>and nobody will convince me otherwise"I opened the notebook in which I had intended to write the first sentence of my work on Mendelssohn Bartholdy and immediately saw that it was the wrong notebook, that it was a notebook full of repulsive scribbles from years ago, repulsive thoughts, repulsive calculations, repulsive lists of repulsive things, and I closed it again at once, slammed it shut, threw it across the room where it hit the concrete wall and fell to the floor, and I thought that this notebook was my whole life, that every notebook I have ever owned was the wrong notebook, that every sentence I have ever written was the wrong sentence, that every thought I have ever had was the wrong thought, that I myself am the wrong person, the wrong brother, the wrong scholar, the wrong human being, and that the only right thing is the concrete wall, the only right thing is to stare at the concrete wall until it crushes me, until it corrects me out of existence, until there is nothing left but the wall and the wrongness that deserves it..."
Diet Céline from Temu.
If you haven't already read Gathering Evidence, his memoir. Its extremely good and shows you where some of his particular hatreds come from, especially the sections on his education in Salzburg during the war.I've read all his novels but none of his plays, anyone find them worthwhile?
I remembered Hoeller's invitation to me and left the hospital as quickly as possible though actually still a sick man, I went to the Aurach valley, into Hoeller's house, into Hoeller's garret, my mind set on putting Roithamer's literary remains in order, now, as a form of convalescence, to do again what I had always done when in the grip of a fatal illness, to leave the hospital against doctors' orders and repossess my life by taking up my occupation, and I thought, standing beside the door, that my decision to leave had been equally correct in the case of this pneumonia. It had always been the right moment to leave the hospital against doctors' orders and cope with such a fatal illness myself. There had been no indication at all, when he left England, that he would never come back to England, I thought, as I brushed my jacket and hung it in the closet, of course I had expected him back shortly after his sister's funeral for which he had gone to Altensam, I can still hear him saying, I shall stay only the shortest possible time, what is there now to keep me there, in Altensam, in Upper Austria, in Austria, beyond the necessary minimum, the shortest possible time, one or two days in his opinion, which he did not even intend to spend in Altensam but in Hoeller's house on the Aurach, he had gone to Austria already intending to spend only the inescapable minimum of time in Altensam, to stay the night in Hoeller's house and in Hoeller's garret, there being now, after his sister's death, no further reason to stay in Altensam, though there is no way to avoid talking over the problems inescapably arising from the death and the funeral of my sister, so I must go to Altensam, but again and again: only the absolute minimum of time necessary, for now, after the death of his beloved sister, there was virtually nothing left to tie him to Altensam, with the death of my sister, he said, my relationship to Altensam has come to an end. Altensam is nothing more than past history, now, in future there will be no reason for me to set foot in the place, and he was thinking of selling Altensam, an extremely valuable property because of its fertile meadow- and farmlands in particular, and because of its easy access, Altensam, isolated as it was, did have the advantage of good roads, and this combination of remoteness and privacy on the one hand, with easy access on the other hand, guaranteed a high price for it, and now after his sister's death Roithamer was thinking of selling Altensam, he even had an idea of what he wanted to do with the money realized from the sale, an idea characteristic of him, which was to hand over the entire sum to his ex-convicts, without bothering at first to go into details, at one point he had even thought of giving them Altensam as a refuge after their release from prison.
>Bernhard was controversial in Austria for his public polemics against what he saw as his homeland's post-war cultural pretensions, antisemitism, provincialism, and denial of its Nazi past.I am uninterested.
>>24836624>tfw no Höller friend in whose garret you can convalesce whenever you need and listen to the noise of the river
absolut liber. but was it correct to genocide the monkey-people?
>>24836647Is it ever not correct to genocide the monkey people?
>>24836651seems cucked to side with the weak and submissive indians
ἐρώμενος editio>τὸ πρότερον νῆμα·>>24763657>Μέγα τὸ Ἑλληνιστί/Ῥωμαϊστί·https://mega dot nz/folder/FHdXFZ4A#mWgaKv4SeG-2Rx7iMZ6EKw>Mέγα τὸ ANE·https://mega dot nz/folder/YfsmFRxA#pz58Q6aTDkwn9Ot6G68NRg>Work in progress FAQhttps://rentry dot co/n8nrkoAll Classical languages are welcome.
I love Chinese poetry but I hate that Chinese people insist on singing early Song dynasty ci in modern Mandarin pronunciation which absolutely butchers the rhyme and rhythmi.e. the line 小樓昨夜又東風,故國不堪回首月明中。 from 虞美人(李煜著)in Mandarin the rhyme is ruined: feng1 zhong1in MC it is preserved: piung triung
>>24836323It's also preserved in Cantonese (fung1 zung1) and Hokkien (hong tiong)
>>24836193Mitte foedam illam imaginem, scis de quo loquor.
>>24834320>Greeks speaking Syriac invented the first vowel system in any Semitic language.Every language has a "vowel system", retard.
>>24836501Lingens pedes eius foetidas..hnnghh..eas numquam lavit…
What did Kubrick see in Stephen King?
>>24834929Kubrick had no regard for King and only made a movie based on King’s work because he needed a strong success to keep him in good standing with producers and he knew an adaptation of King would sell. But he considered several aspects lacking including the strong woman facet which he said was not believable
>>24834950You should watch the documentary Room 237 so you can feel at home with the other schizos.
>>24834674Mario Puzo is aight.
>>24834949In retrospect it seems odd that Hollywood looked past Puzo accurately portraying the movie exec who meets with Hagen as being on a break from his daily child rape session and satisfied themselves with scrubbing that info from the movie.
>>24834223TPBP
Post non-reddit/fedora Atheism recs
>>24836029I'm implying theyre demonic. Of course atheists deny the existence of demons as fairy tales. Since evil is a privation, it springs from ignorance. An atheist doesn't know he's evil or is unaware of evil existing so his ignorance makes him one and the same.
>>24836448>evil is a privationwdym?
>>24836373>What is reddit atheism...I never read reddit thread about atheismI don't either but context clues indicate it's stereotypical fedora shit:>I'm smart because I figured out there's no God>I love science even though I haven't actually studied it and only know pop-sci shit>I think I'm insightful but I'm just parroting reductive takes >I see the church as a monolithic dictatorship and don't know anything about debate that happens within it >I'm a freethinker but you'll never be surprised by anything I say >My idea of science is based on Popper (I probably don't even know that and even if I do I haven't read anything by him)>I get mad if you bring up philosophy of science stuff because all I know about is falsifiability >I'm ignorant of the interplay between science and religion and parrot the conflict thesis (without knowing it's called the conflict thesis and was overturned decades ago) Shit like that basically.
>>24833921>heh! i just know that god is not real, this is something i have already decided but yeah i need someone to tell me why i believe so that i can go own the christians on reddit like the true intelectual that i am!!!!embarrassing.
>>24836373Reddit Atheism no longer exists. "Atheism+" split the main cultural force along the lines of feminism and social justice causes. The direct descendants of the original reddit atheist milieu are a Orwell-reading soft-left Fabians (look into 'breadtube' for examples) and rightwing gamergate-adjascent nerd culture commentary.
Reading The Long Ships by Frans G. Bengtsson. I was really enjoying it, but then 3/4ths of the way through out of nowhere the main character gets cucked, completely out of the blue and the main character's wife seems completely out of character to make this happen. The main character's friend also gets cucked by the same guy, and that guy also is implied to have fucked every single woman that lives at the main character's farm/homestead.That character then ends up becoming a major supporting character and a friend to the protagonist.I just want to drop it now, but I'm close to the end.
>>24836514Did you not read the book? Magister Rainald quite literally cucks Rapp and then cucks Orm right after and then implied that he fucked all the women when they are all crying because he's leaving and they've made all kinds of stuff for him.Ylva says to Rainald that he probably wont be fooling around with women anytime soon because he got hurt, fell down a tree or stung by a bunch of bees or some shit, and then he says some I wish shit and reaches out his arms for Ylva and the narrator says some bullshit about "and what they did no one would ever know"Paraphrasing because I read it in the original language
>>24836592it's one of those demoralization fags i was telling you about. you thought i was crazy, didn't you?
>>24836592Lmao you're right, I never read the second "book" more than once because it's quite a bit weaker than the original. I think I just dismissed it as the narrator being cheeky, a bit like the old sagas, rather than anything serious. I did reread the bit you're referencing just now; I don't know why the fuck Bengtsson, being the type of man that he was, would turn Orm into a cuckold. Though the second "book" was famously written under pressure from the publisher.
>>24836606>backpedaling trannygtfo faggot.
>>24836606First book was way better.
Why the fuck are physical books so expensive?
>>24833934I found a 1st ed, 1st print of Gravity's Rainbow at a goodwill right after they re-opened in 2020. I like to think there was a based diehard Pynchon fan who bought GR on release in my town, who unfortunately died of covid, but I inherited his copy
>>24834964nothing written by that dumb bitch is even worth 5 cents
You could easily buy dozens of new hardcover books a month if you people got jobs valued by society
>>24833934The list would be endless. Tokyo is a gold mine if you know where to look.I love finding cohesive collections.
>>24832286They're not, they're cheap as chips. If you're trying to buy new that can be a problem especially hardback. But even new paperbacks are only £9.99 in Waterstones. Go second-hand and you will get books for under £4 each, except for incredibly rare books.www.worldofbooks.comwww.abebooks.co.uk
>regular dude> tough childhood but works hard and finds his way in life>actually gets to do what he enjoys for a living, even if he doesn't excel at it>has troubled relationships like everyone >has problems at work like everyone>dies of age I was told this novel was one of the most depressing pieces of literature, it really is just a dude with common folk issues. I get it maybe he struggled and fought more than the average, as well as things not turning out the way he wanted to, but all things considered, his life wasn't awful. He had meaningful relationships and found something he enjoyed. I think it's a very relatable novel but I didn't find that depressing desu
>>24835285The book does not blame anyone for anything or imply that what happened was bad. In fact, the moral of the story was that a failed life can still be a good one.
>/lit/ goes out of its way to misunderstand Stoner, againThe whole book is about the intense difficulty of authentic communication, and the cascade of petty tragedy that often results from our failure to truly reach each other.It couldn't be more fucking obvious yet you faggots never pick up on this. I can only conclude you're all autistic.
>>24831659Would it be less tragic if he hopelessly fought against things he can’t control?
>>24831516his wife is not a bad woman, she's confused and doesn't understand, she tries to replicate a schema for living that isn't appropriate and hurts her husband in the processstoner himself can't speak for himself. it's truly astounding that he can't actually prosecute any sort of personal conviction ever in his life. the first few sentences of the book give you all you need to understand the magnitude of his folly- he is of little interest to those who follow.that's sad, if you care about a legacy, if you care about creating something that endures, if you care about your life having some "meaning" which we all are biologically incentivized to believe
>>24831516You are right - it’s pretty overrated. The problem is that every life has its ups-and-downs. Choosing what “lens” to view it will obviously colour how depressing or enjoyable it will ultimately be remembered. The author clearly wrote Stoner’s perspective from a stoic passivity, with a cherry picked lens that trended toward the negative, and hence it seems like a life that simply passed-by; as a result, it doesn’t seem “realistic” - as you’ve suggested. Perhaps it’s better read less as some great tragic commentary on modernity, and more as a warning of viewing one’s life through (and as) one perpetual state of banality.
I went down yesterday to Piraeus-- no, wait, that wasn't me.What is pornography? “I can’t define it, but I know it when I see it.” So you're the one who decides? “No, it's subjective, porn could be different things to different people.” So everyone gets to decide? “No, there's no objective criteria.” So no one gets to decide? “No--” Thank God.Many people find it hard to have a rational discussion about pornography with other people, because other people don’t exist. You may as well try to discuss porn with an ox, if you can find one, if you will listen. Other generations exist, because you hate them, but such dialogues are tricky because the old can't help but see sexuality as part of a continuum towards death because they are closer to death than they are to lust, so much so that rather than an old guy thinking the young are sex obsessed, he forgets they are sex obsessed, forgets how sex and love frame all their decisions, forgets that the kid looking idly around a train car isn't thinking about bladder capacities or his boss’s incompetence, he's daydreaming about gazing at his beloved or ejaculating on a chick as he explains to her that she knows she likes it.1 Worse, they forget how hyperspecific love and lust is, a recently middle aged guy looks around and thinks college girls today are hotter than they've ever been, meanwhile a sophomore can look at identical twin cheerleaders and still need a few beers before he can get it up for the ugly one. You can play the game backwards, too, the creepy old perv, age 35-55, is creepy to a sophomore because it's unimaginable anyone that old still experiences lust in 3D; the simple fact that he noticed the consequences of an 18-24 year old's computer engineered bra is evidence of sociopathy unless those women have been branded as for-profit media combustibles in which case it's un-American if you don't look. The NFL put a lot of money into designing what’s left of those cheerleading uniforms, so unless you want to end up registered on a database you better not be caught not pretending not to notice.
>>24833748Cool. Which book is this from?
Forget about what porn you like. It's not about you. You know how I know? You didn't make it. Undoubtedly someone is going to toss the words heteronormative and individualizing the structural at me, and that person should stop reading immediately, not just this book but all books, your mind is broken and it is better suited for TV. I don't mean you are stupid, only that you are even more a product of the system you hate than the porn you think you reject. You think your sexual proclivities define you, they are unique to you, distinguish you; that the man who likes forced interracial porn is fundamentally different than the woman who likes soft core lesbian porn, this is wrong: the fact that you both like a porn makes you far more similar than different, please observe that your oh-so-personal and disparate kinks are all served by the same handful of websites, we are all brothers and sisters after all. We enjoy it, surrender ourselves, we praise anyone who affects us most in this way2. As much as everyone believes their sexuality is fundamental to their identity, no one would say their actual sexual past is indicative of their identity. “It’s different with you, those other people didn’t count.” I know. Neither is there anything to be gained by “analyzing” the kinds of porn you like as a window into your soul, it is meaningless and anyway chosen for you to like. Have you ever fallen asleep looking at porn? Yet that fact is far more telling than the image you fell asleep to, it doesn't matter what you want, or why you want-- it only matters how you want. You can count the drinks and pretend it's informative but too many times I've grabbed the bottle to pour myself the nth drink only to discover I hadn't finished the (n-1)th drink, the glass was still half full, or empty. So? You think the truth can be found by solving for n?So consider this your final warning. I have written a book, and the only thing I use in this book is words. Everything else th𝘢t h𝘢ppens is your f𝘢ult.
It's alright. I give it 3 apples. And I hope you aren't older than 20.
Eh, I don't live like I used to, have different sexual preferences now. Huess that's invalid or I'm an abberation. Been laying off the porn lately too, it was hard at first, but feels good. Try it sometime
>>24834853It's not about porn per se, but rather media in general, all of it. Granted that's not obvious>>24834708It's from the last psychiatrist, which if you haven't read, you should, he's goodhttps://thelastpsychiatrist.com/2013/09/real_men_want_to_drink_guinnes.html
It's the most beautifully written book I have ever read, don't get me wrong. But is that it? It drones on about the (sometimes wrong, i.e. whales are fish) details of whaling, characters like Queequeg and Fedallah seem to be set up and then forgotten, and the narrator Ishmael fades from 1st person into 3rd person. I honestly expected some catharsis for enduring through the book but I just don't care
>>24836562>Nearly all whale details are connected to some symbolism or narrated in mythological termsTo add, among the references to whales in the opening is a quotation from Hobbes, talking about the "leviathan," i.e., the state. I don't think Melville misunderstood that Hobbes wasn't taking about whales, he's being michevious sometimes with his allusions, such as a later reference to a "Platonian leviathan."
>>24836591There's a lot of humour in the book once you know what to look for. I think only Thomas Mann is better than Melville at hiding humour in seemingly dignified/grandiose language.
>i don't get it, won't somebody help megtfosage in all fields
>>24836586>I see it as either Ishmael dissociating himself from the traumatic experience the closer they get to the destruction of Pequod and its crewI like that thought
>>24836605wym help. I just wanna discuss the book
The way Umberto Eco's family treated his library after he died was a travesty.
> libtard hates his family and they hate himMany such cases sadly
>>24836251Because you are a retard and keep replying
>>24834927Today I was thinking about the fate of our collections, because I went to someone's house to pick up some book.A woman posted on a Facebook group that she wanted to find a new home for her father's books, who just moved into a care home.I really appreciated the books, but I couldn't help feeling sorry for the old man, because I might be in his shoes in 50 or 60 years, or even less. And guilty, because I was taking away things that meant something to himShe told me they gave him time for closure.She told me they gave him some time for closure, but I'm sure parting with a collection built over 50 years must be difficult.Anyhow, she ended up taking a picture of me carrying the books, to let her father know that some of them ended up in good hands.Thanks for reading my blog.
>>24834927Probably deserved it for his hamfisted interpretation of fascism.
>>24835124better than milk crates, but that still looks like ikea, lol.
what's the leftist version of this?
>>24834171Les Miserables
>>24836360I like this book but not for the reasons redditors do.
>>24834171Rules for Radicalsor >>24834299>>24834797Only a retarded person unfamiliar with Ayn Rand and her work could say this.
>>24836433>Rules for RadicalsNot fiction, also I'm convinced the only people with any interest in this book are US movement conservatives.
Star Wars: Andor
>age>current book>your thoughts on it
>>24834191Granny is fun. Most of the laughs I have gotten so far have been from her and I like her relationship with Esk.
>>24834237Must be depressing to be a writer and have an adaptation utterly overshadow your work
26The MezzanineI like it. Its sort of mesmerizing. I guess this is what being deeply autistic would be like.
>>24828524It's widely known that zoomers don't read and the only ones who do are women
25Pre socratics fragmentsVery crazy man you wouldn't believe it but you should know for being you need thinking and vice versa>>24832425Nice! I'm gonna read Waiting for Godot next.
The jews won. They are in control of the Pikes Peak batholith and the multi-trillion-dollar granite tunnel system — a highly symbolic 40 miles west of Denver, Colorado in the Front Range. But they are in control of much more than the end-time survival apparatus. They control not only the military and government of the United States of America but through the power of major corporations and the corruptibility of businessmen and government officials, fiat currency manipulation by the WiΩards of Fiat Currency at the Federal Reserve System, a small army of propagandists and "hackers" (this is a technically incorrect use of the term) who are fighting to maintain control of the Frankenstein monster they created called the Internet (in a war I fear they are going to lose), and even the Republican form of government they created which inevitably—and I would argue by design—fosters centralized control and assures only a handful of "elected" officials must be compromised to control an entire country, they control the entire Western world.
>>24835867Filthy goyim are natural slaves
Good. Jews are a wretched accursed people but they are right. Most of us goyim are disgusting niggerbrained cattle that fully deserve to be enslaved. I am ashamed of what Europe has become. Let it be destroyed and let the end times come.
Yeah. Evil won. Funny how the same evil people who won always made movies and TV shows where the good prevails.I guess they were preparing everyone to live in a world with the idea that everything is as should be (satan spawn are controling the globe)
>all these faggots ITT who can't tell this is AI garbageESL. ALL OF YOU ARE ESL
Aight, let me get a tinfoil hat real quick>>24836476
>portrays libertarian commune as rapists, criminals, and delusional fanatics>runs for office as a libertarianWhat did he mean by this?
>>24834786He was one of the biggest hypocrites of all time. First a socialist, then a liberal, then conservative and full blown centrist by the end of his life
>>24834786I thought Vargas Llosa portrayed the Canudos rebels fairly sympathetically. Most of them have real redemption arcs even if the Counselor's apocalypse never came. Really it's an everybody gets fucked sort of book--the rebels are crushed despite the prophecies that spurred them, and the soldiers are gradually demoralized such that their victory is anything but heroic.Also Canudos isn't "libertarian." It may resemble anarchism but the basis for everything is religion rather than revolutionary political economy. And Vargas Llosa's libertarianism was more the American kind than the continental kind that Gall tried to map onto the Canudos rebels.
>>24835193The libertarian character makes nonstop speeches about how they have intuitively discovered the principles of anarchy
Some established personage had a massive hard-on for this faggot but I cannot recall who
>>24834786He is evidently a man that makes no odds with his bestial nature. He may have been many things, but in denial was not one of the,.
