ftms what would you do if there was a shy boymoder that came by your house every couple of days asking to be your friend and watch movies and talk with them
>>42147638we would watch kill bill and i would ask her if she ever feels euphoric as a man and brush it off like i'm trying to get my own advice
>>42147638i don't want friend i want to have sex
>>42149378wow aggressive and cuts to the meat of the issue. ygmi
>>42149378I'm not a liar... >>42149379I like sci-fi fantasy and sci-fi horror and historical fiction
>>42149363yayy
my therapist always asks me retarded questions like "what is a man or woman" and "what would hormones do for you" and "taking HRT wouldn't make you inherently masculine", other professionals have told me "stop trying to be something you're not", "it could be a hormonal imbalance resolved by that and not needing transition", etc. but I am just really tired of their bullshit questioning and it feels like they're trying to get me to just accept being a woman and to love being so. i don't. this new therapist doesn't even know shit about me, i only met her when i was starting my detransition but i'm going to go for it again and just buy off of ugfreak. i can't take this anymorePOON: OUT
>>42150410cocaine made me feel like a tweaker, no thank you. i feel a bit similarly, it is what it is. either way, i will have tried my best. my life will not be over because i choose to transition, or i choose to not. it is just a life choicei don't really believe in all of the spirituality stuff. i think that identity is simply a construct of your lived experiences and interpretations of them. you could be correct, as some detransitioners have stated that testosterone did give them a "high" of sorts, for lack of better word. only one way to find out. i think i'll update on if it goes well or not, but there is no way to tell the future except for just allowing it to exist with time.i want to aim for something more than "meh", or "it is what it is", though. there are many mundane aspects to life, and gender is another one of them. no big deal. once you are better transitioned, it is just another thing in the background, going to the pharmacy is just as much of a chore as going to the grocery store. we will find out in 10 years time what the correct choice for me is, i guess. for now, i am making decisions based on the current evidence i have. can i ask what those insecurities in self and identity are like? most people have them to some degree, it is mostly natural
>>42150343>>42150388You say that like the men who do those things aren't insufferable about it. It's still a chore even if you're up yourself about it.
>>42149633You should Goebbelsmaxx since you're 5'5
>>42150872i'll look up what that means lol
>>42151441Embody Goebbels' aura
>"b-but cis men play league and don't wash and are racist!"Don't care. As a ftm your job is to surpass these men. If you read classics and aren't a sperg you're automatically doing better than like 80% of the modern male population.
>>42144453Except a woman is more likely to be with a man who she hates than a dickless manlet
>>42149520Make the dickless manlet a gayden and she'll be in love tomorrow
>>42144453>If you read classics and aren't a sperg you're automatically doing better than like 80% of the modern male population...doing better at meeting this anons weird personal preference. Neither this nor smoking cigars, drinking craft beers, playing/watching sportsball, etc. will in any way shape or form make you less of a female and more of a male..t cismale who could paint his nails sparkly pink, put on a cute dress and in that moment still effortlessly be more of a man than you could ever be with literally all the effort in the world
>>42149623>Stop stop she's already dead...I sensible chuckle about this every time I catch a ftm or repper crying about how much dudes suck
>>42149623>>42150100
I'm sad that women have decided to start a war against menThankfully i'm bisexualI guess i'll become gay instead
>>42149290MGTOW
>>42143100what are you actually talking about though? i have never heard this before. is this some made up incel stuff?
>>42150086women are holes
>>42150086Why is foid defense to always play dumb and pretend they can't see obvious shit ?
>>42151482im literally a fag, not a foid. dont know if it is because im a eurofag, but nonetheless i have no idea what youre talking about
All rightoid trans women defending their positions and reasoning for siding with people who want them dead reminds me so much of picture related in terms of dumbness it's unreal
>people want trannies dead for no good reason
>>42150864Just imagine the life you could have lived untainted by troonime.
>>42150864Suzaku wouldn't have been trusted with the robot to begin with if he didn't side with the Britannians
>>42150864I didn't side with them though>>42150878>imagine life if it was worse
>>42150864>code geassDamn, I have to rewatch the series >rightoid bootlickers are like a bootlickerFr fr
Why are the most outspoken voices for trans people also the ugliest transbians?
>it's actually just one zionist transphobe phoneposting and samefagging the entire threadso boring, quite literally pissing your pants for attention
>>42150808And why should that be my fucking problem when my rights are being actively restricted right now in much of the world? Sure it's not "as bad" but the fact is it's much, much easier for an average 1st world leftist to do something meaningful to help trans people than to help Palestinians. But they won't do shit. That's my issue.
>>42150823>much easier for an average 1st world leftist to do something meaningful to help trans people than to help Palestinians. But they won't do shit. That's my issue.i think its a false equivalency and if this is really concerning for you, you should push for intersectionality and support these movements rather than bitterly complaining online. Palestine is actively being bombed, starved, and children in the hundreds of thousands are being murdered by a genocidal machine, with israeli figureheads quoting the third reich on their national TV. Transgender people and trans rights do need to be championed, and i'm not going to compare suffering because that's pointless, i think it's just easier to show sympathy when most people are intentionally kept in the dark about trans issues, but that being said, i think a lot of the protest against the fascist united states and uk are pretty central to the trans movement considering the powerful in the anglosphere are using us as a boogeyman.
hey nazis your time will come, hiding behind a star instead of a swastika wont save you
love you <3
>break up with my boyfriend because I'm not really into him anymore>he uploads deepfake porn of me online>it has 480k views so far with 1239 comments talking about how hot I amRevenge backfired. This was the best thing to happen to me all year.
>>42151262i'm sorry you feel that way(since it's deepfake, they aren't talking about you, btw)
>>42151267shut up nigger
>>42150925You can't win against agps
Link it
>>42151085you think people see others who have deepfake porn of them online as degenerates instead of victims?
Why is hrt making me dysphoric? I want it's effects, so why the fuck is making me dysphoric?This is genuinely horrifying. What am I supposed to do‽ Detroon, and go back to being a man‽ I hate being a man.Am I just fucked‽ Built so incorrectly that nothing feels right‽I don't know what to do anymore. I've tried everything. At this point only a lobotomy would heal me.
>>42148240"Get over it" as in I should get over my superficial desire, or to get over my male sense of self?
>>42132777>and any time I see a older women, I'm overcome by anxiety that I will age like her if I keep taking hrt.You won't. You'll age like amab that started hrt at whatever age you did.
>>42151000Hrt will make stuff like my skin age like a woman's though
>>42142335i know, but that's probably a judgement on a specific person, not on the sex as a whole - because in the grand scheme of things, it's a useful mechanism (one might argue that in 1st world countries, it's less valuable, but i would disagree).>>42142178to be fair, being a man doesnt bring any men joy; it's the use of being a man (i.e. procreating or protecting your loved ones) that are positive. the "drowning" part sounds more like another underlying issue (if this is a depressive state, one might ask where it's coming from). i know that other person recommended HRT, i do the opposite. nothing you've said sounds like HRT would be the solution.i'll be thinking of you
>>42151238>it's the use of being a manI couldn't care less about any of them, except maybe the social privileges which are pragmatic to have, even if I feel horrible any time I'm prioritized simply for being a man.>the "drowning" part sounds more like another underlying issue (if this is a depressive state, one might ask where it's coming from)I've been depressed, albeit high-functioning, for most of my life, and there has never been any concrete reasons for it. Even when my life was "perfect" by most standards, I've still persistently felt like I was drowning and yearned to simply not be anymore.>nothing you've said sounds like HRT would be the solution.I'm aware of that, and that's the worst part by far
post minecraft skin and guess letters ^^
>>42142080Yuuri from Shoujo Shuumatsu Ryokou
Bump
you know, there's no reason to assume that someone likes yuri because they use a skin of yuuri
old and reliable skin i got as a teen
unfortunately I lost my old world because my SSD failed and I was too lazy to back everything up + I don't really play minecraft anymore because I don't have anyone to play with + SMPs are filled with literal childreneveryone is MTF except>>42144723ftm>>42142516ftm>>42139843ftm>>42144383either ftm or gayHOLY SHIT WHAT THE FUCK IS WRONG WITH THE SPAM FILTERS I HAD TO DO THE CAPTCHA 6 TIMES
OK I'm a woman who likes other women. It would be weird if I liked men and never acknowledged it. I don't like men.I never did. I don't. I don't like men. I don't like men. I DON'T LIKE MEN. Hahaha just kidding with the uppercase I don't like men. Its that simple. I never did. I've always liked women and I have had no reason to suppress attraction to men. I mean I'm not even into a lot of enbies let alone men. Right? Yeah. That would be silly. I'm used to dating women! I can't be thinking about men in this way. I mean everyone's a little bisexual and sure I did think that I liked that one guy but... but I don't like men.I never do. There's no reason... I'm not some straight bitch. I'm not gonna be some dumb dudes tradwife or a babysitter for one of the guys that's been hurt by the whole male loneliness epidemic. I mean, I know that's not all of them, but I'm just not into them. Its boring and potentially dangerous and there is no reason for me to think about it any deeper. I won't ever do any kinky shit that would be detrimental to my actual life... I only like women. My feminity does not depend on men or being weaker and even if I did find such a thing kinky or hot, its NOT ok. Its NOT Sane or Safe. I need to stop worrying about this. Besides I have a girlfriend and sure its open relationship but I... don't know. Its just weird like I only seem to like women. I've tested that already in my head.
Maybe I should stop calling myself poly and just settle down into almost-monogymy. Like, I can make my version of "poly" work; it basically just means an open relationship where acknowledging and entertaining crushes and dates and having sex with anyone is allowed as long as I'm with my primary primarily...But maybe its safer to just not do any of that any more and just be safe.
>>42150980(to be clear, I say I can make it work from experience, but only with women and I'll only EVER do it with women. Men are ok as people but I won't have sex with one or date one because I'm not into it.
Why is this bothering me so much??I can't stand it. I don't want to feel like I'm a woman just because men are attracted fo me. I don't want to fall into bad habits like other women I see who are straight or dating men. I fear the idea of losing my perspective. I fear the idea having to handle something I fucked up with before.. That kind of awkwardness on both sides.. I don't want to go through that again ever. Don't want to lose people again. I don't want to get addicted to kink and have that fuck with my head until something bad happens like that dumb bitch from One Piece with the maid outfit (I've nearly finished Dressrossa if you know about One Piece).I just want it to go away so I don't have to think about how its easier for me to be sexually submissive. I don't want that to ever become a problem again like it has before... unlike some people I don't do that because I'm not fucking stupid with kink. I think kinkshaming is a dated fucking concept at best that needs serious change.Any feeling of attraction I might feel towards men is something I worry could be a different thing, something I necessarily keep to myself. I don't need ANYONE knowing that I masturbated while skimming a fucking Counter-Earth pdf, the sci-fi/fantasy series written by a horrendous mysogenous and that gave rise to a terrible subculture known as the Gorean subculture, that I pirated. Its awful.I hate this so fucking much.Thing is I don't even like what I pirated that much at all; I just skim for the parts that show submission and domination as actions and hate the stupid monologuing of the female protagonist about how super cool it is to be a fucking slave. But I still masturbated to parts of it. Fucking why??I just want to be a women who is with women who are nice to me and make me feel safe and secure and all that shit. Just cuz I dress femme doesn't mean...
God if only I had been born liking my old body or if I had been a cis women. Gay or straight. Just anything but this..Things would be so much easier. I wouldn't have all this horrible baggage. If I was a cis woman, I could just find a man and not worry so much if he would fucking kill me. I wouldn't have all this sexual hangups. I wouldn't be a masturbation addict or want so badly to feel like a woman, to make up for lost time. I don't want to be this way. I don't want to feel like I want to do sexual experimentation all the time, like pretend to be a puppy girl. I wouldn't have this part of my brain that so desperately wants to be validated as a woman. I wouldn't have to be painfully politically aware.I wouldn't feel the need to come here and post all this garbage.I just want it to stop. Why wasn't I just born right?If I was just a cis woman... Or, actually better yet, a cis man, it would be so much easier. Actually, if I was a gay or bisexual man, that would've been best.But... thats not me. I hate this.
Hell, if I was a real cis girl, I could talk to other girls.Instead, I'm an agoraphobic loner with only my girlfriend and an OK-ish therapist to talk to about anything.
Are fem cis gay men women?
>>42150922i like having muscles
>>42151018You can enjoy mine instead
>>42151164I need muscles to live.
>>42151164hot
>>42151169Didn't ask
What kind of body would you like to have if you were a (cis) woman?
>>42141337
>>42141337just small and thin, a bit of a butt would be nice but i really don't want a chest, it seems painful and like a chore having to slosh around a shelf on my upper body.
>>42148167That is why u only can charge $90 an hour
>>42141419The one on the right I'd be happy being but also I still want to have a penis too
>>42148167Chest is the point of being a woman, like penis is the point of being a man. Rest of female body is supposed to strengthen positive impression from the chest.
Any suggestions on exercises (at home) to get really thick thighs and a big round butt? I'm doing it for my own dysmorphia and for my bf
>>42150776Isn't russian twist an exercise for abs?
You're going to have a tough time getting BIG legs with body weight alone. Your legs are the largest and strongest muscles in the body so they need a lot of work to really grow. The best you'll probably get are Bulgarian Split Squats (glutes), Sissy Squats (quads), and Nordic curls (hamstrings). Though you should start with easier exercises than these three for each muscle group and work your way up. But a lot of leg size is also fat.
>>42151017Thank you, I will look into these exercises. So far I have been doing sumo squats followed by kettlebell squats. Then glute exercises. I think genetically I might be favored, because it seems the women in my close family, me included, put on fat on the legs
>>42151023Fair warning that Nordic curls are extremely difficult and you may injure yourself trying them if you aren't already pretty strong. Look up calisthenics progression guides for each leg muscle group as the people into it are pretty autistic (in a good way) and it should save you from any injury.It's >reddit but these are decent:https://www.reddit.com/r/bodyweightfitness/wiki/exercises/squat/https://www.reddit.com/r/bodyweightfitness/wiki/exercises/hinge/
>>42150703your best bet is to get a gym membership and pick up a weightlifting routine. going 2 days a week should be all you need for good outcomes.funnily enough, this thread is a good resource:>>/d/thread/11379558
I met a girl in uni earlier this year. We generally had a pretty solid relationship, and she would talk to me about her parents and life and how sucky it is to live here. She moved away after graduating, and we haven't talked much since. She's affirmed she still wants to talk and we've planned to meet up again, but she's been so depressed with her parents and everything against her... I just wish I could help and that we could talk.
ur ngmi
>>42148715Maybe she just doesn't want you anymore?
>>42148935Maybe... we kinda said stuff was fine but it's felt different
>>42148715Aww, i hope it works outDo you try to give her validation and stuff? Maybe try saying how important she is to you?
do Asian trans girls like white guys?
>>42144002Yes, I love my boyfriend!!!! <3
>>42147955That's really an issue of perspective desu
>>42150671understandable.
>>42144002Im halfie but yes definitely
>>42144002halfie and no i hope they go extinct
