets make friends with everyone else be niceinclude your asl and whatever
>>43407157>someone who will put in 100% of effort>no men
>>43402672why are people so against posting a country?
Should I post here if I feel like shit
>>43411825yeah
>26/mtf/EULooking for a daddy or cg to take care of me and buy me diapers :cdiscord: clover.the.third
I'm basically a Repper, one of the ways i cope is to maintain my appearance so i don't become fat and bald and look like someone's dad, but i've had chronic pain from what i think is some pelvic floor issues for like a year and it was getting better, but i started taking finasteride again and its making it worse so now i have to deal with almost dysfunctional pain in my dick and pelvis or go bald, and i just feel like i want to die.
>>43410676idk if it’s the same but I used to have back pain due to tight hips and pelvic floor and e made it all go away
>>43410676please just take your e
I’ve been on T for 8 months. After I started taking testosterone I got really into lolicon content when it didn’t interest me as much in the past, now I draw pantie shots of little anime girls. I am confused about how this happened and wondering if there any correlation between being a straight man and a lolicon because my feelings towards lolis and preferences in adult woman are similar. I think real kids are gross but loli content is very appealing to me due to how cute the little anime girls are. I would kill to grope there soft bellies and coerce the little anime girls into letting me touch them for icecream or whatever’s girls like in exchange. I wish I was a brother character in a anime scenario so I could spoil a little moe anime girl younger sister in exchange for her cooperation , touching the small little breasts of a bratty girl while she tries to ignore you molesting her is nothing but erotic. I think there is something attractive about the personalities, build, and behaviors of the loli characters that translates very easily into certain types of trans woman, the previously twinkish ones. Small breasts, basically acts like a teenage girl, stunted mentally and very emotional a estrogenized twink turned into a bratty teenage girl (despite being legal) might be the closest thing to a loli in real life.
>>43411718o_O>>43411724You're on the degen website, expect some degen shit...
>>43411350lol call her dude, she is a ftm. ftm never pass
>>43411332arent you that blonde ftm chick from discord who with an oversized clit who didn't stop drawint child porn? it was mostly shota but who knows
>>43411332you are a larper who sees men as inherently degenerate
>>43411332Please don't cut your boobs off.
i am.a cis man on hrt
>>43410083HEAD. now.
>>43405952I'm 178, currently 73kg so it's not great but better than it was before. I'm still a disgusting piece of lard.
>>43407338my face is manly and ugly and i'm too scared to get surgey>taking care of ur skin, facial hair, feminne clothes and exercise etcmost of what makes me ugly besides facial hair are deeper things that i'd need a lot of work done on
>>43389221I think you're really cute, cis man
>>43405774Gave me big ones...
being a cringe transbian puppygirl instead of a loser 4chanhon must be awesome...
>>43410007put on the collar, anon
this thread stinks like cumwich reminds me...hitsujigoods, the creator of "date a neet" is a camwhorehttps://xhamster.com/videos/tranny-on-tranny-amazing-69-session-xhjmqbGhttps://xhamster.com/videos/two-amazing-trans-having-fun-together-on-cam-xhZ6FHmhttps://es.xhamster.com/videos/trans-couple-pleasing-themselves-and-their-cam-fans-xhUA5SWhttps://es.xhamster.com/videos/two-slutty-shemales-having-a-hot-69-session-xh5iikEComment too long. Click here to view the full text.
>>43411922I appreciate you posting kino tranny porn but why are you so obsessed with a former camwhore? Are people not allowed to move on and change their lives?
>>43411940not in my watch
>>43411940No.
but I'm straight how should I take this information? that I look like a raging homo, perhaps my appearance is solid but women just can't say it? Would it mean I'm actually attractive? Or are the gays just horny AF and I should be creeped out?
universe is telling you to be gay
You might be a straight 4 but a gay 8.
>>43411844dang thats nuts , thats a real thing?>>43411787>universe is telling you to be gayI haven't even been straight yet - khv
Should I go see Japanese tranners?T. Manmoder
>>43411750Why do you want to get depressed and suicidal?
>>43411750Beyond this point: hsts
>>43411750i wonder if japanese tranners obsess about agp/hsts stuff, hate transbians and chasers, and are as prone to creating polycules as western tranners are...
>>43411750are the people that work at those places actually trans? I assumed "new half" just met crossdressing fem guys
>>43411954new half = tranny. otokonoko = crossie
When did you see a tranny for the first time? Exclude yourself if you're transgender.
it's was that GIF thing, where a guy in a thigh highs have a cock hided in between his legs, so it looks like a vagina or smth, and then cock just shoots out of em thighs.i think thats why im so much of a femboy lol
Street prostitutes with quarterback shoulders, bolt ons, tight dresses and high heelst.brazil
I was about 30 and I saw one on the train. She didn't pass and she seemed very self conscious. I didn't realize passoids were a thing nor did I understand what hormones were about until several years later.I think we need to put a stop to this easy transition meme, it's causing a lot of problems and people should be vetted a lot more carefully before being given these drugs.
>>43411442Yes. And I don't have a problem with that :)
>>43411952Oh... Well I'm jealous.
im so scared i dont want to come out to my family and become homeless but i cant live like this any longer eitherIs sui my only optiont. 10 year boymoder
>>43402443i don't think that makes it not funny. it was relevant
>>43400875>>43401784kek
>>43400013You've been boymoding for 10 years, and your family hasn't noticed anything?
>>43406915No... My aunt realised but my dad has no idea he thinks I'm a straight man :(
>>43400013Are you white
Why is estrogen making me feel worse?Why? Why? Why?I thought it couldn't get any worseThis was my last hope to feel humanI thought wanting to be a woman makes one a trannyEstrogen was supposed to help at least a bitIt's only getting darker and darker in this bottomless pitIt feels like I haven't slept in a decade>over 6 months of 6mg EEn weekly
>>43400921no blockers?
>>43411027I was cypro at the when I started taking hrt. I felt the same way
>>43411684cypro tends to cause depression so if you quit recently you might just have to wait it out
>>43411738I quit almost a year ago. I also quit hrt then, but I started taking it again as monotherapy
>>43411762why did you quit and then resume e,
